Im bored + Im stress over my theory. I rlly need t buck up but, idk how & where t start. I guess, Im doomed ):

3 days please be over ~


Oh, school wasnt a great one. I got thrashed by someone I closed. Fcuk, I had being like this, pathetically Im so upset. Whatever dude.

Its been a long time I last update a proper one. So, here it goes. I had alot of fun these day & I rlly appreciate it, ALOT. Altho theres ups & down that Im facing, but somehow, I manage t stay strong as ever(:

My bby was there fo me & its none other than Nur Syahadah, sweetheart ku. I miss her effing lots only god knows how much I miss her. And, babe, thanks oke fo giving me hopes & th strength when Im weak. Anws, meet you soon on Friday. Haha. Love you[=

School was great & I had fun, overall. Friends were there but, I manage t give my friends a big smile on their face.

Test is around th corner, yet I have not been revising. How am I gna revise when Im currently working? Sighs* If only Im a robot who doesnt know whats th meaning of tired, that will be fine.

Omg, I miss shopping & again, babies birthday is around th corner yet I have not been searching nor buying any of them.

Zul's birthday is th same date as my anni w sweetheart = 23rd.
Lil sis birthday falls on th same date as my darling, only = 26th.
Cousin irham birthday = 25th.
Cousin Kak Eda falls th next day of my lil sis & darling = 27th.

Tell me that ! Omg, Im broke yet Im saving a lil pocket money. Stress nyer ]=

I miss soccer, eventually. But I cant due t my backbone. Gosh, I miss soccer terribly.



How's my post overall? Bored? Nvm, will update a better one later! Now, Im gna change & meet cliques. Toodles people!

Too much lies & too much cries but I rlly have t bear w it. Im sorry fo treating it in a harsh way but I guess, Im too much t deal w. Sorry once again.




And, Im feeling so hot due t th weather. Before & after bathing, Im all perspired. Wth. Currently, Im dont have th mood.

Update! Update! Update!

Am sick. Down w flu, abit feverish & headache. *sighs*

I had fun w love today. And finally we went out. Firstly, we were kinda lost as we werent know where t go & finally, we made up our mind & went t Airport. Haha, sounds lame but we had fun, eventually. BOOYA!

Went t Terminal 1 & had our late lunch. Both of us had Nasi Ayam Penyet & as fo th drinks, blackcurrant & soya bean. Hehs, I had a wonderful meal w love today. Thanks love. And yes, th Nasi Ayam Penyet sungguh sedaaaaaaaaap. Nak lagi! Hehs.

After we had our meal, decided t go Expo since theres sales. I was so into this dress & th heels were fabulous siol. Nak jugak but, was broke. Nvm then, shall be giving amiss. After that, went into another Hall & love dragged me in t th Furniture's Exhibition. Wth, I was so paiseh & th designers thought we were th married couple who owns a flat. -_-"

Walk'd around th showroom & was so paiseh nak mampos. They even told us t sign & renovate this & that. After much walking, decided t go home.

Stop @ Pasir Ris Interchange & took 88. Aftermath, home sweet home(:

Overall, I had fun w love!

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Tomorrow will be a better one, right?

School will resume this Monday & I've not yet well prepared. Not even my projects. Wth, Im so gna be dead. Nvm, will burn th midnight oil.

Sighs, I feel so disappointed + frustrated at th same time. Always & everytime Im to blamed. Why? Just bcox Im soft hearted & too kind, you can act harshly. You know Im weak, but Im trying my veh best t be strong not t make me weaker.

Im sorry if you got all tensed up after reading.

Meeting me everyday & calling me late at night almost everyday wont make you a problem but as fo me? I dont have any peace. You may call, you may meet but not almost everyday. Yes, do love me but what about me? Have you ever think of my feelings? Nono, Im not disgusted, irritated nor i hate you but, please give me atleast freedom fo myself. When Im out w friends, you called me just t ensure where am I & w whom. Cant you trust me? Im jealous when everytime my friends' boyfriend let them go out w friends wheareas Im seek fo permission ending up, I've been scolded. All I ever want is you t understand my priority & freedom, thats th least I want from you. Cant you see, Im trying t be nice but, now, you've been acting so weird & cold towards me. I felt so upset but, I try t cool down & think noth. Not a single bit. But you, whenever you came my house, all you gave were your sulking face. Without fail I asked you whats wrong w you, all you said is just 'tkder pape... okeh lah & just jeling' Imagine if I did that t you, how do you feel? Tell me how long can I be like this? Crying just fo you & only you. Cant you see how much value you are t me? I cant even text my friends. If I text, you wna know. Cant you see I want some privacy? Yeah, you're my one but, this isnt what I want from th start!

Now, Im crying just fo you. Tell me is this a good one fo you?

I want it t be th most perfect celebration during my 17th, but none came true. How long can I wait?

I love you but this isnt what I want, from th start.

Im bored t death, so why not I update my blog.
Takot member complain blog ako mendak, takde post ~

So, lemme open one topic about Trust.

Trust is an important job fo everyone including yourself. Yes, believe anot, try. I know many of you want t trust & t be trust. But, what will happen if your opposite partner did not trust you wheareas you're telling th truth? How can you convince him/her enough? Easy, fellow readers.

Fo like example:
If you broke your friend/lover's trust, try gaining his/her trust back. Meaning, if you did one mistake which your friend/lover cant forget, all you can do is just make th opposite way. Yes, making him/her happy which can lead you both a happy life.

I once broke someone's heart accidentally bcox behind I told him lies such as meeting one person but end up, its more than one. From there, someone is already hard t believe. On that point of time, I was already losing hope as I want people t trust me but yet, no. It turn out terribly. I talk in a nice way, without giving problems & telling someone that I was in a wrong previously & wanting fo forgiveness telling it wont happen again. From there, someone slowly & slowly believe. See people, try convincing & Im sure, it'll lead a happy life(:

Another topic, Control.

You may control anyth you want. But you must have th limit. Controlling overboard may seems pretty risky. Wont have any freedom. Th reason why I open this topic is bcox from what I've been experiencing fo 17 years in life.

Sometimes, I like people control me but sometimes, no. Advantage, secured & th disadvantage is no freedom.

I felt secure when people control me just t make sure Im safe & etc but after much realising, its kind of irritating. As if, theres no freedom. You cant go out w your loved ones especially as if your loved one were bad influence. Sometimes, I do want people control me but not that much. No time curfew, not much control, & etc.

Dont worry, Im just saying th truth & what I've been experience. I wish ....

I always wonder why cant people control me less. I know my friends were majority guys instead of girls but, that doesnt mean I cant hang around w them. I know my time limit, I know my mix w friend limit.

Friends, if you've been control too much in your years, its time you try & take some fresh air. It may smoothen your feelings down(:

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Now, Im superbly bored t death. Texting sweetheart but yet, it seems pretty boring. MSN w friends, also bored. Macam takde life! School, faster !!

I rlly cant shut my eyes off bcox I CANT SLEEP ! Argh ~ Driving me nuts already.


Oh, Happy 1 Year Anni, Huhu & Farid!

I need t start afresh on th tagboard. Rotting tagboard, I assume.

ILA!: aww , too badd . gahs~ ONE DAY ayee~ till we mitt ,
REPLIED: Yeah, soon will be. Will contact you

Mayling: hey yo bytch,imy
REPLIED: Hello, & imyt

HUHU: See my blog. Hehe. <3
REPLIED: Done sweetie

annie: omg eeefa! sorry if i were to wish you late, HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEENTH HONEY! and oh relink me aye? (':
REPLIED: Nah, its oke twin(: Thanks fo th wish!

Zariina :DD: hello linqq! (:
REPLIED: Hello darling!

Zya: AKU WINDU SWEETHEART KU LAR SEY!!!
REPLIED: Haha, same (:

Astiana: Sometimes some people are secretly envious of you, but they ain't got no guts to show it. Just chill kay girl. Life's better without these people. Last long!
REPLIED: True enough babe. Thanks dear! You too oke!

dee: hey hey.. link me up!!
REPLIED: Hello, oh sure ~

Ila: weii , i tot you chng ur Url siaa , aiyayais.
REPLIED: Haha, soon you'll know

FYDA: Rename name aku as FYDA.
REPLIED: Done love~

SitiSarah: omgggggggggg iffah hi! imyyy sey:)
REPLIED: Haha. Miss ya too!

Huhu: Check out our old photo at my blog. Hah.
REPLIED: Aww, sweet of you. I miss that photo too.

Ila: Big Sister ! (:
REPLIED: (: Yes?

Szemin: Linked. Link me too. Miss you prettygirl.
REPLIED: Oh sure, link fo your blog? Miss you too.

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Finally, Im done w th tagging! So, fo today. I made my time most precious one. Why? Woke up as early as 10+am & lil sister call me up just t fetch her. I was like asking her (here th conversation goes)

ME: 'Huh? Alek sendiri lah'
SHE: Kite kat school.
ME: Then go home lah. Cannot go home yourself meh?
SHE: Im sick lah.

*keep in silence*

Look at th time & I say ... 'Oke lah. Wait fo me'

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HAHAHA! Sort siak. So, wash up alil, hell no, I did not bath @ that point of time. So, otp w sweetheart just t accompany me. Thanks oke babe! Reachead th school, need t write here & there so, went into th Office just fetch my lil sister. Haha! Muke tak perlu oke Yani! *winks*

Otp w sweetheart. Boleh jadi gile siak layan si minahchi nie. Yes, Im craving fo lasagne while she crave fo pizza? WTF?!

Oke skip2.

Yes, I spent my precious time on sleeping. While waiting fo them t text me up or others about project, I slept. Ending up, kene paitao. Atleast inform us about th project lah. Call but t not avail. Biase lah, people wont change, not a slight. Doesnt mean, we kept quiet, you may step overboard. Goooosh. Pathetic betoool!

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I wna watch soccer that located infront of Compass. And, one of th player is Zubir!! Hahaha, unbelievable. But nah, I prefer staying @ home waiting fo boyf t come & fetch me. Boyf, Im sucha a good girlf oke? Must love me more tao!





P/s: Wanting t watch sunset while eating lasagne.

Labels: PAITAO. SUNGGUH PATHETIC

Time check: 2.10am, Tuesday

So, am currently eating one tub of ice cream which I've mention th previous post just t burn my time. Oh yes, Im bored so have a lil chat w sweetheart since we're bored. Waiting fo boyf t call & Im gna make him jealous that Im eating cream(:

Again, rotting @ home. Had some plans but, since th wheather did not let us out of th house, so we shall sit @ home & rot. Thought of watching movies or stroll @ th beach, but due t th wheather, we give it amiss. Playing games w him were superb hilarious nak mampos.

I wna go Sentosa or Ubin w cliques including boyf. Gooooosh ~ I want t see th bonding in us & how we can interact w each other. I bet, Im th first one t make th first move, right korg2 sekalian? Tsk ! ~

Sweetheart, dont cry @ this hour oke? I understand & i do know that how hard & terribly you want t excel in this projects/studies but, since your friends dont give a damn, you too dont give a damn t them. Just focus on where you stand & how you want it t be done. Although, Im not there t listen t your problems, but Im there deep in your heart. Bestf, move on & start afresh(:

Oke, Im done w my post! Take care lovelies!

I had lotsa fun w my girls. It was awesome. Altho theres a bit of out of th exact time t meet, but things were fast t catchen up, right lovelies? Fo those who didnt get t attend, it was pretty sad but hey, there will be another day t meet up & go gile2 together. Make yourself free oke, lovelies?

So, these lovelies of mine went t Sentosa t beachrunaway. Nah, we were suntanning macam orang gile. We even change out spot t seat & settle down 3 times as Diy clever enough bring chocolates fo our dessert scared it'll melt. Obviously will melt. Mentel :D

So, looking @ th time its almost 3pm whereas we thot its just 12pm. Oke, settle down t eat & talk not forgetting camwhore.

So, as time flies fast, we headed t th toilet t get changed. Haha! We bath w full of semangat nak mampos. So, after that, we intend t walk around th whole Sentosa but nah, was too shag. So, went t vivo t talk about our ITE lifes. Thats where th joke came out. HAHA! Tak perluuuuu ~

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Anws, it was fun being w you lovelies. Meet up soon.
And, oi ~ Aku nak semue pictures oke ~




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Now, Im waiting fo boyf t come my house t pass me food. And jyeah, I miss boyf like lots & lots .
Boyf, sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang you ~!

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