29th August - 2.20am

Im being so cheeky today which I keep on smiling. Lols! So which mean, Im now haaaaappy happy happy girl lah sangat :D

Guess what? Got this gentle pig told me that today, 29th marks Michael Jackson's birthday. Which currently Idk. Thanks eyk pig!

Oh wells, Im head over heels now! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaappy sungguh ~ *chuckles*

Yes I do pent down my emotions & even my egoness just to ensure that people wont be worried about me. As fo hopes & ideas, yes, if I said I want things to be done in certain dates, means I mean it. I may be firm but @least I got th least to understand th situation. Its true, I do not like th feeling of loneliness bcox I know, th feeling of loneliness makes me feel negative about myself & from there I will start reminiscing th past which leads me to wrong path. I willingly to go my own path bcox Im old enough to think whats best fo me although it will lead to a mistake whereby I choose it. 'Everyone's not perfect'

'You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.'

'You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.'

True enough about me, yes.

28 August

I dint expect everyth went too sudden. Telling lies to other people, making me cry & whine & etc. Whats more you want? I knew everyth went out unexpectedly.

Yes, right now I regret. Regret being everyone's favourite lil girl. I shouldnt let people like/love me. Im putting them high hopes upon themselves. Im sorry fo treating people like this. Im sorry if you guys changed fo th worst. Again, Im sorry.

I dont believe you no more.

27 August.

Right now, my right eye is having a sore or can say, infection. Yes, due to crying perhaps? My right eye is flooding th whole eye. Too painful. Already reddish. A friend of his called to ensure that everyth went smoothly fo th both of us. But sorry, I cant do as you say. It hurts me badly & really am, I cant.

Its been days I cried muchly & its been days I avoid people despite those injuries Im facing. My backbone hurts & I cant lie on th bed too long nor standing too long. So, fo now I can sit. As fo walk, it depends how long I stand. Basically, Im doing not so good lately. Certain people knows how Im doing. Im being an ass lately. Sorry.

Tell me can I improvise this?

2nd day of NOT fasting due to period. Thank you fo not giving me to fast. Ishk ~ I wna fast. Aaaaah ~

Soon, I'll be going to school per normal. As fo now, Im getting weaker & weaker. Im trying to be th very best but everytime, I stand fo my right, it went to th drain. Guess, I cant be strong neither I cant stand fo my right.

Tell me why.

It hurts me after I've been destroyed w words thats I shouldnt be heard, actions that I shouldnt see. Whats more y'want from me? I took so much time to go th distance w you but I guess Im just a doll who can be yelled, scoldings muchly & worst, those things that you shouldnt do yet you do.

I took alot of courage to stand up my position but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of time to be there when you fall but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of challenges b'cos I want to know whats others have been through but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of time to just understand one another but still, you couldnt see. Cant you just give yourself a timeout & see what I do when you couldnt see what I gave in?

I hate what you're doing to me now. My life is now full of hatreds. Yes, you had given your chance & prove to me that you're evil. You're just a monster to me fo now.

My privacy that you shouldnt look. My messages that you shouldnt read. My calls that you shouldnt talked to. I dont really get it, whats more you want from me. Im scared, I cried & I whined just like a lil baby. Im yours, not.

Promises to th person whom I used to loved, is just unbearable. He made me change fo th better & I wouldnt dare to overboard th promises. He told me to stop crying, I listen. He told me to rest, I listen. He told me to talk things out, I talked. But, how much longer can I tolerate this?

Now, th answer is revealed. Thank you so much fo doing this to me, monster. Now, I had enough.

I used to be a happy girl after receiving my gifts. 2009 was too much pain I had. I dont wna continue my journey now. Im all sick. Monster, you gave me such pain & Im having it again. Thank you.

I wna cried, whined, away from th others.

People cant been contact me. Gadgets wasnt w me now. Sim card were lost & thanks, it has been found.

I really am sucks. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ~ ):

Continue w Saturday.
Breakfasting w usual family but w Beh-loh-ve & Didi; without mother. She's working & pitied her. Aftermath, talked nonsense w them. Oh yeah, Beh-loh-ve & Lil sis was being so childish, trying to pillow fight & throw whatever they sees. Pretty cute huh? Hey, everyone has th childishness Wheather they want it to show or not to show. (:

So, tidied up alil mess & finally, I get to touch up those past memories. Haha. I mean, I saw my 512mb & 1gb memory card. So, I browse thru those cards. Looking @ pictures & videos. Sheesha-ing w Abg Lam, Apiz, Ct, Sya, Luf & Eldest sist. Last year raye w Pei Hwa Clan when Im w Arep wearing orange color kebaya. Chacha's pictures. Videos of Apiz singing in Karaoke lounge, dancing under th void deck w Huhu & Farid- Arep & me. Haha.

Was superb cute laaaah kite :D Nvm, if got time I those pictures & video here. Insya'Allah.

Sunday.
Sahur w whole family together Beh-loh-ve & Didi except daddy. He's sick. So, Beh-loh-ve woke me up & luckily, I wasnt in th bad mood. W my masai + tak perlu face, I just ate. Of course I got brush teeth lah seyy.

Then, fall asleep back. Was shagged & cant bothered whats going on w th surroundings. Lols! Woke up around noon upon hearing naggings & shoutings. Thanks eyk kakak.

Idk whats got into her or her ass/brain. She must be nuts. Scoldings from her was unbearable. So, washed up & was told last minutes to go to Paya Lebar Singpost. Since we're over there, might as well headed to Geylang. Whole journey without daddy.

Seperated w Didi & Sis since both of them going to Post Office. While as fo us, ape lagy, enjoy jalan jalan ah. Many kebayas caught my eyes & swear its superb nice. Fo those who have not been Geylang these days or few days ago, make sure go w redha haty. HAHAHA :D Its nice & bet its gna make you people cair (:

Conflicts w Beh-loh-ve alil. Which I know Im gna be weak. So text him up altho he's is near me. Scolded him & talking to him 'Ako kow'. Nvm.

Decided to go home since th next day Lil sis will be having her prelims. Sadly, we went home except fo eldest sis & didi. Me & Beh-loh-ve went to Mall NTUC. While otw there, had a tiff w him. Thank You so much fo pulling my hand. Sighs.

Reached home, pretty usual noth interest me @ all. So yup(:

Monday, here I am. Was suppose to go school fo S&W. But, since I was exempted might as well I skipped. Right? Oke, I know I shouldnt skipped, will make my attendance poor. Aaah, nvm.

Oke people, gtg. Will be late fo school which I am already late! Byee ~

Its time fo me to post.

Wednesday.
I got th urge of coming to school late. So, headed to school w Shahril. Altho we werent in a good term now, still we both manage to make both of us happy. First lesson were SBM, marked our attendance & off to canteen to have a BIG breakfast. I was indeed hungry okeh as th night before I dint get to eat which I think, I wasnt in th right & proper mood.

Its 2 hours of lesson but we made full used of it by running away from his lesson. Aftermath, we talked craps as usual.

Th rest of th lesson were oke, so noth to update much.

1 hour of break. We stayed in class since Radz were sleepy & tired. So, left Me Shahril & Mira. I decided to distrub Radz since he intend to sleep. So, without any hesitation I played w his hair. Kirekan main darah ah ~ HAHA. Then, I plucked out white strands of Shahril's hair. Then plucked out damaged hair which Mira had. I can be professional treatment fo hair.

Ayin came late fo school. Overall, school was oke lah. Noth happen on that day, I think? Oh yeah, bumped into Aisha (Nsps cum phss friend) @ Compass Mrt. Where she almost tapped her ezlink out w her step minah face. I tapped her shoulder & she told me what happen during 9th August. So, we both decided to stroll @ Compass since Im craving fo Famous Amos. Thanks babe fo accompanying. Bumped into Feeka & Fadh too. And saw LynnAstro over there too. Lynn, rindo kaaaamu :D


Thursday.
Early in th mawning ard 5am+, mother received a call from her brother that his father-in-law passed away. Upon hearing, I feel like breaking down. Why all of sudden? Without hesitation I call Sya up telling a sad news. Its like, its recycling. I miss my late aunty aka Emak. Sighs.

Gave school amiss since Im totally feel like visiting. It was buried & remiscing arwah emak. Sighs, on that point of time, I breakdown. Daddy were sick & pitied him. He all th way vomitting. Text certain people & they were there fo me, thank you so much. After that, homed, rest & changed.

Met up w Fadh under her void deck. While walking to go her void deck, bump into Beh-loh-ve. He said Im sombong. Soyal kow ~ HAHAHA :D He accompanied me to Fadh's void deck. Then, reached, three of us smoked break forawhile. Talked non stop. Seperate w him, off to Punggol Park. Accompanied Fadh fo her interview. Then, next stop to Hougang interchange to take th bus 161 to W'lands. Met my cousin up. Sorry wors wait fo us fo 1 hour+ HAHA :D Owe you someth oke? Hmm, no that stupid stuff. -.-

Then, after meeting him, went to Tampines since she wna interview over there. After much walking, window shopped fo awhile. Saw this Everlast Jacket superb nice. But, fo now I cant spend that much as I need to save fo th future.

Off to Compass back & took mrt to Vivo. I intend to eat @ Banquet & @ th same time, I wna eat @ Macd. Banquet have my Ovaltine drink & as fo Macd, I wna eat McSpicy. So, ape lagy manje ngan sister ako lah. But end up eat @ Macd. Fadh ate as if she dint eat burget. Berkecah siak ni pmpn makan. Done, we went to meet th rest of th cliques @ Vivo SkyPark. Met, Diy & Sya up. Siti went home since th next day she had her NPCC training. Smoked fo awhile & talked cock.

Slacked fo awhile. Took photos & off to KFC since Diy wna buy food fo her lil sis. She order alot like 2 packet of cheesefries, a box or a box of 2 w chickens, 2 colslaw, 3 drinks & 2 small packet of spicy lemon chicken. Wth. Alot kan ?! But, we took 1 drink & a packet of spicy lemon chicken. I dint eat as I wasnt feeling well. Was having gastric.

Off to home. In th MRT saw Kak Zai, Arep's eldest sis. We smiled & muchly, I miss her. Even their family. She asked 'Kow maseh sakit2?' Replying a yes. They know what Im suffering. Not to worry much aite? Im fine.

Seperate w them & took LRT. Smoked again since Fadh wna smoke. Then home.

Friday.
School were rather fun I assume. Told & were told by Kin & Seri about their friend, whom I knew. Small world. Nvm about that.

Went to canteen to have a short break. Was oke lah.

Thank you Zul & Shahril fo making me laugh non stop. Those actions were indeed funny.

Saturday.
Today is th 1st day of fasting month. I hardly woke up as I was sleepy. Beh-loh-ve called asking me to woke up but, ended up, member kene marah ngan kite. Haha, sorry yer. Was sleepy & I cant bother to talk nicely if you talked to me without a hello. Hahahaha :D

Woke up, otp w Fadh. She super lame lah yet ily oke sister? I want to eat dendeng. Anyone wna accompany me? Speaking of which, I wna watch Where Got Ghost & Final Destination. Anyone?

Thank You, high school friend(:

I was late & I knew Im gna reach'd school superb late. So, as usual, bath, changed & doll'd. Out of th house as usual too, but upon reaching th bus stop, I look @ th time, & its already 710am. I text Joshua up & telling him that I'll be late. So, I pretend noth happen despite of having test early in th morning. Pretending noth happen as always(:

Walked to school w Joshua, & told him we gna be dead as both of us are laaaaaaate ~ Headed to school per normal & luckily our CA wasnt there. Revised a lil & th test was oke fo me despite revising alil impt notes ones.

Almost start th test, Shahril came. Lucky fo you, ass boy(:

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Break forawhile & bought so much junkies just to fill my empty stomache without a drink. Macam sepuluh hari tak makan gtuk. Headed to class & start of th day by CA lesson. Talk2 & she told th students that this term was a terrible attendance each & everyone of us. Im one of them. Almost sending another letter. I did badly fo my attendance, & I know. After her lesson, BEG. Test again as last week I didnt attend school. Aaaaaaaaaaah ~ Last minute revise. How am I suppose to do well when its a last minute? So, I try my best & upon looking @ th paper, unfamiliar questions popped out. Thank so much eeefa fo not revising. Sighs ~

Break time fo an hour & I didnt eat as I dont feel like eating. Telling lies to others that Im full. Padahal-padahal ~ So talked crapped w th usual clan & baaaaaaaaaad conversation I had w them. So, everytime they talked to me, I looked outside of th school.

Reminiscing th past where you always send me to school & fetch me to school. I almost breakdown, but as usual I held back my tears very hard. I had a lame conversation w Afiq. Asking me if I know Lynn, Ayin & Ekah. And obviously I know them lah. So, again he asked this stupidity question 'Macam ne kow kenal diorg?' -_-" Telling him that I knew Lynn from Fahmi's. Again, he asked 'Beh Ayin & Ekah?' Hold my patience & telling him that obviously I know both of them from Lynn since its her friends. Again he asked how. Okeh, tros ako mangkok. HAHA! :D

Zul was there & telling th rest that his jealous. Wth -.-

Headed to next class late as we done our work yesterday. Ape lagy, buat sekolah ni bapak kite punyerh ah. Reached class, this sarcastic yet gerek punye kawan, Atun. Asked her why came to class late & her respond were lazy. Boleeeeeh jadi gile layan si dekni ~

Teacher told us, we can release @ 1pm whereas our class ends @ 2pm. Gerek pe cikgu ni? Walked to mrt w Nana, Iqah & Atun.

Took mrt & dropped @ Compass, bump into Fir & his friend. Smile & talked abit. Rindu kow lah cb!

Reached home, here I am blogging since Im superbly bored.

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'EX' Just th title.

Broken up issue has been making me wondering. Yes, wondering & kept thinking why & whats th reason.

Do you realised that, after breaking up, your ex wouldnt dare to contact you altho you just broke up/attached/ or feel not to contact w you anymore? So, do you know th reason behind it, afterall? I doubt so or shall I say, you were 50-50.

I wondered whats wrong contacting your ex back altho both of you were in term together back then. Basically me, myself doesnt know th answer either.

Both gender's story.
Maybe, th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend might think that th girl/boy can move on without th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend or might think that th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend doesnt want to be th 3rd party if th girl/guy is attached or worst, doesnt care-less of th girl's/boy's condition. Who knows...

I've been through & almost, I've been through now.

Idk whats th reason behind this scenario Im facing. Doesnt mean both of us are attached we cant contact, meet, going out w others or slack around? Scared each of us boyfriend/girlfriend think wrongly of us? Before going on further issue, why doesnt want he/she knows that we just a title of 'EX'? Tell your boyfriend/girlfriend th truth about us or to play safe, bring along he/she IF we are going out w cliques? Obviously w permission.

Yes, I do want to contact back all my ex-boyfriends but, Idk if its a right time to contact now or later? Obviously I doesnt want th couple to have a misunderstanding.

Getting yourself a boyfriend/girlfriend is easy but once you broke up, its a difficult issue to handle.

Fo me, I really hope I get to bump into or contact or meet one day as a cliques gathering. Whats past is past.

Its better than nothing right? Wna lose a friend of yours?

Bottomline: Forget th past issues, start afresh now.

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Soon, gna meet my Fat Bitch, Syahadah. HAHAHA ! Pelan2 kayoh eyk balek time, Bluekx! Sorry Fadh, Feeka & Sya fo not coming down to join you people. I was damn tired & soon we meet up aite? All th best in life ~

Monday ; 17 August


Finally Im home.

Yesterday was such a hectic ones. I had fun going to East Coast (: Thank you so much despite of th last minute event :D

I wna brought this matter up which I know it doesnt concern any of you readers here. So, nvm just look @ your monitor screen & read it up, aite?

Friends.

Have you ever been hurt by your friends? Have you ever trust your friend despite of their egoness nor whatever that requires feelings? You do right?

Well, I've been through all this & now, Im going through it again which its cycle from one edge of circle to another. Basically, Im close to this friend of mine but I know, sooner we wont be that close @ th previous one. Well, to be honest. Despite of being harsh, throwing tantrums, making me sad nor happy, this friend of mine is there without fail. But somehow, after knowing deeply & very deeply, I get to know that this friend of mine isnt treating me as a friend but, more than that I assume. I know but I ignore it as it isnt my concern @ all. So pretending that I dont know a thing. Weeks & months later, confessed but still I took it as a prank.

Weeks ago, my feeling fo everyone was just a trash eversince I recovered from Influenza-like illness. I showed tantrums to my friends, family & even Beh-loh-ve. I know I got to stop this 'tantrums feelings' but I just couldnt resist. I want everyth to be perfect, but to no avail. Slowly, I accidently throw tantrums @ this friend of mine due to weeks of mc & informing me anyth about outside event eg: school, friends, news.

Partially Im mad & I feel like giving up. I was so emotional by then. I dont feel like getting cure afterall. Tell this friend of mine that Im mad & without hesitation obviously he was mad @ me too. Both of us mad @ each other so by then, we almost getting seperated. Im trying to held back my tears but failed. I cried more often before & after. Till then, we less communicate, texting one another, slacking & eat like how we used to be.

One thing fo sure, this friend of mine is th best but since due to my emotional thread, I lost a friend. A friend whom I can rely on when I need th shoulder fo my pamper-ness. Thank You.

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Ah gtg. Wna have my beauty sleep :D Goodnight, people!

Sighs, my camera handphone sungguh gelaaaaaaap. Kay anws, thank you so much (: I dont feel like going to JB. Sighs, too hot & it'll make me sick :/ Can I not go?

Basically, I miss my junkies!

I wna go out w them, seriously. Arrrrgh.

Its been a week I last update. Here goes nothing.

Saturday.
Before that, me, Beh-loh-ve & Fadh went to Diy's (Secondary friend) jemputan.
Had many plans but, some has to cancel due to not enough time. Headed to town w th Didiyanah, Lil Sist, Sweetheart & Beh-loh-ve. Supposingly, we intend to send Diy to town to meet her friends, but, idk what happen, everyone go town. Seperated w Didiyanah.

Left sweetheart, me & lil sist & Beh-loh-ve.
We headed to some shops to shopping. Yes, we bought alot of tops! Both me & sweetheart bought 2 tops each =4 & as fo lil sist, she bought 2. Thanks to Beh-loh-ve fo treating us! And his wallet can kopak alright as th total amount is $86.70. Haha, thank you love!

So, next we walked around & decided to meet Aisha @ Pacific Plaza since its been months I last met her. So, headed down there & make a fool of ourselves. Sweetheart has been running around inside th shopping mall. So does Beh-loh-ve. Both of them were making a nuisance but overall, it was funny lah. Macam anjing ngan kucing gituk ~

After th nuisance part, back to carpark where our car were parked. Diy called us up asking where we were. So, waited fo her @ th carpark.

Met her & off we go. So, without knowing, our car was stopped in th middle of th road. Beh-loh-ve tried to accelerate but failed. So, both Beh-loh-ve & Diy pushed th car @ th side of th road. Erk, fyi, our car stopped infront of Istana (Dhoby Ghaut).

We were so pissed off by then but, idk why both sweetheart & lil sist were enjoying themselves. Maplek btol. In times, Didi came (we called), & thanks to Didi's friend, Acap fo lending his car to us. As we all were in rushed to meet my parents up @ Henderson Wave. So, Didi's turn to drove us there. Reached Henderson Wave, we were damn tired by then.

Sunday.
Around 7pm, we make a move to Hougang Mall. Visit my lil sweet darling as she is working. So, disturb her & she looks superb cute lah. Terharu de ~

So, much talking, went to Marrina Constructive Barrage to catch th fireworks. Is superb nice but, too fast to enjoy our love-session w Beh-loh-ve. HAHA! Kidding.

Then, meet up w Nazri @ Bugis. Waited & off. Seperated w his friends. Decided to had our late dinner @ KTM, but upon reaching, sweetheart wanted to go home. Wth, kinda pissed off but held back since whats th point being pissed off. So, send her home & off to KTM. All of sudden Firdaus called me up fo a meet up. Wth. So had our dinner w Beh-loh-ve, Lil Sist, Nazri & Me. It was so nice & I had th momentum of it. HAHAHAHA!

Called Firdaus up telling him that we're heading to East Coast to chill. But, much knowing he dint bring his motorcycle along. Wth. So, off without him. Chill & fool around. Was so touched & we did talked about our past memories. Told everyone & all of them were feeling-feeling nak nanges gituk ~ HAHAHAA!

So, went to OCH but Nazri was scared so, we just passed by th place. Then decided to see bapok. We laughed our hearts off by then. Superb funneh ~ After Changi, intend to see some chalets @ Pasir Ris, look around & wonder around too. Superb nice but I got th budget ~

Then, off to home sweet home. By then, it was almost to 4am. Haha ~ Overall I had fun lah.

Monday.
Send Nazri home & got pissed off after receiving new news. Better pay back lah, jerk ass!

Tuesday.
Went to school per normal & was feeling tired as th previous day I wasnt asleep. Reached home, kebabom forawhile.

Wednesday.
Gave school amiss as I wasnt feeling good by then & furthermore, I was superb lazy. Shant elaborate much here.

Thursday.
School was great & had fun w them. Thank You fo everyth ~

Friday.
Today, gave school amiss. Gastric overcome it. Thank you so much. Text Mrs Yeo & dozed off till 3 + hahaha. Im being a lazy bum fo now ~ Nvm then (:

I cant wait fo later (: Dont disappoints me, please. New news coming up, @ night or later later.

I dint sleep throughtout th morning. I kept thinking what have I done to you lately.

Decided to wake up pretty early but, having a second thought would be nice. So stayed a lil bit longer on my bed. Clock strikes 620am & I off to washoroom.

While bathing, tears came down flowing which I shant elaborate more. I kept on reminscing & thinking what have I done to you/others lately. Went to school without daddy but I always tell myself, keep calm & think positively. Almost reach Bishan, I decided to text bestf up asking where is he altho theres a mess in us. Waited fo him patiently, soon both buddies came. I am shocked we are drifting & soon, we are not close.

So, I held back my tears & sorrowness but somehow, I have to move on without others noticing. Sat @ nearest coffee shop & have a joke w other clan but, there still no differences. I wanted to cry badly but I gta put a smile on my face to show others that Im fine. Walking down th pathway alone was miserable as I kept thinking how long can I suffer being like this? How much longer can th wound heal?

Sat seperatedly w th usual clan as I was no where to be where I am usually. School was madness. I kept thinking & thinking.. Till I stressed out. I cried while otw back home & I suddenly got th urge to sleep throughout th day, but those rings & calls wer too irritating. It irritates me till I cried.

Now, Im still crying .....

Currently, Im rotting @ home.

Soon, I will be back in action, which means tomorrow I'll be back in school. I bet, Shahril gna miss me. HAHA!

Its been 2 weeks Im not in school except fo Monday. I was pretty weak & but, strongly I pretend Im okeh. I dont wna make people worried sick laaaaah ):

Talking about school, muchly Im about to quit. I got no interest in school cum studies. I confess to certain people but mostly were shocked to th extend of my answers. Sorry, but its fo my benefits. On th other hand, I do wna continue studies fo my own good as I rlly wna have th certificate which Im yearning fo. So, lets see whats th outcome yeah?

Monday.
School was fine but during break time, was unbearable. Shahril bought his food & as fo me, I bought drinks fo myself since I dont have much appetite eversince Im sick. So, sat w Shikin, Dayah & Marlinah.

And thanks to Shahril fo sharing my drink, I got th instinct that, Im gna be sick pretty soon. After school, slack awhile w some boys & they were knd of lame but afterall, I had super fun w them. It feels good fo having joker friends surrounded by us ~ (:

Home w Shahril & met up w Zuzu @ interchange since she wanted to meet her friend @ Sengkang. So, took bus 156 to Sengkang w her & finally she met her friend which is my friend. So, he was accompanied by his friend which is also my friend, Syahmi. We were shocked till Zuzu asked me whats wrong. Told her that both of them were friends of mine. HAHAHA :D She too were shocked. Tu lah, what a small world.

So, slacked w them forawhile & while otw to th void deck, saw friends of Zuzu's friend which is also my friend. One by one came & everyone were shouting 'EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFA! Rhindu kow' Zuzu were pretty shocked again & everyone slack together. Lastly, Acit came aka HotDog. Pretty amazed that he changed alot. He put angkong on his left hand & on his face too. He change pretty alot. So, ard 3-4+ I went home since later I'll be meeting Beh-loh-ve @ Bugis. Din & Salman, accompany me home & waited fo me to dress & doll up. So, after that, went back to th same void deck & seperated w Din, this time, Acit & Salman accompany to Compass to take th MRT.

In th Mrt, I felt so sleepy but, I held back th sleepyness. So, stop @ Outram & change mrt towards Bugis. When th MRT stops @ City Hall, I was so fcuking mad. Theres this Indian guy stand behind me. His toot touches my butt & he came & stand very near to me, I decided to slap but, cant as theres alot of people. I wanted to shout, but I cant bear th pain of my sorethroat. So, I called Beh-loh-ve hp, but network busy. Called him again, still cant get through. Once reach Bugis already, I told him everyth & cant believe, my tears flow down.

Keh skipped.

Walked around Bugis & Sim Lim since theres noth much. Went to Arab Street since he wanted to go. So, theres where my mood went down. I felt very tired & sleepy. So, told him that, why not we took 80 to Vivo & took 80 again to go home. He agreed, & off to 80 bus stop. I slept throughout th journey even going home too. Im totally tired.

Reached home, slept th whole day.

Tuesday.
Give school a miss since Im totally tired & sick due to sharing th drink w Shahril. Ishk. Off to Poly again & mc were given.

Wednesday.
Rot @ home & read some comics which Beh-loh-ve gave. Ex, accompany my through msges.
Thanks so much. I cant wait fo Saturday. Hurry up please.






Happy 9th, love.

2nd post.

I couldnt make it. Im lost. Im sick & tired of being like this. I tried my very best to forget evrything that has happened few months back & I realised, I cant make it through. I miss evrything that happen. Sweet moments, sweet talks, sweet memories were all inside & kept in my heart but I guess, I have to throw away & start afresh.

Is this th reality or just a minor imagination to me?


Happy 17th birthday Muhd Taufiq, ex.

Yesterday, gave school a miss. I really thot I was fine by then, but I was not. So went back home to take a rest & I slept throughout th day. I was so exhausted & I felt a lil dizzy by th time I woke up from sleep. So, met boyf @ Sengkang & we took 43 to Geylang Serai since Hari Raya is getting nearer, we decided to stroll @ Geylang to have a look those Kebayas & Kurongs. While strolling, many of malays have already bought their baju. One of th Kebayas has caught my eyes but, it cost alooooooooooot. Soon, boyf's wallet gna koyak pretty soon. Right boyf? Nvm, I decided not to buy since my wardrobe has alot of kebayas!

Last year was orange w Arep but this year, gna be different. Goooosh, I cant wait.

I miss alot of people right now.
Ayin, Zariina, Syahadah, Ekahchirio, Lynnastro, Espl cliques, alooooot lah! Geng Ts, S2NIA, Pei hwa cliques. Alot alot alot.


Now, I realise you isnt worth my happiness.

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Shayu
Norwani

Pei Hwa Sec
Seniors '05
Astiana. Azura. Shayu. Norwani.
Adelaide
Anie♥
Dini
Dilah♥
Fahmi Acad
Farid
Fahmi Exp
Hazimah
Maizurah Mymy
Shika Shikin
Syirain
Syahadah♥
Yvonne

'06
Aidil.
Chacha♥
Intan
Mayling

'07
Atika.

'08
Fid & Huhu♥
Ila♥
Nusrah♥
Syukriah♥

'09
Tira

ITE Bishan
Annie Twin
Ayusweets
Aisyaaah
Ayla
Dee
Joshua
Joycelyn
Josephine
Seri Nabihah

Girlfriends
Annie Twin. Ayusweets. Ayla. Dee.
AyinJade♥
Aydaa♥
Ardila♥
Ardila Wordpress♥
Dydi Uhqayshuhdy
Efa Keciq♥
Ekah Chirio♥
Ina Lady
Ikin
LynnAstro
MizzFida
Neesyaa♥
Syaee♥
Seri Ayunie
Viva La Juicy
Zariina DarlinqKu♥

Family
Diylinz
Diylinzpiration
Izyani
Luqman