Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 11:43 AM
Alhamdulillah.
I just recover my high fever since Friday till now. I've been rotting @ home fo days & been laying on my matress fo days too. Monday decided to pay a visit to th doct, been given 2 days MC. After fever is oke, I got rashes. Another 2 days mc given. Th next day, alhamdulillah everyth went smoothly.
So, school was great I must say. Had a great laugh w Mira bbygirl gua. 'Bebey' haha, hilarious! Went to her crib after school. Down to printing, binding etc. Off to school submit th proj & home to change to meet love. Out to town -> Bugis & home sweet home. Had fun w him!
And love finally pampers me. I wanted Nasi Ayam Penyet badly & he brought me to this restaurant where Nasi Ayam Penyet is well allocated. Nice oii! Thank You!
Sya is so damn krazy & I must say, me too :D
I bumped into ex school mate forget his name, Adelaide, Radz, Fynn & Tiradarls today! I miss this friends of mine!
Better get some sleep or love gna kill me.
Thursday, October 22, 2009 @ 1:28 AM
A week now & I absent from school fo 2 days. Both days which Im sick. Fcuk.
Today marks our 2 years. Oh no, not in relationship, but friendship. Fo both me & syahadah. Sorry babe cant celebrate w you, guess Im sick & been contaminated by you fo drinking my coconut!
So, school was fin except theres a minor problems due to my girl. Thanks oke? Altho ignored, you're still part of our friendlist. No mention oke? Sorry fo making you like this. Put a sense to yourself now. :D
Well, lets talk about love.
He's such pain in my ass nowadays. Yeah, pamper him too much :D Like beby like that. And our, our monthsary is around th corner. What shall I get fo him? Aaaah ~ Anybody?
December, I really cant wait. I wna shop till I drop together w mira. Right b? Haha. Beeest nyer!
Friday, October 16, 2009 @ 10:31 AM
Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command. - Alan Watts I shall be sleeping by now but currently I cant. Well... Lets talk about school since its been awhile I talked about school life. So hmm...
School is fine now & I now realised that school is important. To graduate, we need cert. To need a cert, we can find jobs easily. Agreed? Yea, althought @ times I dont feel like going school but I forced myself since upcoming months we'll be graduating. Finally! Forcing myself to wake up just to go school.
Having great friends now is fantabulous. Friends were superb krazy like almost everyday & yeah, it feels great & nice to have them when @ times, they're kind of immatured? Haha, oke.
Wait, love fetched me & mira, Yes, decided to eat @ Pastamania Junction 8. Had a nice & long talk. I felt so easy by now. It was awesome day altho love is muchly sick now. We planned to have a cozy stroll along Town side but, cancelled since it was hot & mira needs to meet her mr boyf. Next time bbygirl.
I cant wait fo weekends which is now now now. Will be heading to Iluma Mall, next to Town side then to W'lands fo some occasion & it will be Johor fo supper. No no, only th both of us. Will be surveying some clothes & as fo occasion it'll be Open House. As fo Johor, supper after that & heading to some beaches that are cooling. Aaaah, cant wait!
Life been great lately after having minor situation. Nvm, we'll take it as an obstacles(: I put a stop to everyth. No more nonsense from me, thats what Im trying to do but shacks, certain people only trust me. Looks like I have to persevere. Yeah!!!!
Oh my, I better call love now. Worried fo him & asked him to eat his finest medicine after all.
Toodles!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 @ 11:18 AM
Thanks Fadhilah, I love you alot bcox your virus passed to me. Welcome back Fever, Flu & Vomit. )':
Tuesday, October 13, 2009 @ 8:30 PM
Things changed so fast. I knew & I thank god that I got this power of mine, Instinct. It hurts me about th truth which has been kept long ago & it turned out to be true! Disappoints me alot. Put aside that.
I cried yesterday night & shows how I miss people. Yea, I miss emak. Like alot!
Now, I lost another one. Thank You.
I now realised that I missed & lost another golden chance. Yes yes, I thought it was a lie & just to prank but hey, turned out to be true. Im sorry bcox ol this while it shows no concern & love @ all. I lost another battle of another challenge. Another battle another challenge. Its oke, about th life Im leading to. I knew & I guess no worries fo th people who are concern about me.
I miss you freaking muchly, why hurt me?
Thursday, October 08, 2009 @ 11:19 AM
Current mood fo now : Sad, & yes Im crying.
Dont ask why I cried bcox only part of you & me knew whats going on. No, Im not being emo but think, how much more can you kept this thing by yourself? Who am I to you now? Spare part of your life? You knew I hate this karma going on any further. Straight to th point & let it out just once altho it sounds suckish but thats th only way to work it out, be honest to each other.
I got th feeling you're hiding someth from me which you want to tell but it might hurt my feelings or worst you too? Yes, these days we rare contacting each other but doesnt mean you have to be mean to me, right? I too have feelings & I wna carry on living but how? Everytime I tried to carry on moving, my heart kept saying 'Dont'. You know how painful can it be? It feels as if theres knife stabbing my heart where I cant carry on living this life.
I knew this werent work out between us & I knew im being self centered. I want everyone but hey, people always says 'Take one, not 2 nor 3' Means, in life I have to make th correct choice to live happily ever after, not th wrong choice where I pick & litter whereby I can or might destroying my life all my life.
Now... You are th strategy of my energy & yes, you are one of it. Sorry, it dint work out @ all.
How much more can I cry now? Its been days Im being remorseful. I hate this feelings & nevertheless, my instinct always right. I hate it, sighs ):
I wish ...
- to be happy again, before its too late
- mother was here w me
- be a lil girl once again where I can get loves, hugs & kisses
- everyone knew how I felt currently
- people could stop hurting my life @least
- I cant stop becoming worst where no more late nights riding, meet ups & etc
Lastly, I wish I dont wna be Nur Iffah Izzah, fcuk shit.
I knew everyth & I wna stop this nonsense once & fo all. I need somebody nor someone to be there & listen to what I wna share. I need someone to @least give th shoulder whereby I could cry on & help me wipe my tears away. I just need someone to give me my strength back. I miss my days where I used to be a happy go lucky girl. I miss those days where I truly put hopes on myself not to give up.
Thank you, ex sunshine fo doing this to me. I felt th big impact now.
Im gna change my url soon & Im
AVOIDING th problems Im having.
I feel like a fool to you now.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 @ 9:14 AM
BRB ! Im vomitting pretty sooooooooon I hate this feeling ):
Monday, October 05, 2009 @ 10:39 AM
Its been awhile I update a proper one, so here it goes.
Did I mention last week about going to Pertapis @ Toa Payoh? Hell yeah, it was an enjoyable one. Thou things as plan been rlly pissed me off but still, it was an enjoyable one. I made jellies fo everyone & hey, everyone likes it alot! Yes it kind of plain it th inside but it rlly turn out to an excellent one! *Self praising*
Everyone of us turned up except fo this lil makcik of mine, Shikin. Besarkan taik mate eyk? HAHAHA :D Its oke but you miss alot of junkies lah! Oke nvm, th place is near to our school although th driver makes us think its like far from school. After th event, we thought of heading somewhere but since we damn shagged, we skipped. And again, we thought of taking bus to Toa Payoh Interchange, but luckily Radz told us, walked abit we reached school. So yup, we walked since its a waste of ezlink to go to Toa Payoh & furthermore, Radz dint have cash in his ezlink (:
Walked & Walked, we damn tired. My instinct of my body is alil hot & Im perspiring thou its cold. Met sya up since I promised her to meet. Meet @ Compass to have late lunch cum dinner. Hell yeah, I ate abit. Took 3 bite of Zinger burger, Im all full. Wth, so I knew Im gna be sick pretty soon.
Headed somewhere since Im all worn out. Sat somewhere windy but hence, Im still perspiring. Sigh, headed home straight since my head is totally heavy & hardly hard. Reached destination w Sya, rest few minutes can say, took a nap. Heard someone outside th door & thanks my uncle & aunty came fo visitting. Im all masai.
Oh, w that, I quickly went to kitchen to have some hot toufu. It makes my day, totally. Thank you! My fever when down alil.
Thursday, noth much happen so yeah I rot @ home & mind you, I did rot. Such a goodgirl.
Friday-Sunday busy raya-ing. Hardly remember'd :D
Im yearning to have licence! I want both licence fo car & motor. Next year will be taking bike & after that, car. Or car then bike. Aaaaah ~ I want licence :D
Great, in 1 week times, Im heading to school. Need to see teachers & th same old period. Wth, boleh jdy gile lorh!
I shall end my post. Bye korgs!
