iBaN: puas hati??
: Puas hati di golden chance :D

M.L: puas hati
: Haha, Puas hati di golden chance

ila: HUH ?! APE YG SOMBONG ?!
: Uhhuh, sombong. Bey asal? HAHA

ATika: i miss eu..
: IMYT, bby(:

Astiana: Lookin' good eh efa!
: Of course. Forever looking good :D

eka/emika: Goshhh! Imy like hell.
: And yes, Imyt bbygirl!

annie: babe, ive changed my link tau. (:
: Olrite, will relink you. Thanks!

AISYAAAH: Link kuuuu!
: Haha, okeh sayang!

mimin: helo...link aku ar...
: Haha, sebook jek. Okeh lah, link kow!

SYIRAIN: relink me hunny!
: Oh sure, sweets

efa: darling, last long wif ur bf ((:
: Aww, thanks bby!

H a i K a L: Sis , last long with your bf & both of you look great together (:
: Brotheeeer! Thanks so much brother(:

ayDaa: EEFA last long yaww . i perform at chingay u noe . haha okay tc
: Serious? Dint bump into you somewhere. Anws, you're missed by me!

eka/emika: efa efaaaaaaaaaaa
: Yer syg?

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Eversince school has started, problems kept coming in & out. Im too weak t face th truth but, how I wish this wasnt a reality. This event makes me feel scared & Im too scared t face it. Worst than a nightmare, I persume.

I miss someone whom I always close w since I was Sec 1, 2005. All I ever wanted is you t be normal w me back. I dont ask much. I dont want you t avoid me just bcox what had happen few days back. All I ever want is, atleast reply my text. Please dont avoid. ):

Sweetheart was there within time t time & I owe her a big & large sum of apologies. Why, bcox of me, she always cry & now, she dont wish history t repeat itself. Babe, Im sorry fo everyth. Maybe, Im th one who cause all those problems. ):

I've been crying all day & nights just t make me feel better. Yes, crying as much as I want makes me feel @ ease. True enough but deep down, Im still hurt which Idk why. Too sad ?

Went town w cliques & I enjoyed myself pretty well except fo going home. Was so touching till I felt like crying but I held back bcox I dont want him t worried that much. And, I want him t feel proud fo having me as his love(:

Sorry seems t be th hardest way ):












I told myself that when people are gone, we have t be happy instead of crying & whine like a lil baby. Yes, I miss my late aunty. She's th one who protect me if theres someone/somebody touches me. Theres once, I told her off & telling her that I dont need anybody bcox Im big enough t think, but I was wrong. When th day, I seek fo forgiveness, is th day she took her last breathe. Now, Im missing her ):

I even told myself not t repeat those mistakes, but somehow, Im doing it all over again. Although, without making th mistake, it pushes th blame on me. Yes, Im pretty upset but, its nevertheless I'll be fine. Take it as an obstacles then.

Ever since I stepped into ITE, problems that Im facing were tough & unpredictable. I gta face those, all alone. Leaving me t make th 1st move & I knew it wasnt me myself & I who wants it but, deep down its my heart who told me t make 1st move. And thanks so much fo making me all sad & disappointed.

Am I th one who makes people surrounds me in difficulty? Am I th one who cause everyone heartache & making them suffer without me thinking of them? Everyth puts th blame on me & I really cant control it. Everytime theres conflicts, I was th one who always keeping quiet bcox deep down I cant bear w it. Its th same old thing & that makes me upset.

Making others t have wild thoughts that going through their mind but @ th end of th page, apology came out. Im too weak t face this obstacle alone & I need someone t accompany me but Im sure none will face this together w me.

Im happy muchly b'cox atleast theres someone who always there behind my back all th time. And, that person always there without fail. Despite of my bad tantrums, that someone always shower me w pure love. Although sometimes theres conflicts & its always th same whole thing, I realised it makes us want t learn how th world goes without any love in us. I ensure that without love, theres no relationship. That someone also known as my one & only boyf, Muhd Lufthy(:




Bby, thanks so much fo always there fo me without fail. You're th one who showers me w love & you're th one who never fails t buy what I always want that entitled, Love, Care & Concern, Trust & Smile. Without you, Im sure my life will completely went down th drain. Thanks fo making me stand still & always remind me t look @ th brighter side of world. And, ensure me that I will never fall. Thanks so much fo feeding me w medicine when I terribly fall sick. Thanks so much fo concern my health when my sickness came suddenly. And thanks so much, fo giving me an opprtunity t love you once again.

Wednesday -

Went down t Changi Beach w Boyf t relax our minds & bath. Been complaining t boyf that I really wna go there t bath & chill. So, without any hesitation, he said 'Okeh'. Cool kan aderh mataer gerek punyerh!

So, reached there th weather was fine & Im lovin' it! Aper lagi, tros maaaaaaaaandy lah :D Boyf was cute as he took 1 stick & drew our name on th sand. After drawing he told me 'ILoveYou Darling'. Sweet yet touch, I assume.

So, almost 2-3 hours done w th beach, we went t Old Changi Hospital. Must be wondering why went there right? Well, since I havent been there & was so puzzled, we decided t give a try. So, upon reaching, I saw ITE Simei Student headed there & IDK which school (Aqua bottom & white color blouse). Walk around & kind of creepy lah.

This part, shant elaborate.

Thursday -

School was fine fo me but deep inside was down lah due t last night incident. First lesson was PE. Ran 1 whole round & do some exercising. Did sit up, crunches & all sort of exercise that regarding almost NS life. HAHA!

But was fun lah, since cliques made lotsa fun of it :D Love-d.

Few period after break time, theres Test fo Mrs Ghaffar lesson AGAIN. I was pissed off & again, it was a last minute. I was so pissed off & almost burst into tears but, I remain calm. So, again friends were there & they really do. Thanks :D

Did some of it & was okeh lah since I took my sweet time t do it. HAHA! Out of th school w Seri,
Zuzu, Hidayah & Ashikin. Got seperated & went w boyf. Had lunch w him & he was so adorable lah! HAHAHA! Saaaayang kamu ah matrep tak menjady. *winks*

Friday -

Me & Boyf stayed @ my crib. Almost one whole day spent. Thanks fo accompanying me, dearest. Watched some movies, cartoons & we even cooked. Oh not me, its boyf. Was so spicy yet delicious. HAHA! Good job, sayang.

So, stayed till mummy reached & he went off.

Saturday -

Today will be heading t W'lands as Ardila partner will be having wedding ceromony not fo her, but her 2nd bro! Yezza, cant wait t meet her!





Real, lasting relationships are built on trust. Trust is foundational because it creates a safe environment for intimacy to grow. If your relationship is going to work you need to be able to trust your partner with your past, your present and your future. Trust takes time and effort, is easily broken and hard to restore but if you're willing to work at it, the reward is the relationship you've always dreamed of.

Revealing Your True Self

Trust allows you to reveal who you really are. In spite of all the tricks we use to try and impress someone during the early stages of dating, intimacy is founded on knowing and being known. Your partner has to get to know the real you – what you're like when you're tired, angry, frustrated, elated or talking to your Mom on the phone. He has to love you as you are, not as he hopes you might be. Anything less won't last.

Honest Communication

Trust opens the door to honest communication. You can't communicate honestly if you're always second-guessing how your partner will react and rephrasing your thoughts to fit in with his agenda. Communication takes concentration.


Ask questions: Don't assume you understand what a person means. Once you ask a few questions, it doesn't take long to really find out what he really means.

Listen: To become a better communicator, you must be willing to listen so you can understand the other person's perspective.

Observe and be willing to verify the information you receive.

Let people know what you are thinking by sharing it. By disclosing information about yourself, it aids the other person in understanding who you are and how you are understanding them.

Remember that love covers a multitude of sins. If your motives are wanting to understand people and accept them for who they are, then communication will be easier. But if you set out to convince them that your way is the right way, then that's not communication. And that's not love.

Fair Fights

Once you've cleared up your communication, trusting your partner will help you to fight fair when disagreements occur. Face it, if you're involved with a living, breathing human being you are going to fight. Whether the fights tear you apart or actually resolve conflicts and bring you closer together depends on whether or not you fight fair.
What is a fair fight? Most experts agree that fair fighting does the following:
Stays on topic. Now is not the time to bring out a list of past wrongs. Deal with the issue at hand.
Refuses to resort to name calling and insults. Remember that the point of the argument is solve something, not tear the other person to bits or badger them so they'll quit and you'll win. If you don't respect your partner, or if they feel attacked, they'll stop listening.
Avoids generalizations and sticks to the facts. "You always" or " you never" statements do not reflect reality and will only put your partner on the defensive. Stick to what actually happened and how it made you feel.

Building Trust

Trust doesn't just naturally happen between two people, even if they love each other. It takes work and if you've been hurt in the past, it can be especially difficult. Building trust takes time, you need to show your partner that you are trustworthy and that you trust them in return. If your partner has trouble trusting, you can do a lot to create an environment where trust can grow. Listen to your partner, respect him and his opinions, and accept him as he is. Reveal parts of your own history, show him that you trust him and you will help him to do the same. If you are vulnerable it helps your partner to feel that he is safe to be vulnerable as well.

Don't rush it. If you truly love your partner and want what's best for him, you'll wait. If you're in a relationship with someone you feel you can't trust, don't ignore it. If you have trouble trusting anyone, you might want to seek counseling before you run away from what could be a great relationship. Your past does affect your ability to trust. However, if trust hasn't been a problem for you in the past and your gut is telling you to protect yourself from this guy, take it as a warning. Take a close look at who he is, how he treats others and how he treats you. Your gut may be giving you good information.

Im pretty upset w my current behaviour & Im sure, we'll overcome it somehow. Im stuck in th midst of busy-life. I tried put so many ways t overcome those obstacles but, I failed. Eventually, I wna give up but hell no, Im sure one fine day, I'll prove others wrong! So, all th best Nur Iffah Izzah.

I did badly fo my 1st test fo Mrs Ghaffar's class. I did badly & reason was, I wasnt prepared. A last minute test, I suppose? While doing, Shahril kept asking me lots of question till, I forgotten th methods. Thanks eyk! Eventually, first attempt I did correctly, but bcox of him asking me lots of question & making me kanchiong, I change & my answers were totally sucks big time. After I print out, he asked me 'Eh, buat salah!' I was so pissed off & feel like crying. Another one, while doing th test, I was stuck one of th quest. I asked Yan Ping by whispering, & she was like 'Huh?! Idk' whereas, I saw she did already. And I said this, 'No need t shout can?' I was so pissed off. I know I shouldnt ask while doing th test, but somehow, almost 3/4 of it, asked as it was a last minute test. Atleast, Mrs Ghaffar should atleast revise bit by bit.

Now, Im all pissed off ):

Small tiff w boyf & am sorry. I shouldnt talk t you in a rude manner. And thanks fo giving me hopes t continue this lovely relationship w you. And thanks fo always being there fo me without fail. I love you, Lufthy(:

Bump'd into Azura @ Compass. And, still havent change a bit. Haha, same old her I must say. Goosh, I miss 4T1 & 4T2. Looking forward next 2 Sunday! (:

Now, Im stress over this project which need t hand in Feb,11. Any helps indeed?

Am sorry fo th laaaaaaaaaate post of th year :D

Basically, school were fine w me except fo th new environment, I gta adapt it sloooooowly. Lemme re-cap what happen, fo th 1st day of school.

I was all prepared & got abit tensed up bcox, I hate going t school w long journey bus. Supposingly took 88 together w Ayla bby. But somehow, she's late fo 1st day of school, so told her why not we took taxi since its already 7.30 as we needa reach school atleast 8.30am (bus journey was about 1hour+) So, took taxi & off. Waited fo her friend @ J8. And finally, get t meet up w Eyla bby fo ages. Went t th Foyer t seek fo help as Idk where is my class. We've been seperated & was so down. But nvm, fo 1st day of school met new chics, Ayin, Ashikin & Seri. Played ice breaking & etc. Introduction here & there. And was glad, my class were friendly! Breaktime w Shahril, Ayin, Radz & me. 4 setan boooh. Smoke break outside & get ready t play some games. Aftermath, dismissal.

Th next day.

Went t school w Ayin, Radz, Shahril, Nana & me. So, saw one of new student in our class, Mira. So, get t find out, Radz & her was th same secondary school whereas Ayin & her stays @ same hometown, Yishun. Stays few blocks away. So, told her t go w us. Went t ITE Mach fo our CCA & took netball fo it(: Saw Hana bby, Kisyana bby, Theron, Hui Qing & etc. I dint get t meet Fadiana): After signing up, met th boys & off t home together. Met boyf aftermath

Wednesday.

We, th 5 devils, Ayin, Radz, Shahril, Mira & me headed t school together. So, played treasure hunt. Was fun lah run here & there. Then, smoke break awhile & off t class fo some schedule. Then, boyf fetched me. Ilovehim lah bohs!

Thursday.

School per normal w th same mates. Waited fo Mira as she was late. All fo one, one fo all. Headed t comp lab fo lesson. Baek pa? Gereeeeeeeeeeek lah! And, conflicts appear. Sighs!

Friday.

Noth special just went out w boyf. Had fun lah! Went t Bugis, Suntec & Beach road w school uni. Baek pa? Sayaaaanq kow lah mataerku!

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I dont seems why some people or cerain well likely know almost about me have t backstabbed me. Telling one of th scariest secret t someone whom always there fo me by my side 24hours. Whats th point telling that? I trust you yet, you did this behind my back. Yes, this quote always appear in my head 'Its better you tell rather than th person knew itself' I tried myself t tell but, I couldnt bcox I knew somehow we will have conflicts. And thanks babe fo backstabbing me!
Sayaaaang kow smpi kow kene buat ako mcm ginik. Trime kaseh terlalu banyak sampai tk perlu lagi. I know by telling it will help but somehow, ATLEAST after telling ATLEAST tell me thru Sms-es saying you told th secret but you DID NOT. Oh bby, thanks alot. Now, Im disappointed by your actions.

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And t my eldest sister, kow dah buat bende salah taknak mengaku. Dah kai kasot ako bilerh ako nk pakai tros pecah. Aper mksod kow siol. Dgr2 ako pakai tros pecah pa? Dgr2 ako kai kasot tuh tok p school perh. Aper point kuat kow aderh siol? Alah, org dah buat salah takkan mengaku nyerh.

GOODBYE ASSHOLES READERS, so not in th mood.

Currently in school's Lab. Saw familiar faces & just smiled. Oh jyeah, my class rawks lah :D

I try changing my url fo blog but somehow, I couldnt resist it. Yes, I tried my very best t change but somehow its kind of difficult fo my readers t interact w me/communicate w me thru blog. So, being a kindhearted blogger of yours, I shall stick t this url. Please say thank you t me! Oh, yes Im kind of lazy t relink your url since it has been 24/7 change. Can you guys simply stick t one, please?

Before I forget, Happy 2009 babies! 2008 was a memorable one, i suppose & let me rewind back if I can.

January, had a new co-form teacher & was kind of lame. He talk'd t us as if we're nothing t him. Teacher who loves t shout & point fingers @ th devil ones who are innocent by doing is not right whereas th innocent ones are th one who creates trouble non stop hit.

Day by day.. Months passes by..

Receive messages & entertain each other. His none other, Muhd Arif. Yes, we text each other without fail. And without any further, we start t got ourselves into r'ship. His a sweetass boyf but somehow day by day we started t have conflicts. Due t some misunderstanding which we're facing. We end ourselves there.

By then, create new clan altho just met/knew/knew but dint bother t talk.
Fo example, Adnan, Ct, Apiz, Lufthy, Boyan, Kadir, Bobby, Farid, Amal & etc

They are th one whom always there fo me without fail. Always there by my side. Always there when im down. They're th best among all.

New chapter. Im happy w my boyf. Contented by having him by my side, ass, life & etc. Th one whom can support me without fail. Altho it cant be convinced, somehow I knew deep down I love my current boyf & Im sure he loves me too. Conflicts here & there but nvm, thats what r'ship is(:

Sweetheart known as Nur Syahadah whom I love t disturb & criticise her name. She's th one whom I can throw my problems, cravings & tantrums into. She too can tolerate my nonsentical behaviour. Although Im down, Im still able t laugh my ass off. Regarding her name, she used t named herself Syaha, after knowing, I started calling her Syahaha ~ HAHA! But t be honest, I love her t th core(: Now, since we're far apart from each other & our ITE school are far from each other, we never fail t be there. Thanks love!!

Now, its end of 2008. 2009 coming & its already started. LoLs!

1 Jan:

Suprisingly I rot @ home doing noth & I was too kanchiong about school life. After getting know, most of them whom I usually be w are in th same ITE w me. So, no worries now.

2 Jan:

Went fo th registration. Suprisingly saw Mimmye & her mom. But somehow she appealed @ Simei. Hopefully she can stick th same ITE w me *Winks!* While register, theres group of matreps su'un tk perlu. Walked like a big fcuk & talk sak2. Then later, minahs came ~ Since Im way toooooooo friendly, I smile & some smiled @ me back. So, no worries. After register, received a form saying no coloured hair & stuff, so I told boyf this 'Meypek nyerh~ Malas siol nak layan! Mcm secondary school gtuk~' Haha! He agreed on this & laugh! Wadda hell. So, bought my uniforms & off t some nearby shopping centre. After much talking, headed down t boyf's hometown, slacked forawahile @ his home & off. Aftermath, he came my house & slack'd w my family.

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Suprisingly, school has started. So, hows school babies? Wishing you guys luck & keep trying okeh?!

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