Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 11:43 AM
Thanks so much fo respecting my decision. I know it wasnt th wise want, but somehow, I wna explore th world by myself. I kept on thinking fo how long shall I explore th world by myself but, deep down, it hurts me alot by saying 'Leave me alone' & I guess I really mean it.
I aint myself fo th past few days & I knew theres someth going on with my life but, I shall remain calm & kept quiet, shant reveal those problems that Im facing now. Th only clue is time.
When will th time? When is th time fo me t reveal it? I dont feel like revealing it until Im okeh & comfortable with th new environment. Im trying my best t adapt th changes & Im taking it slowly. Once step @ a time; I shall say.
Go and think about whatever you need to think about. Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about, bcox only thing I can do is just support you all th way from behind. I cried alot & I dont feel like eating. Questions been rewinding back & forth till Im disappointed by myself fo treating th worst ever. Looking @ th mirror, I saw my watery eyes & water droplet falling down my cheeks seconds by seconds. This isnt th way but, I really cant tolerate w it.
People seems t understand me pretty much, but, do they know how miserable can I be? Put yourself in my shoe. Person you loved most among friends/family avoid & telling you that she/he okeh indeed you know she/he wasnt okeh & telling you off do not disturb sign. How do you feel? And, th person you love, went t other party? How sad can it be? Put that in, people.
Until this problems wasnt solve, I shall remain like this. For god & my sake, do not disturb me. I swear, I need t adapt th new environment & space. Give me that & I try my best t look th brighter side
Not okeh, fo th meantime; Avoid
Monday, October 27, 2008 @ 10:51 PM
I hung up the phone,something happened for the first time, cause the possibility that you would ever feel was t understand me & th world.Why do I keep running from the truth bcox someday, you'll know th truth which is lying ):If yelling is th best way fo you, do it.For now, let me be myself. I've been thinking this lately & somehow, my mind is up. Be a good or bad, my choice. Crying late night is my everyday routine, avoiding food is my daily exercise & still, only this question is always in my mind. What is love?I cant figure it out till, I found th avoid-tion. For once, do not disturb me.Didnt pick up any calls from friends especially love but my heart says no as I really need my space t enjoy my life t the fullest. I dont wna miss this opportunity that bad. Bottomline : Leave me alone as I need space fo myself----Im sick. Im having fever & I kept vomitting. Didnt eat that much since last week. Worst, each time I walks, it as if Im flying. Somehow I know Im gna be sick. Indeed am sick.Problems came & okeh, I dont wna elaborate that much. I shant reveal th whole story t everyone.I never knew this was th hardest way but, somehow one of us will/ will never regret making th decision. Whatever it is, I aint myself. When Im alone, are you there? When I needed you th most, where have you been? When Im sick, are you there t accompany me? Are you holding me back since Im walking away from you? Its as if, indeed Im all alone.. I chose friends.Somehow you dont understand me & th world ):
@ 1:32 AM
Saturday -
12pm in th afternoon, someone called me up with my fcuking voice. He told me that im superb cute with that kind of voice. Lammo lah yoooou!
Went W'lands fo Raya visiting & went one of my uncle's open house. I miss cousins but only Hairul who came. Dint talk that much. I kept sms-ing Sweetheart since I miss someone badly): He went fo overseas & will be back on Monday. Midnight, he start t msging me & i told him that i miss him muchly. While smsing him, my tears rolled down. ):
Sunday -
Went JB t do some housechores with family. I did some shopping spree & finally I got to shop fo what I needed most. Thanks lah kaaans! Reached home, someone text me up. Haha, sweetheart, you know I know lah kan ~ Jyeaaaahs! WE RIDE !!!!
Monday -
Supposingly our plan works but somehow, its spoilt due t th rain. Look kinda frustrating but, I manage t meet my love(: Meeting her later on ~
Cousins, do miss me !
HAHAHHAHA :D
To you: You coming home in hours time! I cant waaait ! And, I miss yoooooooooou :D
Friday, October 24, 2008 @ 11:10 PM
People were asking me who is th hell is that stranger & what does he/she want? Simple, one day, I'll know th name & I got no idea what he/she up to. Actually, stranger got noth t do with me. Its between Dilah & that stranger. So, easy said, please stop this nonsense cn, people? Its kinda irritates me. Do th tag @ th person you hate. Not th person who got noth t do with this issue.Irritating ~Okeh, outing w friends were great. I've got th chance t meet new cliques & they were friendly oii ~ Treated me pretty good & well mannered. Lazy t post that long. Pictures still @ handphone. I will upload pretty soon, lovelies!To you: Have a pleasant journey & rest assured, I'll be fine. Do take care & do drive safely. Gonna miss you ): But somehow, I have t be independant. Miss you !
Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 6:03 AM
OVERDUED PICTURES (:
ENJOOOOOOY!
Saturday, October 18, 2008 @ 10:45 AM
I had a wonderful moments with my family, cousins, relatives, friendsm outsiders & especially being around with Sweetheart & Boyf; during my open house(:
Both of them were superb sweet & they stayed till late night. Thanks lovelies!
One by one came.
And there are Acap & Lina, Muzh & Nadia, Soh & Ana, Anie with Hazimah, Naqib, Wannie, Tze Shin & Siti.
Dilah & Yat. Hana came later ~
Aftermath, were th Tampines Cliques: Ayda, Endra, Nina & three other mates.
Then Fykie & Dan ~
Anws, Anie get 2 of my HONEY CHICKEN ~
HAHA :D
After she left, th hot honey chicken came, aiyooohs suay huh ?!
Anws,
I was expecting Darling t come, but, eventually she dint turn up.
Well lingg, next time okeh? I still waiting fo ma chocs! Hahaha :D
Easy said, lots of mates came later lah! Aiyoooohs :D
Kak Zai & Kak Fid, thanks fo turning up taaao! Love you both & indeed, I merajok okeh! Haha :D
Oh, open house is sucha blast. Thanks fo everyth lovelies~!
Pictures from Ana & Siti.
I want those pictures okeh!!!
Thaaaaaaaaanks!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @ 12:10 PM
Im baaaaaaaaaack, like finally. After sometime, I've been running away from this computer & finally, I get t touch this keyboard. *heaveeeeen!*
Life has been a great one, & I thank god I got everyth. Oh, did I mention everyth? NONO~ Its never be an everyth t me. I met new friends & new friends t slack which ako muker poster nak mampos!!
Ns, finally over & now, Im focusing on life which I rlly wna enjooooooooooooy nak mmpos~
Sweetheart were pretty upset t me bcox I put her aside. Haha! Never will I put her aside altho she's pain in my ass but, I still love her altho she ketot nak mampos. Haha. Kidding bodo!
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Someone complaint t me that someone want th old me. Oh hello! Altho I change, it never comes t th bad side. If you change me, of couse I'll stick t it bcox you're th one who taught me this. For goodness sake, whose talking that I change fo th very very very first time. You th one who said 'its okeh, small matter' & bla bla . Im sick & tired of you, someone! Pain in my aaaaaaaaaaaaaaass!
Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 10:50 AM
Hari Raya Outing was fun (:
I was aiming 15 houses, indeed, it went on smoothly(: Boyf dint believe @ first, till cliques named all houses and it reached 15. Imagine, till 10am in th morning until th next day. Wow! Amazing aye? I had fun with my fabulous classmates & Boyf! Thanks guys!
Till one of them said 'Alamak, pengantin baru aderh ah!' Hahaha :D
And, its Farid.
Thot of going t Darling's house since I miss her terribly, but, its okeh. Wait on th 18th I guess?
Theres one part, went t AMK, my old neighbout who is a grandma. She took great care of me & sisters. Enter'd her house, tears rolled down on my cheeks. Sungguh sad & cliques were there fo me. Thanks people! Gave money fo her hospital expenses & thanks guys for giving it willingly!
Last was my house & Im all shagged. Yes, too shagged. I got blister on my leeeeeeeeg! Sial, tak favourite oii !!!
Pictures, I'll upload later can? Tired siol! Goodnight!
Tuesday, October 07, 2008 @ 4:06 AM
CHANGE OF TIMING
TEE ONE & TEE TWO
OUTING ON TH 10TH IS CONFIRMED.
@ 10.00AM, MEETING PLACE WILL BE DIY'S HOUSE.
FOR THOSE WHO CANNOT MAKE IT, TEXT ME YOUR REASON.
MUST BE A VALID REASON, i REPEAT, VALID
CURFEWS, PROBATIONS OR WHATSOEVER, INFORMED ME
ASAP.
Monday, October 06, 2008 @ 9:15 AM
Left one more paper, Im done with N Level. Yipppppee ~ I cant enjoy that much thou, bcox Im finding some time t slot my busy-ness. Bcox, I needa throw all books since Sec 1-4 !!! And, my room will not be in mess of books anym. (:
Anie, told me that my post above is so fierce till I force them. Haha, cute kan my sayang nie? Haha.
After Pei Hwa outing, will be North Spring. So get ready eh budak2 North Spring (:
I needa mug fo EOA now. I rlly wna pass this subject(: Mugging fo EOA, here I coooooooome!
And, currently Im missing Syaee, Seri Ayunie & Zariina.
Friday, October 03, 2008 @ 8:54 PM
