Days has been passing by, & I've not yet in my stable life now. I've been throwing tantrums w people surrounding me. I always bitch them upside down & I am so so sorry especially, one & only Love. Im sorry fo everyth I've done. I shouldnt throw tantrums & I know, you also did not mean it. Its hard nowadays fo me to apologize to someone very very sincere after much I've done to my dear ex. So, maybe now Karma has detect me. Thanks to my life, its all been jumble up. I know, I should calm myself now but how? I tried my very best to put my tantrums aside, but it failed. Disappoinment attacks me now.

Had a minor tiff w Love just now. Well .. Its regarding about him unable to fetch me. Okeh, I know its very pathetic but, thats me. Because of that, it leads us to a stop & Im th one who said that -___-"
He was upsets & vent his anger on me. Again, I told him this 'I dont care & I dont bother about you anymore, lets put a stop NOW!' My mind wasnt thinking properly & he called me up to console & I fall asleep accidentally. When Im about to doze off, I felt someone beside me & touch my face & hair. I was so touched & saw Love was there. His eyes were all wet & ask if its true. Again, I said 'Yes'. We both cried & I have to. So, after much looking @ his eyes, I said 'No, love you'.

Dude, whatever I've said, Im sorry. I know I have been very harsh to you lately. Maybe, I dont have any mood to talk. Or, maybe my PMS is here, my whole mood ruined. Again, Im sorry. You owe me a very big big Tweety Bird :D

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Oke, I need to bathe now. Will be heading to Feespinster's Pit later on @ East Coast. I feel like going to Coffee Bean to have a drink & my chocolate muffin over there! & Yay, meeting Nazrie & Sya later on!

Hello earthlings! 2 days back, went to town with Nazrie, Eezanie & me. Firstly went to Orchard to walk around. Headed to Ion Shopping Centre. Caught my eyes on beautiful shoes, skate shoes. Super nice, I'll tell you! Then walked around since we had time. So, scroll around there & again, caught my eyes on heels & a dress. Amazingly, thot of buying th dress first, but nah. Looks like people around wore that, one word fo it, COMMON.

So, headed to Far East. Decided to look around my bag since I told them that, I've been eyeing bags & heels nowadays. Did try on some bags but Nazrie told me to survey first. Agreed on him & suddenly he told me that he's hungry. Went to Puncak. He ordered Wanton Noodles Dry, Ice Tea. Whereas fo myself & Eezanie, lemon bartley & ice milo. Waduh, ice milo super sweeeeeeet, soon I'll be having illness.

Decided to have some desserts after dinner. Bought Fried Mars Bars. Went to CentrePoint to fetch lil bitch, Sya. Was shocked that both Eezanie & Nazrie was there. Lol. Told love to fetch us @ Plaza Sing. Went to East Coast to played pool since I've been wanting to play pool. Pool-ed w Sya was funny. Saket haty sia main dengan dia. Wth >_<

After much pool, decided to head home since Sya wanted to go home. By then, Nazrie slept over my place. Heh! Sent her & off to home.

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Next day, Sya came over my place since she's bore & furthermore she's outside alone. Nazrie prepare himself to go home. By then, both Love & Sya kept. At th right timing :D Came & Nazrie went off since he's meeting his friends by noon.

Going to an hour, love went off since his break time is soon be over & he needs to head to work. Gave some expenses & thank you were given. Hug, kisses, handshakes were given too (:

Woke Sya up since she's fell asleep @ my very comfortable bed. Lol! Prepare myself & by then, Eezanie reached home as before she went to school to take her PSLE results. Dad, Sister & mother were pretty disappointed. By fcuk, hello (!) she did her best oke. How much pressure do you guys want sia. Human nowadays. ~

So, ask her to tag along & off to Plaza Sing since Sya wants to buy herself a headphone. Nice one! Off to Heeren to survey some clothes fo me but thanks, this Eezanie wanted this shirt so much. So, bought fo her not even her, Sya also wants it! My goodness. Bought fo them one each. Amazingly, th total were $49. And, next proceeded to Orchard again since I wanted to buy bag. Bought myself a handbag fo work. Took quite sometime to choose. There's no need to rush lerz. Decided th one I've been eyeing th previous day. Fickle minded! And look @ heels but none were not my taste.

Look @ th clock, much time. All of us were hungry, had Pizza Hut fo dinner. Super noisy us! Ordered pizza, drinks & appetisers. After much eating, we still hungry. Thot of ordering again, but pity Love, he hasnt eaten so ordered him a very large pizza which is Hawaii Supreme Signature & decided to takeaway fo it. Heh! Since love called me, I told him to fetch us. He agreed, love you bby! And, then he bring us to Explore th west side area. Noth much. So, look @ th time, Sya wants to go home.

Reached hougang, ate th pizza nearby her block. Dah macam orang tkdr rumah sia. Haha! Then Sya called her mother said she wont be going home. Oke, & we decided to go Mustafa. Bought our stuffs. Saw his friends, smile & laughed. Aftet that, went to Changi to look @ some Pros, Bapoks. Haha. Cool sia their jobs! We laughed our ass off!

After much entertainment, decided to go home. Reached home @ 5am in th morning. Cool kan?

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Since today is Hari Adha, went to 2 houses. Great foods & entertainment. Watched Jurassic Park 2 & 3. Great show too! Oh, I better get going. Tomorrow needs to go to Orchard to have some check up so I can work. Then, will be going to JB to tailor some clothes fo next month wedding ceremony!

Maybe to Orchard tomorrow @ 8am?

Been bitch nowadays. I cant seems why I've been making Love frustrated. Maybe, my PMS is coming real soon? Or, I dont have any mood to talk. My feeling fo people is a mixed feelings. I tend to be nice now, & th next minutes, I tend to be nasty. Or, I can smile & laugh now, when I keep quiet (next minutes) Im very very nasty. So, now looks like Im having a very bad feelings now. I feel bad now ):

C'mon PMS, if you really want to come, come je lah. There no need fo me to be like this maaaan. >:(

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Did not attend school as Im lazy & futhermore, having a backache. How nice to sleep a very long hours. Speaking of school, I just realise that these days Im being very very very lazy to attend school altho exams is next week. This week is our very last week to study hard & yet, I've not been revising alot. Thank so this lazy bum me.

After exams, I wont be able to enjoy that much. Soon, my minds & life will be into Career life. Which means, in weeks time Im working.

Goodbye, freelance model, choreographer, babysitter, coach & student.

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Later, Im meeting Nazrie Freako. Will be heading to town to catch big fish over there. Nah, just to walk around & who knows, we might shopping? Oke, I'll better bath now or else, gna be late. AS USUAL ! :D

Before I forget, currently chatting w this Efa Kecyk or people calls her Efa Aziefah. HAHA :) Sakit haty sia bbl ngan kecyk ni. Fuuuh tapy shiok. Bbl mepek :P

"Sometimes your closest friend is your greatest enemy."- Jason Fong

Double HAHA.

A friend should help you when you're in problems. A friend should settle down nicely if both are in conflicts. A friend should be there when you cry. A friend should always be there when you laugh. A friend should treasure th friendship between you & that person. A friend should understands each other. A friend should listens to your sorrowness. A friend must enjoy being with him/her. A friend should respect you. A friend should makes you smile. A friend doing this is YOUR TRUE FRIEND.

A friend shouldnt avoid him/her. A friend shouldnt talks back. A friend shouldnt let him/her fall on knees. A friend shouldnt cry alone. A friend shouldnt take things advantagesly. A friend shouldnt critisice him/her. A friend shouldnt disloyal. A friend shouldnt do things behind back. A friend doing this isnt your true friend.

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What do you people know about friend? Anyone? I couldnt believe my eyes that things happen too fast. Its a pity.

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Well, school were fine just that couple of things happen recently. Exams around th corner & Im still can jolly well having fun. Projects were oke & finally we are done.

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Im sick & tired being treated like this. I hate when you dont even trust me @ all. How much longer can I take this suffer? Is it wrong fo me to enjoy myself outside? I dont care what people might say but hey, even Imma bitch to others I still knows my limits. Trust, concern, love, understanding wasnt there @ all fo now. I want to be alone where I can shout & smile @ th side of th beach.

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Oke, I better prepare myself fo World War 3 soon. :D

Oke, life is a bitch now. Weekends spoils everyth that we've planned. Supposingly, Love told me that he wants to look around & buy cargo pants, but fcuk, he DID NOT. And even told me, cargo pants werent suitable fo him as he wants to find nicer ones. Wth!! Maaaaaaaad @ him now.

Bbygirl gua out to ECP w her ehem ehem :D Sya is out to wedding ceremony. And now, Im alone. ): Whaaat shit man. Soon its gna rain & since, we DID NOT have any plans, I wna sleep till I die. *part ni ako mrepek sia*

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Oh, someone spam @ Sya's blog. Pretty amazing huh girl? Telling others that within 3 months you & her are fcuking bestfriends. Ass, & please dont be nuisance kan? You such a bloody coward to write down your real name. Babe, go on & spam her blog because you're wasting you bloody & fcuking time on her blog, seriously! Oh, calling police up to settle th issue? HAHA :D You making me laugh, like wth! You're th one who spams & you wants to call th police up? What shit you talking maaaan. HEY LIL GIRL, before you forgot or you DID NOT know anyth @ all, your IP code, I mean YOUR FCUKING IP code is in her program & please, you're living in west side area right? So, why bothers? You got th cheek to tell her she's UGLY & DIRTY HEART, what about yours, LIL GIRL? Dont tell me, you ARE TOOOO BEAUTIFUL till every guys out there look @ you & drools? Try looking @ my love & see if he drools @ you. Easy said, see if he wants your fcuking number. Doesnt mean you're BIG SIZE, IM fcuking scared. HAHA :D

Act like one, LIL MISS NANA :D Try & spam my blog because I deserves it. Oh no, I deserves because I love TRACKING DOWN YOUR IP CODE & SOON your IP CODE WILL BE TRACED TO POLICE since you LOVE calling up th police to settle huh. LALALAS ~ IM WAITING :)

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Oke Im done posting while smoking. Bye people!



Coward lil girl.

If my post makes you readers felt uneasy/not satisfy, I AM SORRY - SINCERE HEART.

(RECENTLY HAPPEN)
Babe, do you know th topic of Menses? Have you been in period before? Like duuuh kan? So, why bother telling people that Mira is faking to be in this situation of PERIOD? If you dont even believe, check ah puki de. Try smacking her ass & feels her sanitary pad. Gossiping people thru handphone? Wth maaaan. C'mon be brave man.

And another issue also.

(FEW WEEKS INCIDENT)
Katek, do you have an issue w Mira (Same person)? Whats th point calling her mom about her sleeping w another guy & etc? Wooah, you got th cheek to tell her mom that she has been to a hotel eyk. Waduh, bikin gua sort aje. Ape motive kow sia, katek? Kow sunggu taq sayang mulot eyk? Waduh waduh, patot lah katek. Please lah, your fcuking 18 years old & act like one. Dah besar jdi MAKCIK KPO oke?

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Many things happen on Wednesday. School work, last mint revision, bad phone calls, morning lectures & etc.

Head to school per normal, as usual come late since I woke up superbly late & furthermore, Im having flu. Went to class & Mrs Ghaffar told us that th next day was our BEG exam. School was oke & after school meet up w Love. He fetched me @ Compass & sent me home. Speaking of Love, Love received from a call which from Fadh's boyf. Wth.

So babe? Whats th commotion about eyk? No, I dont care about all this bcox, its got noth to do w me. But hey, on th other hand, I care about th safety in all of us. Not me & love. I care about you, your guy, love & me. Bcox, if your guy got th courage to phone love, he got th courage to face th circumstances. Im not siding anyone. Im siding th safety topic. So?

Btw, I miss you :D

Decided to study @ Wlands since its been ages I last went. Last mint study was awesome. Bought alot alot of munchies fo both me & Sya. It feels great to have alot alot of munchies! Bought fo Love also. Heh! At night, Love fetched me & Sya. Both of them, talk cock :D

Sya, yoook kite pecah kan muke orang !! *kening naek naek*

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Th next day ..

Exam time. Thank goodness I get to answer th questions. When I look @ th questions, I smile to myself, thats where I think back, I learnt before. Sungguh kekek :D Like wise, last mint study was awesome!

So, again Love fetched me @ Taxi stand & sent me to H.Mall to meet up w Sya. Walk around H.Mall & off to my home. Both of us were tooooooooooooooooo tired so, took a short nap. At 6, we leave th house & off to Suntec since theres a job fair. Woah, Im so gna apply soon.

Walk around Suntec then to Marina. Macam minah biol sia p toilet. HAHAHA :D Smoked, gossips & laugh. John Little had sales. Bought munchies fo Sya & Love. Since Love has been complaining to me whenever he is working, he feels hungry altho he has eaten. So while driving, he can munch someth. Told Love to fetch us & he agreed. Thank bby! I told both of them that I want Satay. So, headed to East Coast & had our supper. 20 sticks of satay, 2 honey chickens & sugarcane. Yummy! While otw @ expressway, I crack a joke. Hhaha, I had fun. Those laughters were great! Nak laaaaagy.

Send me home & sleep after washing up (:

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Friday.

School oke. Friends oke. All oke. Reached home, bath & sleep all th way. Shiok! Oke, Im sleeping again. Byee ~

Pei Hwa is having Prom Night :D How was it ?

Eventually my body system is getting from bad to worst. Whats w, I am not so sure. Everytime, I ate & after eating, I will having some break session. But now, I cant do it. I cant walk that much, cant eat that much, cant lie on th bed fo that long, cant smoke that much (after one anotha), cant be talkative. This is how I feels now. Whats w my body sia? BODY SYMPTOM is driving me nuts!!

I had fun just now. But everytime stepped in th house, I felt someth wrong. Lectures will be given.
Fcukx laaaaaaah.

So long humans, I need to go to th toilet to VOMIT !!!

Beach-ed @ Sentosa w love ones. Great quality time. Enjoyable. Funny & hilarious part happened. Scary yet phobia now. Someone almost drowned due to pushing in th water. Smoked. Yelled. Camwhoring was fun, indeed!

Great one, do it again!

Beach Road next. Looking @ boxers & bought it. Settled down to had dinner. Had mutton chop & char kway & sugarcane, favourite(: Fickle minded to buy shoe or not to buy. Headache & feel like vomitting, initially. Bad dinner indeed. Forcing myself to be oke.

Body is sick.

Now, Im home & dead beat!

Goodbye.

These days, I felt so so so sooooooo tired till I dont pay attention attentively in class. Everytime teacher nags/teaches us, I felt so weak. Am about to sleep but hey, I got to move on with th lesson as what I know, exams is around th corner, by hook or crook must must must study. Altho my brain cells cant make it, I force to.

Weather is much cooling nowadays & I felt lazy. I do wna continue sleeping but again, force to. Skipped school one of th days, due to shagness in life. I cant open up my eyes widely. So, continue sleeping. Hp were silent all th way till love call me up @ home & lil sist picks up. Thanks love fo spoiling my beauty sleep. HAHA :D But, still I love you muchly. Aww ~

Friends were great but excepts fo one which I shant elaborate any further as it makes me sick. Right used-to-be-bestf? HAHA :D Go & die! Curse you ~ So, so, well shall I stop? Oh yeah, it makes me happy when I sees my friends smiling & laughing. It feels great siol! Rakan-rakan, yok kite jadi gile. JOOM ~

Had a Jobs Career Fair @ Simei Ite yesterday. Met some friends which I misses them & unexpectedly they change so much much better than th previous years! I hugged tightly & shouting as if I own that school. Like you readers dint do before like that, ass! Guys or ladies, pelok jek. FRIENDS OKE! Fo those who thinks Im like a bitch. HAHA. Obviously Imma bitch if not, I dont own virginia & boobs. Duuuh ~

Talked & laughed w them, but sadly no pictures. Forgotten to bring digicam. HAHA :D And hell yeah, applied few jobs & unexpectedly, one of them is CISCO. Fcuk siol ako. Nvm then, & teacher told us to meet @ foyer @ 11am whereas, by th time we reach th foyer, bus went off. Thanks & it left before 11am. Mcm soyal kan?! Piss off & took taxi.

Here's th conversation between Radz & taxi driver.

Radz : Bishan Ite please.
TD : Which way do you prefer ? PIE or TPE ?
Radz : Erk, PIE will do.

I interrupt ..

Me : Oi Radz, so far ? TPE can lah .
TD : So, which ?
Me : TPE, please. Which you can enter YCK or AMK.
Radz : Pandai nah kow ? Haha.
Me : Duuuh, next time ask me before saying.

See lah. This asshole of mine. Nak jalan jaoh. HAHAHA! Dropped @ Bishan & took train to home since Radz said 'One fo all, all fo one' Babi kow!

Reached home, doze off. Then meet dearest cousin, Boy Ace. Haha, macam couple gituk. Berjanji color baju.

Aftermath, met love. I miss him muchly tao. Supper @ Jalan Kayu. Macam candlelight dinner sia kite. Just th two of us, altho some customer left already. Comel tao !!!

Oh, happy birthday hyper bro. I love you like a brother of mine. (:

Skip school since Im not feeling good. Had my medicine twice every 15 minutes. Call me crazy bcox indeed I am about to be. Sorry Mira fo Paitao you. I'll make it up to you 2mrw alright, bby gua? Stayed home today & sleep throughout th day. I really cant be bothered my surroundings since Im aint getting any better of it. Love came & he went off since he's busy w work. Dont worry bby, I'll adapt fo th 3 months just to see you happy.

Now I know whats th meaning of understanding (previous post). Understanding is your own personality & @ th same time, you got to understand your other party or partner. I learnt th meaning slowly by myself & now I realise both were in fault. Sorry. But hey, Im slowly to change oke. Just give me time.

I miss late nights outing. I wna rounding. I wna picnic @ night. I miss smoking session @ late nights. Especially when you have cigarette in between your finger, you starts your own gossip session. HAHA :D

Speaking of which, I miss th beach too. Weekends, Im heading to one of th beach to suntanning, swim, picnic, seeing hot guys & girls w bikini & trunks, camwhoring, gossips, laughing w love & others. I simply cant waaaait. I miss th hot sun too! ><

Hey, guess who text me up? Neesya bbygirl gua aka makcik gua (: It was fun texting her. Sorry dint reply your last message. Batt flat since yest dint charge. So, she texted me up just to ask how am I doing & etc. Maklomlah, kite due menghilangkan diri since both of us are busy w own life now. Oh babe, meet up soon oke? About your ex boyf, chill & move on. This type of guy/person dont bother to care less about it. Whats now, you got friends, family & cash since you're working girl. You can hurray2 now. So now, I want to see my bbigirl aka makcik gua smile like theres no tomorrow. You know I love you, right? If theres someth crops up & you got no one to turn to, there is always me. If you dont feel like meeting, you can dial up my no. fo some advices & listening ears. I miss & love you still, like my own sister. Muuwaks!

Sneakys, I miss you muchly. Hell yeah, I watched some videos of yours by Farid's acct & I felt that I miss you bunch of monkeys terribly. Meet up soon or smoking session some where?

I shall end my post now since my MOK is already here. Heh, member sudah gaji dok ape lagy, tekan cukop cukop punyerh :D

Wondering & Pondering.

How much more can I understand th meaning of UNDERSTAND? It beats me, really. Im lost without words now.

I need a break of kit kat now.

I miss love effing alot. How How How ? Please dont tire yourself. ):

Firstly, I wna say thanks to Mira, Sya, Nali, Love & Yani fo wishing me our happy 1st. It is a great pleasure to have you all by my side altho @ times I being so harsh to you people. Sorry if theres once I purposely wna fight w you by being sarcastic @ times. Thanks fo calling, texting, making me cry just to wish me.

Yani & Love.
Looking @ th video which you guys planned are sweet & memorable. Its a great effort you've put in. Th video is kinda sweet to me thou. Looks like now I know why everytime Im about to enter my room, you guys giving an eye to eye contact. HAHA :D Anws, thanks fo th mini present.

Sya.
Thanks fo th wish & thanks fo keeping secret from me. Ass, but its kinda surprised. HAHA :D You know what I mean. Speechless siol.

Mira & Nali.
Suke carik pasal ngan ako? HAHA :D I thot you guys really mean to pick a fight w me. Was dumb that today is my 1st. Haha. Shocked & surprised. Thank you both.

Love.
It was sweet of you to call me exactly midnight. And hell yeah, it was touching. You're th 1st guy which made me like this. I felt special & yeah, you're special too. I knew I kept quiet all th way but that doesnt mean I dont even care. I was speechless. Thanks fo making me cry due to your speech. Ass you! Again, happy 1st & i love you. Muuuwaks (:

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So thats about my anni. Lols, terharu I. You guys really wna make me cry tao !!!

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Let me share w you about this jerk. He's really on my nerves. He is been very very very sarcastic, showing attitude to other, picking a fight which he wants & lastly he is NOT SATISFY w me & others.

Idk whats into this ASS OF JERK but fo sure, one fine day he will get it from me. Whats more you want from me & others? You have proven me that you are just an ass to me. You gave me problems which one of them is, you not satisfy w love. If you have problems w me, settle w me. Doesnt mean Im a girl, Im not daring enough to speak up. Im not running away from you bcox we're just same school. Tell me directly fo once. Tkmoh jdi JANTAN KEDI ah yang kow nk complain2 pasal ako.

Kow p brambos dary hidop ako ah sia. Bwat menyemak je. Or ako luper ah, kow kan pengecot nk bbl ngn ako. Jantan kedi! Lagy satu, klo kow ade masalah ngn bdk2 kiter, kow tkyah nk tunjok prasaan kow kat diorg. Kow sape siol? Kucing per yang kite kne manje kan kow. Nabey, naseb kow ah ako tk sepak muke kow. Sial.

Klo kow terbace blog ako, tk puas, tell me straight. Kow tkyah complain oke kucing wanna be? Kow p take care sua. Haty2 kat jalan raye. Kow tawu ape mksod ako.

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Kay, Im done.

Right now, Im waiting fo th rain to stop or, drizzle abit. Im going out to City Hall to meet my dearest brothers(: Yeah, they knew Im bored since both my pain in th ass love & sya is working, so why not I meet them since I always complain that I miss them like fcuking hell.

Rain rain go away, come again another day. HAHAHA :D Im sleepy but, I cant backed out, nvm one day shag is oke. Woohoo !! Had my mee soto which mother cooked, yummy ! Talking about food, early mawning had my heavy breakfast. Had fried mee kway teow, a nugget & a seaweed chicken with chrysanthemum can. Hell yeah, fcuking hungry. Im gna eat again soon.

Oh yeah, do you know that I stop smoking? Yea you may think Im mad. Its not that I wna stop forever just that, I wna feel without smoking. Its been a week I dint smoke, it looks cool! :D But, I dont think it will took me forever without smoking. Soon, will be starting back.

Im sleepy!! Th weather is making me feel that way. Fcuk shit, stop raining!! Project fo LPDX is done & Im proud of it. Wait on Friday wors !!! Wed, SBM mini sales. I've yet not have any idea fo mini sales I meant, th prize of it.. Any idea, suckers? HAHAHA :D

Oh it stop raining I better get going or else brothers will scold me. Bye people!

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