Wednesday, April 30, 2008 @ 8:03 PM
Im saaaaaaaaaaaad. ):
*sobbing*
I dont need people to confort me.
Dearest readers, Im sorry.
I dont feel like telling whats going on w. my life.
Just read up my entry for today aite?
Hopefully you understand.
Without you by my side, is not completed. You were there by my side all dhha time, despite having harsh time w. your own world. You're avoiding everyone else, including me. Im just wondering whats got into you all of sudden. Im sad you dint talk much. I miss you badly. Yes, I admit. Who willing to listen to my story? Who willing to help me push me up? Who willing to cry w. me when Im down? Who willing to make me laugh? Who willing to have jokes dhha last minute when we about to arrive our destination? Im totally lost when you werent around by my side. Theres no point turning back times. Perhaps, we already meant to make our ways, seperately.
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
You change my world, beautifully. I cant accept dhha fact you are away from me. Not me only, but others too. You made me worried. Its already heartache for me to lose my loved ones times and time, & are you intend to do it too? Perhaps yes is dhha answer.
I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
I guess, its over. Oh well, it makes me sad. I feel like crying, screaming, running away from everyone else & hating to do my work. You already part of my 1 quarter of my life. Do you realise Im pretending to be okeh in school whereas Im not ? Who notice me first when my eyes were watery? You are. Who notice me best? You are, baby. You are. Maybe, for now, you dont need me anym.
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold.
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me
All the best in whatever you. All I can say is, I miss you biggie time. Dhha old you, I meant. Good luck, love. This song in my blogspot is meant for you, sweety. No words can describe how I felt. I hope, you know my feelings. I cant bear to lose you every single time. Mins, second, hours, years & months.
Will this friendship of ours still continues ........ ? ):
This post meant for : someone close to me.
Miss Bestest of dhha Best of mine.
):
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 4:15 PM
Its been a week I dint update any news. So hell jyeah.
This coming friday & starting from next week onwards, MYE. This week, I can only study for 2 days or I should say, less than 2 days. So, I need to buck up, especially maths. (: Any tutor ? Haha!
Lil sis bdae was on dhha 26th. Went to Airport w. family. & Arshard was there too, without my realization. Saw imran ajmain. Sis got his album & autograph. Coincidencely, was his bdae. Happy bdae luh kaaaan! Ate lotsa food. Cant be describe luh. Too many pictures too. Not sure if im uploading it here anot. So, idk. (:
School pretty bored as usual. As I always dhha one who crack laaaame jokes. Sad kaaan? Today was horifying! Serious, especially bestie. Dhha next mins, shes okeh. Dhha next mins, shes in silence. Den, laugh. Den quiet. Serious siaaaak. Seems like she been posessed. *Keh crap* (: Sorry eh!
Im sick, again. Thanks to my sorethroat. Oh goooosh. ):
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 9:53 PM
Somehow, I realised, I need you biggie time. Those memories werent dhha same anym for now. Even I cried, laugh, mad & etc, youre still in my heart. Yes, Ily. ):Before going to school, ex boyf msged me. I was crying after reading his msg. Telling me to take care when Im otw to school. He's sweet unlike some people who gossiped about me having lotsa boyfies. Jealous keper saaaah? Enough. (Get back to it later)Reached school, Feeka & Sya were asking 'EEEFA, ko okeh tak? Mater ko, aper jadi nie?' Omg, I dint know my eyes were so swollen. They know me best luh! (: I told Sya dhha whole thing & she were upset. Thanks grrl for showing some concern. ILY! Mr Chong were absent again. Mr Muru lesson were next & I got no mood to laugh or talked. Ms Tong's were next. I was rude to her. I feel like breaking down. Im weak. After recess, talked to some of dhha malay boys. Thanks eh! After recess, ate usual stuff. Feel like breaking down again. But, I held back my tears. I have to held that tears. Awhile later, Im fine, oltho theres some sadness in me. (:Art ended early as theres a talk in dhha hall regarding about Mid Year Exam. Dhha talk were pretty bored. It was hot & uncomfortable for us. So, no choice, I gta listen & pay attention. After dhha talk, we had CIP.CIP were pretty laaaaame. We have to walked 1 biggie round just to pick up litters. Pathetic kan? I know. & Jyeah, weather was hot that time okeh! I was sweating like mad dog siooool. (:OKEH END OF TODAY POST. (:Why must you always talked back behind me? If you dare, talk face to face uh shey. Hate me? Say it. Spit it out. Tak yah nk bbl blakang ako! ASS ~
Monday, April 21, 2008 @ 9:32 PM
RAIHAN : yes babe. IMY like hell. Meet up soon okeh?AYDAA : im fine, sweetie. Tak hilang ke maner2 sihh.ANNIE : HAHA! jyeah. Perhaps, next time ?ZARIINA : loooove :D Hello lovelies! Im fine after those fights & ol. Now, I love my life for dhha time being. School were fun. Seriously. Mr Chong, Mr Lim & Mr Muru dint attend school. I had lotsa fun w. my cliques. Sya, Feeka, Alvin, Ho & Kelvinder. (: They made my day pretty awesome. Sya made her stomach pain for some reason. Due to my jokes? (Bedek uh EEEFA!) Sya kept saying ex boyf's name for like almost half a day. Jyeah, i miss him biggie time ): hell jyeah, I gta move on. For some reasons. Next, I will be talking about Friday & Saturday incident. Not incident luh shey. Friday, I had so much fun w. my boyfies. Superb coooool. Pictures are in friendster (: I wore green color, people.Saturday, met nisyaa bby. Met her @ bugis. Walked around bugis. Went Peninsula, boat quay den Marina. I haaaaad so much fun! Thanks bby for dhha surprises. You know, hotel thingy? (:Oh people, i need to bath. Aku terpaksa pergi. (:
Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 7:05 PM
New chapter . (: I dont wish to say anyt, bcox I dont need anyt more than love. So, its all up to me to decide.I had fun this few days. Met new cliques & they were awesome. Btol oii !!I just couldnt fine more than words. Openly, I miss my old me. Happy birthday Rio. (:Sweet seventeen .Picture will be uploaded soon. Through friendster. Not here.
Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 8:41 AM
Its beeeeen a loooooooooooooong time for me to update. Excluded Thursday's post. (:
Jyeah, was MIA for awhile. Due to personal problems.
Monday, met Mr Boyf & his cliques @ Compass P. He treated me (as he promised); Oreo Cheesecake & as for dhha drink, i forgotten dhha name. Thanks Mr Boyf. (:
Tuesday, i cant remembered. Sorry.
This few days [ Wednesday - Friday ] , Im feeling so tired. Was helping Hana's juniors to choreograph. It was so tiring till I feel like collapsing. Their attitude were super irritating. I seriously cant handle them so, I in-charge of dhha boys. Luckily, I can handle them. As for dhha grrls, Hana in-charge. Dhha next day ( Thursday ) , im feeling superbly tired till my friends asked if im okeh. All I said, was jyeah with my eyes swollen like ass. (: & dat day supposingly my last day to teach them. As for friday, I thot I had no more lesson with them. Receved Hana's msg & calls, there is a lesson. That msg was a last minute. So I need to rush back home & get change. WTFISHcake? This time round, I gta be serious w/ them. (:
Telling Mr Boyf, how their attitude is. Ending up, I get a lecture from him. Sickening. I cried from Wednesday till Friday. Hais, he got dhha point. He lectured me for not eating my lunch, too soft hearted with them, dint get paid from dhha lessons & etc . Hais )=
Today, is Saturday. Thank god. I get to rest. Superb fresh now as I slept like pig. Oh not forgetting, Nisya gf called me. We talked halfway as I was aslp when we're in a conversation. Im sooorry love!
Thot of going Esp w/ my cliques. Budden bcox of this, I dont feel like going. Tired oii !
Anyway people, sorry for not posting quite sometime.
Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 9:05 AM
Okeh best. I miss seeeeeeeeeeri :D
