Sorry fo not upadting my blog since Tuesday till today, Saturday. Was away from home. If my post is too much of words, dont bother to read & know my life right?

So, Tuesday.
Met up w some clans of mine & it was my fault fo switching off my phone. I barely want to enjoy life @ th same time but maybe its too late fo choosing it. While otw home, I was surprised that Luf is under void deck, so I cant be bothered I just went home. Think back & I just meet him up. Pass his ATM card & ez link since its w me, but I off to somewhere. I just cant be bothered w life anym. Been asked to accompany him to Plaza since he's hungry. Bought fo himself fries & slacked under my void deck. Told him that I wanted to go home, agreed. He called me up & ask if its true. So, without any hesitation, yes. I dont mind what people is talking nor he himself want to say but, shack I need some privacy in life.

Dial triple 9 up, but called someone A & B if this is th correct choice I've made. Says its a correct choice but, @ th same time I pity him. I just dont know why I've been kind hearted to people. Thats what life is all about. Kay, one whole day I've been awake otp w Sya after putting down th phone w these 2 asz.

Wednesday & Thursday, 23 Dec & 24 Dec.
Early in th morning went out of th house since I feel like going out. Met her up & went fo breakfast. After breakfast, had some talks with each other since its been ages. So, while talking Luf texted me up. Took own sweet time to go home & saw him. Urgh, pack my stuff. Text Hyper up & confirm a meet up since I will be away fo home 4 days. So, take this opportunity to sleep his house(: Left house & bid goodbye to lil sist @ th same time I cried in silence. How could life be like this? But I've change my mind, slept @ Hougang. And yeah, I get to meet Dykyd since he stay near cousin's place so, take this opportunity to stay Hougang. Before that, met up Dykyd again, I MISS KOW ALOT! Hug hug whisper whisper :D Told him to take good care of himself since I wont be there lah kan & yeah.

11.30 reached cousin's house & talk shit. Watch tv, eat, jokes around & make fool of ourselves. After crapping this lil cousin of mine asked me this;
LC : Kak pah, mane abg luf?
Me : Oh, de kje. *nod down & cry abit*

Th next day ...
Thought of sleeping @ 6.30am but I cant. Get to put myself if bed @ 7.30. Was awaken due to cold weather & look @ my phone saw Dykyd text me up saying he cant sleep. Accompany him through phone & I know you miss me fcuker! Kay fake! Haaaappy selalu & awake cousins up. Ah kow, all of them were shocked. Sorry sorry. Was excited kay!

Noon, met up w Greatest Syster & Farah up since both of them wants to meet before heading to work. Agreed & joke w them. Sungguh shiok shiok. Then went to shop & seperate ways from both of them. Bathed & off home since I miss lil sist alot! Look @ her & off to Dykyd's place. Met Dykyd & his friends over his place. Woah, they were movie marathon. Switch to a louder volume.

Friday, 25 Dec.
Clock strikes @ 12 midnight, wished Sya up. Happy Birthday babe!
Then continue movie marathon w th rest(: So played taiti, fool around & etc. Went to Dykyd's room to sleep. Both of us dah knock out but Dykyd says I did mutter someth about Tweety Bird. Then I awake which Idk why. Look @ th time 7.15am but I was tired. So try my best to sleep & woke up @ 8.15am. 1 hour of resting is okay fo me. Off to Anchorvale CC to meet up w cousins, aunties & uncles fo swimming. Reached noon take a break, after eating without noticing, I felt asleep. 3 hours of sleeping sia. Seriously tired. Ton macam maot siol.

Slept till th next day which is today Saturday 26 Dec (:

Sorry fo not anwering 10 miss calls & 11 text messages. Too tired & I know Dykyd surely miss me :D

First of all, a very big apology to Dilah Gonzela, Efa, Ardila, Juan Zumo & Sya fo not responding their chats. I was busy watching tv & whats more its my favourite show, Wrestling. I may sound like a guy now but true, I love looking @ their hot bodies & beautiful tattoos. Oh my!

I was supposingly need to meet my grandma afternoon but I was to tired plus, I overslept woke up super duper late coming to 6. So, text Hyper up since on that particular time I was hungry, thought of meeting him up & gave a bite over some fast foods, but nah. So, text Sya up & lucky she's free. Called Love up & tell him to meet up since Sya going to treat Love but, me being KPO, I told her I want too by her treat. LOL!

We ordered alot of food & but good, we still finish it up. Total of th bill above than $100. It was a great meal thou. Thanks friend! Despite of me, being choosy & fussy of th choices I want, but still I enjoy being w them. I love you guys many many many *smooches!*

Usual routine, smoke break & home sweet home. Just a mini meet up & still I appreciate it. Love came my house & we had fun. He carried me using his legs & surprisingly he called me 'Rapist' how bad. He massage me as usual, dig my eyes & disturb me despite of being his pain ass girlfriend of his. How sweet can he be?

Love went home, so since I intend to watched wrestling I focus on it. Serious, put my hp aside & watched their hot hot heat body art on their hot hot heat body. Aww ~

Right now, I missing Greatest Syster Dilah Gonzela & Hana. Wow ~ Sayang korang budo =P Jom jumpe ako. Hell yeah, both of them working like asz & left me alone. But soon, I am so gna start my working life. So, once three of us gets our pay, we will enjoy. Jooom clubbing ~ Fake ! But seriously, I want to try stepping it but I sure Love will be mad @ me. Nvm, I shall bring along Love. Hahaha :D No waaay kay? You sayang I, kne stay rumah. Fake kay boo?

I feel like doing tattoos. Its kind of cool but, ... Gosh, I shall make one once my pay is up! Okay I know its kind of random, but fcuk I dont care. I love butterfly & shall make one which I dont care. Shall ask ibu's permission :D Beest nyer.

Ibu's birthday is around th corner yet I am not sure what to buy fo her. Oh my. Disaster la seh! Shall share w love since now I am pokai. I've been waiting fo my allowance from love nih.

Dear, when can I get my allowance ni? I want to go shopping w my girlfriends. So long seh never meet them :( Deaaar faster lah. Must be goodgirl katekan.

I miss girlfriends lah.
Zariina - Ling mane you menghilang ni?
Ayinjade - B, I ryndu you sangat tao! Go your workplace, you takde! Sedehh
Neesya - Makcik, meet up soon kay ? Gna hug hug kiss kiss you :P
R.Dyla - Partner, got miss me?

Alot lah! Malas nak write down !!

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Questions.

1.How are you feeling today?
I am fine, thank you

2.Will you get far in life?
Of course, insya'allah kay

3.How do your friends see you?
A friendly yet vain chix whom always mixed w guys without fail

4.Will you get married?
In few years time

5.What is your best friend's theme song?
Nah, I dont have one now

6.What is the story of your life?
A story which full of ups & down, duh

7.What was high school like?
Very fun yet dangerous ones

8.How can you get ahead in life?
Without giving up your life

9.What is the best thing about your friends?
They always there to make me laugh w their stupidity joke

10.What is in store for this weekend?
Celebrating ibu's birthday

11.What song describes you?
Change me ? I dont know

12.To describe your grandparents?
One love from Blue whom I love muchly despite th nags

13.How is your life going?
Okay yet very troublesome

14.What song will they play at your funeral?
Mahligai AirmataKu

15.How does the world see you?
Very cheeky girl

16.Will you have a happy life?
Of course w wonderful people around me

17.What do your friends really think of you?
Understanding & bubbly one

18.Do people secretly lust over you?
Not so sure

19.How can I make myself happy?
By partying especially w lovable friends!

20.What should you do with your life?
Accept willingly & treasure th people who loves me

21.Will you ever have children?
Of course, I love babies

It's interesting don't you think so?

I want the following 5 people to
do this for me :
- Those who reads & tag my blog, must do


Favourites. :D:D
Colour(s): Black, Red & Green
Food: Junk foods
Song: Listen to any songs
Movie: Erk..
Sport: Soccer
Day of the week: Saturday, enjoy bodoh ~
Season: Winter
Ice-cream: Chocolate
Current Mood: Excited
neutralTaste: Fine ?
Clothes: Depends on occasion
Desktop: Gadget ?
laptopTime: Morning lorh
Surroundings: Quiet ones
Annoyance: Cockroaches & cats

Firsts:
Best friend: Huda & Astiana
Crush: Ficoim . ((:

Lasts:
Cigarette:Few hours ago
Drink: Few months ago
Ride: Months ago too
Movie: Princess & th frog
Phone call: just now w Dilah Gonzela
CD: nah, sorry

Have you ever?
Dated one of your best friends: No
Been arrested: No ?
Skinnydipped: Noooooo !
Tried been on TV: True
Kissed someone you don't know: Not kiss but only hug(:

Things:
4 things you did today: Updating, texting, otp, smoking & etc

The chosen five : Anyone


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I miss HER alot. Promise, I'll change just fo you & only you. Without you, I cant live & its hard fo me to walk by myself. Without you, I dont know whats love all about. Same goes of th world. I miss you badly. I pray to Allah that you will be safe & sound up there. How much more can I be like this but its time fo me to get rid of you just fo me to be independant. You teaches me alot & I appreciate it alot too. You know I will always love you no one does. I love you except you ONLY. No one not even boyfriend. I love you, mak.

Lazy to post but I have too because my favourite readers loves to read my post! *winks! winks!*

Friday.

Out to City Hall w Diy & Sya includes myself too. Meet up @ 430pm, last cabin. Saw Seha & she looked great w her punk shoe!! It was kind of awkward meeting them especially w Sya as both of us had some conflict. But, I just listen to my mp3 & cant be bothered. LOL!

Stopped @ City Hall & walked to Marina Square. Take a bite @ Burger King & I just told her to forget about what happened since whats th point having some grudges. So, off to Esplanade to chill & wow, still have some minahs whom are ARROGANT.

We 3 were talking & smoking except fo Diy then suddently theres 4 girls walked & sat infront of us, they were looking @ us as if we owe them life. Okay, serious it wasnt what I've thought but fcuk, they shouldnt stare what. Then I wanted to look @ them & wah wah wah, smoke & stared then I come to realised they were talking in 'Tkmoh lah sia, nanty mak ako marah!'. Wth, still underage laaaaah =P

So, waited fo Aisha & she told us she cried since its her last day of her 1 year 1 month of working. Babe, relax & chill okay. Talked bullshit w someone & made me laaaaaugh! Surprisingly, almost everyone surrounded me look due to laughing out loud. Embarass okay!

Slack awhile & walked to Clarke Quay. Was great overall.

Morning time, was a best day. Enjoying siol.

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I came to realise of friends/family members/etc being controlled especially BGR. Its just my thought so, no harm writing down here.

Erm, yeah. What so good controlling people whereas you yourself dont even know how to control yourself? I am not saying I am perfect but, people who has been controlled need life too. They need some space fo themselves. They need some privacy too. Controlling of timing, is way can be handle its th matter of 'Know Your Limit'.

I've been in 'controlling' system when I am into relationship, but now, I cant be bothered. Reason why I said that because, 'Hello! Wake up, I need life & some privacy so you dont need to know!'. Its simple, I am not, I repeat I am not I rebellious its only I want some enjoyment. We people wants some enjoyment. I want to mix people whom are bad & good ones.

Getting control is bored. I hate people asking me, 'Where have you been?', 'With whom are you out?', 'What time going home?' & etc. Waaaah, I am big enough to think.

I know its fo our own good but, its making us driving nuts. What do you expect? Stay @ home so that people knows you're a goodgirl/goodboy? Aiyooh.

Now I realize things happen so much faster than we predict.

Okay, I had lots of fun yesterday. Came home late & came back by morning. 1 whole day of being outside with a cool weather, raining heavily. Awesome huh?

Was out to Bugis to accompany greatest syster to find her long dress (tuxedo dress) whereas I being her irritating syster supposingly to find my heels but, this greatest syster of mine, wanted to meet her greatest boyfriend because she misses him so much, so me being nice I accompany her. How great can it be?

But hey, we still lookouts fo our own things okay. Bumped into Xiao Tong & Cheryl. Gosh, they change pretty good & babes, I miss you too okay. Bumped into you people soon! Oh did I tell you I had lunch with greatest syster over @ Tong Seng? We had good amount of food right syster? Yes, we even bought our drink twice. Isnt that greedy of us? How great, usual rountine smoke till we can die. Nah, kidding. We smoke & craps alot.

Headed to her boyfriend's hometown & it was again, awesome. We people crap alot. After one person talks, another people interrupt. All of us were being irritated by one another behaviour, so we smoke until th night still yound *macam paham*

Met up w Hana, & yes we finally had our breakfast over @ Macdonalds. But before that, I got home change without resting wors. So, met them & cool we went fo a cool exercise. True we did!

We had yoga, dancing sessions, karaoke sessions under void deck after our meals. Its exercise okay + yes, we jog too. We people ton okay. See, got home change & off to our morning 'assembly'.

Isnt that great. I really seriously had fun. Thank you girlfriends fo an awesome 2 days 1 night outing. HAHAHA :D

Today, stayed @ home since got home early this morning. Was exhausted day fo us. Indeed we are. I slept one whole pathetic day doing noth just sleep. See how tired I can be? Love came just to meet me & sorry was too tired & I snored (OMG!!)

Love received a call from someone whom I closed w, but you made th wrong choice babe. So, I told him to just meet whereas I still & intend to continue my sleeping session. After much meet up, he woke me up. Thank you okay am was dreaming about monster while you still can disturb me how great.

So talked things out between us but I got all tense up I feel like slapping this irritating babe. Sorry babe fo th criticising but I got no choice to hand over all issues to you. After much reading, you'll know. Think okay.

Love & lil sist were watching movie & sorry fo abandon you both, was too tired lah!! Love decided to go home & sent him off under my block.

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Enough of th thinking already, babe? Here goes.. But before that, get ready fo some popcorns & tissues.

Erm.. Lets start with part A.
Have you notice that I neglect you fo 1 week? Well theres no answer. Its my choice of being this way. Maybe Im bored w you? Nah, kidding. xD

Part B.
Whats w you controlling me? Who are you to me? Any blood interaction? No, never babe. Whomever I want to go out w, what time I want to go out/ be back, its my choice. I know you worried, thanks fo th concern. I dont need you to control. Parents do not control me doesnt mean you have to control me. Parents does not hold grudges w my friends, why should you? My life babe. Its a good thing you concern about me, but one sentence fo you 'There's a LIMIT!'.

Part C.
You dont need to come all th way to my house just to settle things w me. Yes, it may hurt this but how do you feel if I come to your place EVERYTIME we had some misunderstandings? Annoyed? Irritated? Yes, thats me. Its a good thing you want to visit me but theres always a next time. If I say do not disturb, means do not disturb. Give me time & space. I want to befriends with whoever I want, its my problems. Does it concern you? No @ all.

Part D.
Whats w th topic 'Kow lain, ako lain?'. Traslation: You're different, Im different. Everyone is th same, mind you. Except fo their discipline & atttitude. So what if I mixed & have alot of friends? All you need is make some friends w other people. Doesnt mean you only have me. We just friends. You're not my boyfriend nor one of my parents.

Part E.

You dont need to compare things/humans. Such as, you dont need to compare me & one of gibp. You know I hate people comparing & always said theres a limit. If she's irritating, so? Arent you an irritating person too? Everyone is irritating. So what if she acting like a minah? Part of list, our friend too.

Okay, if my parts hurt you, am sorry. Just that I felt irritated being your way & cant believe you're LIKE THIS. If I changed, does it concern you? Hey babe, slowly okay. But what matters me most is, I know myself fo th best & seriously I do not need anyone to ask me to change back.

If love which is your favourite brother let me do anyth & trust me, why cant you? Please, you dont need to be jealous w whoever I want to mixed. I know you too well, babe.

See you tomorrow which is later(:

Thought of posting yesterday event, but I shall skip it. Later later can talk about it. Aaah, nevermind. I shall post it NOW now NOW!!

So yesterday were ...

Monday.

Without transport, under servicing):

Love finished his work early so, meet me up @ my house. He rest forawhile, so while resting, watch this scary yet legend movie 'The Exorcist'. After Mahgrib, off to Amk Hub to watch this movie. You readers may laugh your ass off because I was shocked that I pick this movie. Well.. The Princess & The Frog. Its a cartoon show. Hey, its a nice show. C'mon guys go watch it. Soon, Im going to watch Planet 51 w love! Aww.. Enough about movies.

After th movie ended, I prank love. HAHAHA! Told him this 'Faster, we need to catch th last bus'. But actually its already 1030pm. So, I pretend to be rushing lah. Took bus home & reached my house. Love said 'I cant stay here any longer. Now its 12.30am'

So, I laugh my ass off! I told that he's been prank. Okay, silly boy. Sorry okay I prank but, its kinda cute to me thou. He massage & dig my ears till Im about to sleep. After he left, this irritating sister of mine which call herself EEZANIE (okay part ni maplek jap), told me this 'Kakak I lapar!' in other words 'Sister, Im hungry!'.

Being a very good elder sister, called macdelivery but cant as th person says be back in 30 minutes. I got frustrated told love about it & ask him to call macdelivery. Ordered & thank you(: While waiting, on call w my greatest syster(: We crap huh, dont we? Delievery arrived & off to eat. Slept after subuh, okay thats pretty late!

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Today, firstly it turned out to be sucky because, love's vehicle is under servicing AGAIN. Woah, how can like that man?! Kay, met @ my house as usal since he finish his work. Then gotten ready off to Changi by taxi to send some documents which I need to deliver. Met Mira up as usual place. Sorry babe, we're late.

After sending, off to T2. Okay, we kinda lost although we're SINGAPOREANS. Headed to canteen to had our late lunch. Had my masala thosai & grassjelly while love had his tom yam toufu & his mixed soya bean w grassjelly. My masala thosai super spicy & its nice. I love spicy food!! Yuuuuuuuuuummy.

Much fillings, usual had our puff. Then Mira met her boyf where we had our puff. We plan to play pool @ Downtown. Was awesome okay. Mira & boyf went off 1st since they're going else where. Left me & love, we played as usual & hello, I won love okay. Sorry dude -___-

Home sweet home, but no. I went meet my babygirls. Okay, thanks fo th desserts okay. Love went home. Me, home by 1.30am sharp.

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Had fun texting w Bella & nice texting w you. Finally, we had no more grudges now. And babe, dont think negative okay (: Psst, love you muchly *hug tight tight*

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And yeah, I had my waffle w chocolate ice cream on top! Heaven!!!

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How do you feel if your child/children did that to you EXACTLY how you did to your parents?

Okay, partially apologise fo no updating a proper post. Was using love's gadget to surf th net & it was awesome! Well.. What shall I post eh? Aaaahh, okay here goes.

Friday, headed down to town (again, that place) to ask just to verify about th result. It was kind of pathetic & I nearly not in th mood but I controlled. Reason is, love has been moody because he is tired from work. Am sorry if I irritates you. Sya kept quiet because she's our lamp post. Kidding kay. Went to Puncak fo our dinner & my stomache hurts. About to tell love but, since he's not in th mood so, I just kept quiet. My intention is to find my heels, but thanks, none catch my eyes despite its been more than a week I went to town EVERYDAY.

So, slack @ garden forawhile & decide to go home since we're effing tired. Took train & off home. At night, meet Dilah Gonzela up to help out th multi purpose hall. Okay but okay. =X

Saturday.

Nothing much, after mahgrib put up th decoration up & wash some dishes. Both girls played w th water. Jakon sekejap jek. Talked to Ady & distutb him. Liliq came aftermath. Love too, help out to wash.

Lil sist came too as Atiqah wants to meet her. Lol, dah jumpe taknak berbual. Slack till coming to 4am w Mimi, Faizah, Ady, Liliq, Dilah, Lil sist, love & me. Talked non stop & jokes has been cracked by liliq, ady, love & dilah. Me busy surfing net using love's gadget.

Went to plaza before that, saw Apiz. Was about to go out, he rode his bike fo some delivery. And booom, I saw Fyzie & Squid. Ryndu sama adek bradek! Especially Squid. Asked about Sham & th rest. And asked them to send regards.

Continue slacking session & off.

Reached home, washed up. Thought of sleeping, but to no avail. I cant sleep as th previous day I slept more than 14 hours? Shiok siol. At 730am sleep fo few hours. Getting ready fo work.

Sunday.
Had best companion w cliques. Met new people up, Elfiq, Ain & Rashid. Were great & oh no, Im not 19 - 22 years old kay. Not that old siol. Splashed here & there disturb them & etc.

Finally, get a chance to meet Hana, this bbygirl of mine. I miss you effing muchly okay! After th event, off home. And thank you, sore eyes is here.

Today, Im pretending to be single. Sorry love, but you know me! Haha, still iloveyou okay! :D

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This will be much words coming out but, Im not picking a fight okay. Just my thought.

What friends are fo? I thought, friends will always be there through th easy & difficult ways? Meaning through thicks & thins. I just cant understand why you people detest her? Because of her attitude? So, what about you people? Have you guys spare a thought? Put your ego aside & atleast show up. How do you feel if none of your friends came? Sad? Angry?

Thats how she feels? Fo goodness sake, you people dont need to show your angerness infront, be patience. I know if she doesnt create this matter, things wouldnt be this way. I know, but whatever it is, atleast show up just fo other sake.

Okay Im done!

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Love, Im sorry okay if I dont entertain you much. I nak jady single jap. Maklomlah, nak tawu rase de. Okay, kidding. Just want to make new friends actually. Heh, but I know you WILL & WOULD AGREE with it. HAHAHA, because you love me. I love you too bachenku.

Bye!

Oh gREAT, BOYF IS  BESIDE ME. WE'RE NW AT FADH'S JEMPUTAN SURFING NET. HOW GREAT. GOSH I HAD FUN EATING MAM. TH PELAMIN IS SUPER NICE REALLY. IM SUPPOSSE TO HE5KP BUT MY STOMACHE SAYS DONT WALK. GOSH SICKENING MAN. KAY, I BETTER GET GOING

AM USING BOYF HP TO SURF TH NET. LOVE YOU

Okay, first of all I would like to wish Bella or also known as Nur Syazwani a very Happy 14th Birthday. May all wishes come true & again, may you last long w Arep aite? Amin.

Headed down to Paya Lebar fo dinner. Had Spagehetti Balognise & Longan drink fo myself while Love & Sya had Chicken chip, Super Giant Combo, Teh Tarik & Rambutan w Pineapple drink. Its nice okay. And Im full. Thank you, love fo th treat. Lol, you always treat me. *tongue out!*

After dinner, usual smoke break & home sweet home.

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Yesterday, went fo a swim w Nazrie & Sya. Its been ages okay I last swam. It took around 3-5 years back I last stepped into a swimming pool. Saw Salman, my long friend. We also played w th slide & hell yeah it was shiok till one of th slide Im stuck. Haha, Nazrie knows everyth because he saw everyth. Sial kow cibai ~

After swimming, shower & off to Compass fo our dinner. I kept sneezing & my mucus is overboard. Called love & headed down fo karaoke session. Was awesome despite of my flu. Sent Sya off & went to Jalan Kayu as I want Teh Tarik. Reached home, it got worsen. Tell me how my day is. Slept throughtout th next day.

Pictures from love. Sorry.

Okay, finally I've decided to stay @ home to rot & even better, to rest @ home since its been ages I last stayed @ home to rest. Its been a week of two I kept going out & came back after 1am never in my life I went back home before 7.30pm. HAHA :D So now its been good doing it everyday. I am pretty sure everyone were shocked & goes saying 'Oh my, Efa has changed to a better person now! Regret calling her spoilt brat!' Lol, kidding okay!

Well, actually thats not th only reason why I stay @ home. Th reason why is because, it was my throat. It burned & made me go crazy w th coughing. Now, I need to smoke less & drink plenty of plain water now! Oh my, my throat is abit itching now & I feel like scratching it. But goodness, its too irritating bergeroh xia!!

Finally, I had my nice beauty sleep just now as yest, Love massage me & I woke up @ coming to 4pm? It was great but still I got th feeling of sleepy. I need to rest more thats why. Love text me up just now, as he pity me due to my coughing which makes him feels bad. Sorry okay! So, he send some cookies & a sour plum drink. So thoughtful of you ~

He went off to work & I chatted w some idiots :D New pictures has been download-ed & it was superb hilarious lah sia. Okay, met up w my dearest sister, Dilah Gonzela under my void deck & I miss her superb alot, y'know. She was th one calling me saying she misses me & wanted to meet me up fo few minutes.

Met her up & we talked as if there's no tomorrow. And hell yeah, she misses my puff which is Sampoerna. Haha, boohoo to you sister! After few minutes its time fo us to go home. Seperate ways & bid goodbyes.

Here I am, blogging. I wanted to watch Jennifer's Body. Okay, its legend now. I have th DVD but, I've yet to watch it. Now, I wanted to watch case 39 or planet 51? Whatever it says.

Btw, I thought of changing my url & email add as some I dont wish to contact anymore. So, fo those who have both of them, you'll be honour & please appreciate it kay!
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Taken few months ago.

Suddenly I miss my pit. Almost reaching to 50 who attended. I miss everyone of you. Aah, see you people!

Picture above is half of Geng TS. Where have you people been? You know I miss all of you. Altho we were too busy w our own schedule, we still have th time to text right? Anw, holidays is here, lets enjoy okay babies? I love you & no matter, you people will always be remembered deep in my heart.

Currently chatting w FeeSpinster & Sya.

Okay, it was a bad remark okay fee saying about her baldi. Wth, she's okay what. Oop! You know I know okay?!

Like finally, went fo th check up w Sya & we were *thank god face* w each other. And babe, thanks okay its been a week we went to town. Like we always say 'Macam budak bodoh!'. Made new friends w some minahs & indeed they were FRIENDLY I assume. I like minahs okay! Okay reserve anotha topic of Minah later :D

After much of my work check up, headed to Lucky Plaza fo X-Ray. Met Aisha up since she finish her work. Walked around & all th way had a tiff w Love. Macam toot! So, had our meals @ Far East Cahaya & I saw Apul, Chan & Ady there too. Okay, miss them muchly & I miss school by then. Thanks korang, ako ryndu skola! So, salam-ed & talk cock w them.

After our meals, search fo my heels whereas Aisha search fo her bag. Upon searching her bag, someth reminds her. She said 'Kay good, we're lost searching fo th bag!' She gave her fcuk face which made us laugh. -__________________-

Walked around, went over to Paragon. Thought of meeting Ekahchirio & Ayinjade but, both of them werent @ their workplace. Then suddenly, saw NysaFelicade. Bagooos, she looks super grumpy but still, I got smile @ her. 'Are you Fahmi's Ex?!' Wth ...

So, had our coffee bean drink since Im craving fo it. Bought myself my favourite drink Caramel whereas Sya bought her 'delicious' drink Cappucino. HAHA :D Wrong one huh, babe? Sedap sampai tekak ako macam sial bodoh! Ishk.

Met Love up since he is gonna sent us home, I mean my bbygirls. Aisha was th 1st followed by Sya. After sent Sya off, we decided to go to Eaz Coaz to chilled but Love was in hungry. Went over to Bedok. (:

While otw home, bought some muchies home since lil sist were hungry macam nk mampos. Bought fo her Roty John & Kway Teow. Okay lah tu, you owe me 1 packet of ciggies! HAHA, Kidding!

Oh, both me & Fee made this phrase up.

Awan Yang Berkaky
Langit Yang Berbadan
Bulan Yang Bermuka
Bintang Yang Terbesar Macam Baldy

Bottomline: I rela ngok awan yang berkaky dary bintang yang macam baldy sia!

Baldy Jeng Jeng Jeng
Tuala Sat Sat Sat
Sabon Sort Sort Sort

Bottomline: Kau bahan kekek siol!

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Oh, I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to someone. Thanks so much okay! You know who you are, :D

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Love, Im sorry fo calling you bastard & those names I shouldnt utter. A big apologise okay?! And, thanks fo th massage too! Sayang kow chibai kia :D Heh !

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Swimming anyone? Gym anyone? Heh !

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Since Im bored, grab this survey from my lil girl, Neesya (:

1. What do you want to be when you grow up?
► Wife of Love. Nah, a president?

2. Have you ever fallen in love?
► Yup

3. Do you like older guys/girls?
► Yes, prefer mixing w older guys than girls

4. Who are the most important to you?
► Well, family & friends includes love duuuh

5. Who/what are you thinking right now?
► Thinking of an ans of this survey

6. What is your favourite colour?
► Red, Green & Baby Blue

7. Are you seriously in love?
► Obviously

8. Would you cry for the one you love?
► Of course. Like Mak everytime!

9. Have you ever failed in life?
► Yes but from there we can be successful

10. What is your full name?
► Nur Iffah Izzah

11. Do you like your first name?
► Obviously

12. How long have you liked the person you currently like?
► About 1 year coming 2 months

13. Have you kissed someone in the last 48 hours?
► Random

14. Did you cry today?
► Yup, had a small tiff w Love just now

15. What are you doing this morning at 8am?
► Sleeping

16. What are you doing an hour ago?
► Chatting w FeeSpinster & Sya

17. What are you currently doing?
► Typing answer of this survey

18. Who last texted you a msg?
► Lufthy <3

19. Have you told anybody that you love them today?
► Only him

20. Do you miss anyone now?
► Obviously

21. Any plans for tomorrow?
► Going to th beach or just rot @ home

22. Is there anyone you want to be with now?
► W mak, can I?

23. Name someone who make you smile today.
► Lufthy love, Sya & Fee

24. Name a friend whose name stats with " Z "
► Zariina darling & babe, I miss you oke katek!

25. Which of your friend stay closest to you?
► Dilah gonzela sister gua & Sya Zya <3

26. Do you prefer to call or text?
► Text, if urgent call will do

27. Was yesterday better than today?
► Nope a very bad days fo me

28. Can you live a day without your tv and phone?
► Of course, unless I sleep throughout th day

29. Are you mad about anything now?
► I am not so sure 'bout that

30. Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
► Nah, not @ all. Learn from mak

31. Last person you visited in a hospital?
► Irham lil cousin of mine <3

32. When is your last and second last hug.
►Just now

34. How do you feel about your life right now?
► Dont wish to answer that

35. Do you hate anyone?
► Not @ all

36. Last person you called?
► Love

37. Who usually sent you the most texts in a month?
► Love & Sya Zya <3

38. Is your room messy now?
► Haha, love always clean it up fo me

39. What are you currently doing?
► Typing an answer fo th survey duh ~

40. Tag 10 person to do this quiz.
► Anyone, bitches, bastards & etc

Thanks passerby fo th link to Bella's blog, but sorry. Arep isnt my dear ex now. Well, he used to but, now no longer because I know, deep inside Bella's heart, she loves Arep more than everyth. So, I dont seem why she hold some grudges on me. Babe, whatever you think of me now, I dont care because, I dont hate you @ all. I dont call you bitch, i dont call you names & i dont tell anyth about you to others. If you think again, I would want to snatch your boyfriend away from you, why should i? I've got my boyfriend too & so do you. We used to be inlove once back but, noth can put us together because Arep found better girl than me. He picked you to be his life partner & he wants you to take good care of him in future time. Im sure you'll be reading this but what matters now is, tell Arep how you feels. Im sure you're jealous but that doesnt mean you have to hate me right, Bella? Calling me bitch doesnt make you satisfy @ all.

Babe, every girl would be jealous of her boyfriend putting his ex photo in cyber. But that was in th past. Now, you're w him, so why must I bother loving him back then? Think babe. Btw, all th best in your relationship w Arep (:

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So, there's this conflict between me & her. About her boyfriend which is my ex. Lol, small matter.

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Basically I was out w Love just now since his pay has been received, headed to Vivo. I intend to buy this guess handbag which cost us $200, but I saw only black which left w 1 color. Saw some heels but none attracts me @ all. My bad okay! Off to Secret Recipe to have our meal & Love ordered alot.

Ordered Ice blended fruit punch, Ezpirit Passion Juice, Grilled chicken w black pepper sauce, Chicken idk, marble cake & chocolate cheese. Sumpah, ini smue sedap. I enjoy it okay bby! Walked around Vivo but noth interest me @ all. So headed to carpark & we're off to Sentosa. Watched CineBlast Log Ride & CarlsBerg w Love. We intend to go to th SkyRide & th Luge but fcuk, my throat hurts alot. Spoiled my mood. After much @ Sentosa, went over to Singapore Flyers. In th tablet, we th only person inside. We made some noises & we treating one another like tourists. Much of th skyview, we to Popeyes since we're thirsty & hungry. Bought some munchies & headed somewhere.

We spent so much quality time, right baby? Oh, we even had fun watching Saiful Apek's shows! *kening naek naek*

Once my fag is finish, Im off to bed. Nite lovelies!

Time check: 3.27am

Currently chatting w Love & Sya. Oke, this bunch of ass is really pain in my ass obviously! But, I love them too bits & pieces.

Erm, lets talk about Friday.
Out to town (fo th 3rd/4th time in a week?) need to do some thing regarding on work. And it really pisses me off & upset me ALOT. Cried while thinking if I should take th risk or not to take th risk. It makes me sad & confused. Ask my bby bro, Hyper, if its worth it & he told me this 'If you have th confidence in working life, I think its better you take th risk who knows one day you overcome it. But if you think your confidence wasnt there, why bother? Its yourself who works, not others working fo you. Believe in yourself, sister.'

It touches me alot & really, it motivates me. So, I guess what he say is pretty true, I am th one who wanted to work, so why bother listen to others? Correct? And not to forget, Love was there to motivates me. He really got shocked that I was crying in public. Thank you, love. And Sya was wiping my tears away while I otp w them. Sorry babe fo th trouble. It was nice to have this bunch of kiddos w me, in my life.

So, after much thinking, I've decided to walk to Far East since I really cant think much as I was freaking hungry macam nak mampos. While picking which stall to eat, bumped into Fico & his friend, Loco. Chit chatted forawhile & off, since I was really hungry. Went to th next stall since both Sya & I craving fo Mee Soto. Order but th aunty told us theres no more Mee Soto. Upsets me & picked Plain rice w some dishes. Not worth it, @ ol. Far East had some Food fair going around, & Sya bought herself Muah Chee & idk what its call. Went outside of Far East, saw Fico & Loco, again. Bid them goodbyes & off to somewhere since I want to find heels.

But to avail, I gave up. Had starbucks drinks to smoothen my mood, thought of taking a puff but thank you Lil Efa fo having a butt to puff. Decided not to puff since Im left w 1 stick. Had a tiff w Love which, it makes me heartpain.

Was planned by him to catch a midnight movie so, I told him that I dont mind @ ol. After much deciding, received a called from his & asked me if theres any shows I intend to watch. But saddening, he told me which pisses me of that, I decide th shows, time & place. Now, tell me that. Fo me, if that person plans to go out w me, he/she must decide. Unless he/she doesnt have any plan but wanted to go out, Im fine w me.

Cried fo how many times just fo him. But nvm, I tahan. After much talking & shouting, told him to fetch us @ Plaza Sing @ 1045pm. Agreed & met him over there. Again, had a tiff. Because of what I wear was too overboard fo him. -_-"

Settled & decided to watch @ Vivo, 1230am show, Couple Retreat. It was awesome. I really enjoy watching th show. Furthermore, I am in between my love one, Love & Sya. Was great being w them! Sya slept my house & oh yes, reached home @ 5am in th morning.

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Boring Saturday so, Stay home Saturday. Thank you fo paitao-ing me. Ade pergi, ade balik keh? Had my meals over @ Compass. Movie marathon w Sya but ended up, I felt asleep. Send Sya off, met Love awhile.

Oke, Im done. Oh, Cinta U Turn, Pappadum & Drop Out was a nice show. :D

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I cant wait fo Sunday. Enjoooooooooy babe ngan laky gua!

Will this leads to an end? Please no.

Met up w Sya up @ our usual place to smoke. While waiting fo her, took a puff & she came w Huimin & Shuling. Talked cock & Love pick me up as been told. So, give them a lift & almost reach Huimin & Shuling's destination to Vivo, someone called love up & really, it annoys me. I kept quiet till I felt better than I will talk. So, back to his workplace & sent us there. Telling us to wait & so forth till I really cant tolerate anym. Tears was about to dropped but, I held back. Took 86 & dropped nearest LRT @ Jalan Kayu. Walked all th way to th LRT w Huimin's high heels. After much crap, get seperated @ Dhoby since both of them went to Vivo whereas me & Sya off to P.S.

Headed to POSB but shack, it cant be transaction. Called th Customer Service & th nearest Bank were @ th CentrePoint depite th weather were so horid. So went there made a new card & luckily, it go on oke. Thot of going Orchard Central, but nah because of th paint's smell that makes me feel like vomitting since I've not eaten 1 whole pathetic day.

About to go home, we made a new game. Was fun & really, I had fun when I spent time w friends. Was great beside small tiff w Love.

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I just dont know whats Im gna turn into. I dont want this to happen but how long more must I suffer myself? I dont want this anym. I cant & handle my situation right now. I've waited long enough but it seems noth to work out. Will this leads to forever? I just couldnt bare, couldnt bare to see this to happen. I had enough patience & waiting fo th return. I tried my best to control my tears away but it still kept flowing thru & forth. I dont deserve this & please spare a thought ..

Whats more I want? I want noth fo gifts except love & concern. I felt like a loner now. Yes, I do have friends but, do they know how I feels? Despite those tiffs, I felt like a loser now. Indeed, Im crying like no one see. Yes, people around able to know their feelings, how about mine? Will they know? Will they understand altho some werent into relationship? I've been crying alot lately & dont wish to cry another day but sorry, Im weak. Im scared, scared people will say 'Efa, theres alot. No use crying.' Please, I dont want another challenge & no more I can handle this.

Does people know Im crying now?

I love you, bbyboy.

Just came back from Kallang, Leisure Park. What I do? We played bowling. Had fun & lots of fun. And thank you Love fo buying me tweety bird. Looks like my room will be full of tweety birds. Sya bought fo me 3 tweety bird whereas love bought fo me another one. Heh! Im so gna collect tweety bird bird.

At noon, headed to Shaw House to have some medical check but someone paitao me without saying sorry. Thanks lah kan, but nvm. I got no grudges here. Heh ^^ Then all of sudded, Sya told me that her wallet were lost. Search everyone & even back to square one where we walked from. No avail, so report to nearest SMRT service & told them. Search everywhere & we even walked thru & forth th place. Legs were aching & my mood were down. Received a call & told that her wallet has been found. Lucky thing & alhamdullilah. Aftermath went to my check up. Reached th clinic, its about to close so, headed to Far East since Im starving macam nak mampos. But too crowded w Mats & Minahs. So, went to Lucky Plaza to have nasy ayam penyet, favourite siol! Craps w clans & critisice people. Okeh, bitchy us!

Slacked, smoke break as usual & off somewhere since I called Love to fetched us. Planned to play bowl @ Kallang as stated. Was fun & we even waste our money on munchies altho we have eaten. Expensive & not worth it @ all.

And here I am, posting, chatting & texting. I feel like breaking down pretty soon.

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Was browsing some of my friend's blog & I realised how much I misses them. Those laughters, bitching, cries & etc were flashing back. I really misses them. Looking @ their post were great knowing their life were blissful. Im proud of them, seriously. Thou we always fought, but still we made th best team ever..

And yes, I misses my ex too when we're in th same school. From North Spring to Pei Hwa to outsiders. Those gap makes a difference in my life. Teaches me how to be good, respect th elders, knowing some religion, history of spore & etc. My exes were great but hey, we deserves to be seperated. Because I know, we couldnt make it as far as I thought. Every anni without fail texting or calling just to wish happy anniversary & thank you fo being together. And, deep down I have to say that we couldnt make it far. Im sorry greatest exes ever. Im still proud of my babyboys oke!

Now, year 2009, I deserves a better man who can tell me th real meaning of maturity. Whats glass & pearls. I love you, dude. And thank you fo tolerating my attitude thou it sucks like fcuk.

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Oke, I guess I have to end. Th more I think, th more I wna breakdown.

A very big yay to me now. These past 2 day, yesterday (Monday) & today (Tuesday) a very big competition to me. Which is exams day.

And hell yeah, it was an okeh paper fo me. Yesterday were POA & I did my best altho some of th quest popped out very strangely. I studied oke & Im not like last time *wink!*

So, lets start about today. Had BEO paper & confusing ans I answered. Really oke!
Both Mira & I went to school late, dont blame me. Waited fo Mira as usual place & she's pretty upset about her relationship. Babe, chill & smile oke? I know its been hard on you but hey(!), Im here aint I?

So, enter th class everyone were reading their own paper which already given by th teacher. Lucky thang, its not started. Did our paper & I was kind of sleepy due to yesterday went home late & before heading to sleep I did my last minute revision.

Its hard on my eyes, its really difficult to open my eyes widely. Aftermath, headed to Canteen to had my big breakfast, rice with lauk ayam lemak cili padi & 2 pieces of seaweed chicken. I was hungry ya'know! Relax forawhile & off to home. Love fetched me nearby my house & soon, Im home I fall asleep. Received more than 10 missed calls & some messages given from Sya & Nazrie. Sorry people was too tired like oik oik(:

Woke up before mahgrib & here I am puffing 2 sticks after my dinner.

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Yesterday headed to Feespinster's pit as she's invited. Unbelievable there's on less than 20 attend? But, overall it was oke lah. Sorry babe, did not laugh that much. Was hungry & yeah Im having cramp thats why! But atleast your friends & we as a clan did an effort to come just to see you happy. Iloveyou, lil sist.

So, after her pit, headed down to Macd's drive thru & bought Meals. Teriyaki chicken, McSpicy & Double Cheeseburger. Yum yum! After our supper, sent Sya home then Nazrie & last me. Reached home kinda late but its oke (:

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Im out of words now & I shall end my blog here. So, toodles!

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