Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 11:22 PM
Editted -
I've made up my mind. Friends/Family were right, bcox of me, certain people whom are close to me has changed fo th worst. Im sorry fo my wrong doings.
To ♥ :
Im sorry fo what I've done. I know, everyth seems pretty fast to handle those obstacles but, Im not ready nor prepared. You might think I've changed, but, come to think I do & I do not change. Those surroundings has made me so uptight & pressurized. Thats th reason why I've changed & not.
Take good care of yourself. I believe you are strong enough to face th challenge & obstacles.
Again, Im sorry.
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I was a jerk, totally like a jerk after th incident happen.
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Otw to somewhere, saw Naem Ex Boyfriend, His brother & Ex boyfriend's friend. Seperate ways after that.
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♥ doesnt allow me play soccer & he is so concerned about me!! Maaaaan, Im so bored without doing any sports. Great S'pore Sale is here, lets do shopping !!
Happy suppose to be 1 year, not.---
Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 6:03 AM
Idk who to believe & whether should I believe or not. I hate it when my feelings alrdy 50-50. Its hard fo me to believe people when they used to cheat or prank on me. Its super hard, & I guess it wouldnt be a problem if from now onwards, I trust certain people in certain issue.
Anws, I received tons of msges regarding on accident. Sorry, but somehow I knew it was a prank. My feelings told me its a prank whereas other half of my feelings says its fo real. Like usual says 'Believe what your heart told/says'. So, correct me right if it wasnt true.
Everyone is like blaming me. And Im sorry.
Dearest Shafiq,
Stop what you're doing right now. You making fool of yourself now. And you making me embarass including angry @ you. You know its hard fo me to make decision & why bothers it? It dint bothers & concern about you @ all. Now, take it as a challenge.
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Its totally a biggest mistake to fall fo you*sighs*
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 12:26 AM
Im superb tired. Lately, I've been sleeping early but somehow, Im still tired. Gosh, whats wrong w me these days? Gna be sick pretty soon & my instict told me that fo sure, Im gna be sick.
Yesterday, skipped OSA. Had a guilty conscious. Left Shahril just like that. Sorry bestfriend babi! In school, saw Hazmi Goodboi & his mate. I was looking @ him & told Ayin that this guy pretty familiar. Then I look again & it was Hazmi. Sungguh rindu de oke! Asked him what is he doing in my school & was told that he went to meet his friend, Ali & slacked here just to eat. Wth =_="
Nvm, left th school w them & get seperated since both of them ride bike. Ishk, & his mate kept horning. Sungguh malu siak ako. Chibi ass ~
Aftermath, went off meet Arep @ J8 & off to Compass meet sweetheart fo self study. Self study @ BK & finally, I truely understand CRN. Had test fo myself & without any wrongs. Alhamdullilah.
Looked @ sweetheart up & she dont feel uneasy. Looking @ her, she's damn hungry & sleepy. So, left BK & bought food fo ourselves @ Banquet. Lols, crack some jokes & off home.
Smoke break was rlly making me high. Smoke superb fast as I was challenging w Arep. Haha! It was funny lah. I was higggggggggggh ~
Thanks babies fo lighten my life up. I love both of you [=
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people, im having pit on th 20 & 21st June (:you people are invited. do come aite?
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 9:17 PM
Sunday, 24th May.
Im so gna rot @ home muchly. Reason, theres no plan & whats th point going out when Im broke literally? True enough.
Maybe, Im going down Pasir Ris to pass things up. Dont know th plan yet. But I dont feel like going out. Superb bored right now. Family out to Wedding ceremony. Soon lil sis going her friend's birthday party. Whereas me, stay & rot @ home.
Supposingly, todays plan is, me & sweetheart intend to go gym but somehow, due of overslept, we cancelled. Ishk. Sweetheart just woke up.
Im so gna make full use of today. Revision, Study, Make a layout of my blog & pack my stuff fo 2mrw. Im so gna be a goodgirl.
Friday, May 22, 2009 @ 9:49 PM
Believe it or not.
Theres nothing more I can do & sorry to say, I cant help you any further. Whats th point lying to others & whats th point acting you're perfect towards me whereas you're not?
If you rlly cant take care of me that much, why cant tell straight to my face? Tell me honestly. You know, sooner or later, I'll get to find out no matter what? Certain friends can be trusted but certain friends rlly get on my nerves. Sighs. Im just too irritated w these kind of people that surrounds me. What more you want from me? Tell me straight from A-Z.
You never know how much it hurts me when you lied. Why lie? Why lying to yourself, friend? I dislike people who are lying. If you're making a scene to lie, to your friends or family, stop & think twice. Have sympathy to them. Its oke if you lie to me, I understand but please dont do this to me again & I dont wish you to lie all over again.
Let me talk about money issue now.
Whats th point borrowing money when people know its hard to repay back. I know we people got th urge to borrow people's money but, I tell you, its hard fo us to repay back. Asking fo people's money is easy but when it times to repay back, difficult. Think twice when you want to borrow aite people? Theres th consequences behind th scene eventually.
If you people really want to borrow people money, think. What for borrowing money? Who knows they really need it fo family uses or theirselves needs. Have sympathy again. I hope people who used to borrow money change fo th better. (:
Oke done!
School was bad fo me. I had a hard time to concentrate due to problems occurs. After one settle, another one come. How am I gna settle it one after another? CRN was pretty bad. Teacher comment about it & I rlly want to kill her. She asked 'How are you gna pass your exam if you're like this? You are such a disappoinment'. Wth, hello teacher. You never understand us, students. Have you thought of our feelings? When we're late fo your lesson, you threw us out or giving bad remarks when we're changing a good side. As fo you, you always gave good remarks about your daughter, so what? You are th one who letting us down. Not us. Theres no couragement at all. Yes, no couragement at all. Luckily you knew, I hate you. If not, never will I attend your lesson.
Skipped.
Finally, Im broke. Due to last week. Was out w cliques & close cousin of mine, Freako. Went to Sentosa to bath & walk around. Watched th 4D again & they were laughing @ me which I was pretty lame. Wth. Aftermath, we had no plans. So decided to slack @ Vivo since we're hungry. So, after much walking & eating, I decided to shopping. Bought few stuffs which my hand are itching asking me to buy this & that. Now, Im broke. Thanks so much oke Efa!
Now, I gna save my money up again which I hate it so much! Menyumpah oke. Everytime I wna save money, my stomach always tell me that she's hungry & asking me to eat. Tell me how am I gna save my money up when my stomach is growling? Aiyoh!! Geram siak ako.
June there lots of plan to go with. Pit, Chalet, Movie marathon, Hiking. Aiyak! Nvm, people always say. 'Suffer now, enjoy later'. (:
Gna rain pretty soon! For those who are about to go out, do bring umbrella & wear jacket oke. Dont catch a cold ~
Toodles beloved!
psst: iloveyou mat rep!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 3:14 AM
PSST ~
Wont be using handphone fo th meantime.
contact me thru MSN/Friendster/blog (:
Adios!
Saturday, May 09, 2009 @ 9:35 PM
Sorry fo th long wait. To people whom you think I've changed, its your own problem oke? I dint change a lil bit, not even a tiny winy bit. So, why must I bother when I knew myself I changed/ot not? HAHA! So, whatever now, I enjoy being me. So, shut up fcuker!
Now, Im oke w my dad. Not t worry, both of us doesnt want t give in but we did eye t eye contact. Haha! Superb cute I tell you!
Friday, outing. Went t PS but sorry fo th cock up plan. Will make it up on monday, promised(:
Yest, 9 May, went t W'lands to celebrate mothers day cum cukor rambot. Haha, theres lots of food & being so pelokek nak mampos, i eat almost all th dishes. Hahaha, sedaaaaaaaaaaap tao ! So, after that, heading t Pasir Ris fo mini celebration. Overall, it was simple yet fun. And finally, I get t eat Chocolate Cake, facourite siol!
Later, will be heading Johore,Kota Tinggi. Haha! Superb cant wait & I will be test ride. Hehe, baek kape! Car, here I come!!!
Basically, I miss Arep, Sweetheart, Shahril & Geng TS.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009 @ 10:08 AM
I hate today, seriously. Everyone told me that I've changed. Wth, & now, they're blaming me fo everth. Yes, everyth. Im sick & tired of all this. I had enough of crying & soon, Im not gna live here. I'll be running away far far far away from here, Sengkang.
This is too much, & I cant hold any longer.
*crying*
Saturday, May 02, 2009 @ 10:10 PM
Sorry fo th lack of updates(: Pretty much lazy t blog & whenever I online, Idk what t write & type. So, i better let my blog rot right? So, CRN re-test is done & about 4 essential qualities, I forget. But alhamdullilah, I get t answer all th quests(:
Coming Tues is my actual test so pray hard it'll turn out t be easy. =]
Im so irritated by my flu, headache & sorethroat. Partially, Im sick. Its been days I've been coughing & my mucus keep flowing down right thru my mouth. Oke, disgusting? Indeed.
Hopefully, my sickness is fine by 2mrw, insya'allah. Gosh, Im sweating & thanks so much, I need t get myself in th toilet t wet myself. Adios!
