EEEFA property

2011-10-05T05:44:00.001-07:00

Still sick.

2011-09-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

I gotten What I want, & I thank God fo everyth. Alhamdulillah :)

2010-11-29T20:27:00.000-08:00

A place where I can jote down my thoughts, very deep thought. I've realised people surrounds me changed. No big deal, theirselves. But, th way they treat to others seems to bothers me again, alot.

Boyfriend being a bitch now. I forward my bill reminder to him & he thought I demand him to pay up. I explain to him my reason of forwarding th txt but nothing seems to go into his brain. Mind him, & I was kind of piss off with him as what, he told me he was late. Scum him, he is being a bitch now. You're late, & still got th cheek to reply my status. Now, is tht my fault? If ever he had a tiff w his family member or friends, he shouldn't have just throw his tantrums on me. And, bad news, I was having my PMS. Nice one.

Th day everything went down, in a split seconds.

2010-09-26T14:11:00.000-07:00

I miss Ayie truckloads.

WHERE IS MY DARLING ?! ZARIINA TEXT ME !!!

2010-09-21T18:52:00.001-07:00

Im back in action, guys.

2010-09-05T18:42:00.000-07:00

Hello humans. I'm back on th track as usual. Oh, I've been using 2 web diaries. Onsugar & blog. So, fo now just drop by here & read through my diary & know my life going on. EASY TO SAY, jadilah makcik atao pakcik kpo okay?

So, life has been great & yes, I'm moving on w my love life. Yes, call me a bitch or whore or whtsoever who easy to get guys. OH FCUK YOU okay?

HAHA, thou its a fasting month now, IDC wht its going to be bcos, I deserves it. ITU BLAKANG CERITA okay?

Well .... Nak cakap ape lagi eh? Entah laaa, I also dk. Just stay tune je okay!

2010-05-04T00:22:00.000-07:00

Long dissapearance fo now. Sorry fo th inconveniences. Life is great with th people I've surrounded. But somehow, I wish it would be great if th people I love and miss is there. How great can it be?

Working w long hours is tiring but, hey looks like I need to endure fo th meantime right? Sighs): Sometimes thinking back, feels like quitting but, sometimes, nah ~ Yes, soon will be back to school fo me and thts final. I love it laaa.

Update more alrights, need to get ready fo work): AGAIN!

2010-04-03T07:10:00.000-07:00

Sorry fo a month plus away. Was abit busy w work & when it comes to an off day, still busy. Been catching up w my fellow geng ts. And we changed our mind by meeting up every one month. How cool it is? I shall cut down on my spences. Been spent quite a number of it, and really gna go bankrupt. Enrolling car and waiting okay! Hopefully before hari raya alright :D Sister passed and finally she drove! Yessa!

I am so gna date w Fico soon. And yes, guess sandals alright! :D Haaaappy nyer.

Work has been hectic fo me. More test coming up. OJT soon and now Im on training fo it. Flight is alot to remember and insya'allah I can do it. OT fo now :D Moments will be afternoon shift. Yessa! Beeeeest nyer. Girls and a guy, lets partaaaaaaaye !!

2010-02-25T10:37:00.000-08:00

So, I shall blog about us. Hella yes, lets talk about it. Missing th JUNKIES alot. We junk alot of bitchy stuff. I used to remember where I call Azura, Aisha, Hyper when I am w Sya, lil sist & Fiqah( lil friend) calling them just to say 'HANYA!', as we intimating Dilah up. We're bored thats why. Gosh .. I miss them alot. Here a lil summarise about each & everyone ..

Feeka: Th girl whom we always disturb without a stop. A girl whom is shy yet gerek. KAKY GEREK doh ~ Always kept her secrets but not promise. Matured as age but immatured by looks. Hella ya, thats life!

Sya: Whom feel as if she's an hip hop girl but tak laku. But overall she's cool. Never to smoke but when mixing, fuuuuh ~ Kepak bukak siol! An independant girl, shy (Always), fierce in voice but lembot on th outside. LOL!

Aisha: Primary school mate. A girl who looks decent yet, haty can curse curse curse. Loves to smile alot. Secrets is safe but fuuuuh ~ DAHSYAT SIOL KAKAK NI! *tongues out!*

Ct: Looks like sombong. She's cool too. Serious at times. DESCRIBE HER: LION dok!

Azura: Gna say alot about her. Same, primary school mate. Without her kecoh, th world seems quite. Met her, all she did was laugh laugh laugh. Fcuk you, bitch! Once she starts her laughing, everyone will laugh. Laughing machine huh!? Thou she may LOOK decent, she can be th most bitchy girl. HAHA! I love her when she laugh. TAKLEH ANGKAT SIOL BABE!

Diy: Teddy bear look!! Acted like a princess as she is slow and steady type. Needed to wait fo her th most 3 hours. See ~ Needs to be send & fetch. She never once a fussy type girla. PRINCESS VS CAMERAMAN. HAHAHA :D

ME : SPEECHLESS.

Shida: Twin in crimes. A minah but has th heart. MISS KOW CB!

Dilah: KECOH yet laser. Always over but she's cool. LASER MARMALADE! LOL!

Y'see, I miss them but hey, MARCH LETS MEET. AS USUAL.

So, wadya expect, cant wait on Sat. Finally, outing w close ones. Celebrated belated, advance, missing & loving each other. WOOOOOAH. Phototaking session, games, rounding, riding, bitchings, dance, sing & alot!! Gereeeeeeeeeek per!! :D

Work work work again.

Later, heading to Tanah Merah and yessa!! Shopping siol ah siol. :D

Sunday, need to search fo stylings :D

Monday, colleagues!! Open ceremony.

After weekdays, meet th clans. ITE MATES jom hurray!

2010-02-25T01:23:00.000-08:00

Being a good friend is good to be heard. But losing a friend wasnt a good one thou. So, what I'm tryna say is, what a big deal to have a friend whom doesnt even listens to you neither wouldnt know what you're trying to say. Which is, doesnt know what is good nor bad. Hella no, I am not trying to put in a bad remark. I am just stating th fact.

I wont be mentioning name(s) here because I know, if I put names, things wasnt be a smooth one. So hella ya.

Babe, I know you too well & I know this is not th reason you're like this. Th only reason you becoming is, you did not know who to choose as a friend and you did not know what is th meaning of good and bad. Lemme ask you this. Who is th one holding you tight when you're down which means, you're sad? Who listens to your crap when you're bored? Who is there to massage you & till you fall asleep soundly when you're sick? Who is th one tolerating your nuisance act when you're being crazy? Who is my bitchy bitch when we're acting like a bitch? Who is th one when you got caught up w Mdm Rositah?

Hell no, I am not putting you under pressure, I am just stating th fact so you'll know what is th meaning Treasure Th One. Dont give me reasons 'I am stress', 'I miss boyf thats why Im like this'. Hella no no no. You're stress because of yourself. Lemme repeat this, Stress because of yourself. Im tryna advice you million of times but, since you still wna listen to yourself go ahead. Im not forcing you to listen to my advice because Im perfect. Fcuk shit no. Im advising you because I TREASURE YOU AS MY FRIEND. GEDDIT?! I LOVE YOU AS MY FRIEND, BITCH! Y'see babe, this is life goes. I know, lose one friend doesnt wont harm you. But try saying lose one family.. Will it harm you? Of course right? Friends = Family.

No matter how far you go, family is th one being there fo you. Think what we've been through. Those memories, will you be able to erase? Im fine. I am willing to let you go since you really want it that much. Like you said babe 'Hilang satu, ako taq pasal. Member mne mne boleh caryk'. See, if they can tolerate your typical nonsense, able to listen to your love stories, your whining & crying, your krazyness.

Label this : I love you because you're my bitch, sister (:

2010-02-23T09:02:00.000-08:00

I got free time now & definitely I will blog fo sure. So here goes..

So, am texting few days back was a short walk around at Compass w mother to take my pay. Walked w her then she wants to take personal letter at Sing Post. While waiting fo her, was texting love & Atika (jiwe ako). Then suddenly saw 2 of my junior, Ila & i forget her name. Both of them were smiling widely upon seeing me. I was stunned & speechless. Like 'wow! you guys remembered me!'. Ila saw me giving her shocked face look. Maaaaaaalu sia.

Off to Compass back & sent mom home since she is really sick. Out of th house, saw Dilah & Jasri under my void deck. Salam-ed & she followed me to Compass back to meet love & Sya. Dilly dally, had Subway fo our dinner & chilled at Starbucks since its my pay and promised them I'll treat them :D

Sya had her Green Tea Frap w Java chip while I had Java chip frap and double cheesecake. Told her my biggest secret and she was shocked. Ass you, quiet lah! Love & Sya kept disturbing me as my boobs is big. Wth! Macam toot kan mereka?

Then Dilah story tell us her life. All of us kept quiet because, we tryna help but we cant do anyth but WE DID ADVICE HER! Babe if you're reading this, chill alright. I knew its been hard on her lately but thats th least we can help.

I cant wait on 27th Feb & 6 March. Yayness sia ~ Love love.

2010-02-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

Great, Im having a lil headache right now!

2010-02-17T21:12:00.000-08:00

First thing, I am fine alhandullilah. Second thing, fo those who says 'Be strong', thanks I am stronger than I used to be. Third, I appreciate those text sms alot.

Fo those who knew what is going on w me, keep it a seal alright? I feel so ashamed by yeah, again I need to accept th fact.

Dont worry people, I am fine now.

Morning, I saw few girls & a guy around th age of above 20 was smoking dilly dally, all of them were smoking (duh) and th smell of it really makes me feel like puking. I know I may sounds like as if I dont smoke or worst, dont even try to smoke but what, now I really cant stand th smell of it. It is just not my type now. Bottomline: I've quit.

Mahgrib now & I hate this feeling.

Nono, I am not saying I hate Mahgrib just that, when its about to dawn, had a small tiff w this guy. Not sure whats w him but just now, I received a call from a friend, Mad. He was asking about my life. Asking in a good way like, how am I doing & so forth. But this guy here seems pretty jealous because one of th sentence he asked is 'Do you want to meet me?'. It is very very COMMON because he is a friend of mine. I hate when I am on th phone w someone, another person interrupt. So rude.. Now, I am not in th mood. Seriously.

I miss my colleagues now. I miss work. I miss my working life.

2010-02-16T10:55:00.000-08:00

I am pretty upset w someone. How could you believe your friend's word rather than mine? I am totally upset. And worst, Im heading some where later on. Indeed now, I am crying.

2010-02-15T03:44:00.000-08:00

I am so so so so frustrated right now! I hate when people wanted or intend to meet, dint even bother to call or worst still, text me up. Still got th cheek to say 'I am otw to your place'. Wadda?! Tell me that. What if Im working? What if Im not at home or worst, Im outside w my friends?

Secondly, I hate people planning without telling me. Fo example, without me knowing, you planned & meet someone else instead of telling & meet me up. Frustrated enough? I hate telling to th cyberworld but so, its my property & I care my feelings because I am th one feeling like this..

Imagine.. You are suppose to meet someone which I call it 'A'. You need to meet A after your working hours and you kept yourself busy so that you're not bored. Suddenly, you received a text message from 'B' saying that 'B' is otw to your house since bored. So, without knowing you felt someth amiss. You called 'A' asking if 'B' did call 'A'.

'A' said yeah, so you asked why dint even tell & fcuk, 'A' gave th VERY lame excuse. Seriously. Th question is very very simple. 'Why dint you tell me in th 1st place?!'.. Gosh. Now, Im fcuking mad with these people!

I hate people making their own decision without asking me. Idiot pathetic morons!

2010-02-14T07:44:00.000-08:00

Its 14th and obviously many couples are now celebrating it, Valentines Day. No, I dont celebrate it. To me, everyday is valentines day. My bad is such a great one @ first but after sometime, it is so horrible.

Let me ask you this. Do we need to smoke every single minute just to make you ease? Well, I know some people would definitely do that but hey, you're just wasting your energy/time just to make you cool down. I used smoke too, but th least I could do is control. I just dont understand why is it a must to smoke every single minute or worst, every butt you smoke th next second you'll smoke again.

I know its hard fo some people to quit but, hey its your life. You putting your life at risk. Dont you treasure your life at all? Nah, its just my thoughts so, dont blame me fo anyth alright.

Had a heart to heart conversation w Bella Roseli. Babe, chin up alright? I know he still loves you & whatever it takes, be strong. I know you can do this & I always believe in you. I love you, babe(:

Im craving fo Popeye now. Thou I dont eat fast food that much, but still I definitely would like to have this. I just started to cough but it seems to have a normal cough. Nvm, I shall drink lots of plenty of water by now. Great, mum just came back, and she bought fo me sugar cane drink fo me. Yummy!

Both sisters and Didi now are watching Santau th malay horror movie. Leaving me alone just to update my blog. Great one. Ah, I shall entertain myself now by texting and chatting w friends now.

Bye!

2010-02-12T07:58:00.000-08:00

Its 12 Feb now, yet I have to wish this girl who used to be my primary school bestfriend & best girlfriend, Nur Astiana Bte Mawan a very pleasant birthday. Study smart alright, bbygirl?

Work is such a hectic one! Great accompanion, laughters & companion too. Despite of years of age gap, still they're th best of all. Listening to their lives is such a wonderful story telling. Going to work w them is such a great one. Early morning, starts our lame jokes despite of not funny. Will be remembered alright?

Sudden thought, I've started missing school. Pre-school, Primary, Secondary & ITE days. I miss being a child. What a sudden thought man.. Nah, just keep reminiscing now. Such a regret working @ early age now. I should be schooling, gaining some knowledge by now, not th other way round. Insya'allah, once I collected some money, I shall further my studies. Amin.

Well, a very big apologise if I did hurt many of my close one especially th one who gave birth to me, Mother. If theres a way I could turn back th time, I would definitely do that. Sorry mom fo letting you down. I feel bad now.

Pay day will be coming up, what shall I get fo myself? Hmm.. Nah, dont think I'll be spending that money now. I shall collect many more of it & spent it wisely. Who knows, I will be ehem ehem. Chey, masok meminang. Kidding kay.

*Yawn*

I better bathe now & sleep afterwards. I promised my lil piggy of mine I'll be bathing. HAHA!

Oh, soon will Shahril's birthday. Happy 18th!

i miss this lil kid, danish alfiran muchly soon

2010-01-31T00:24:00.000-08:00

Basically, this post is meant fo Dilah Gonzela.

Thank you fo th comment which you've written @ my tag. No, I wasnt avoiding just that, I feel like avoiding humans out there. You never knew th reason bcox I dont feel like telling humans out there th reason. Fo th meantime, let me be th way I am doing this. Its fo my sake, not th rest.

I know you're worried but, does others know that I am suffering alot pressure? It gives me huge impact of it in life. I know you wouldnt understand th situation bcox you never felt it. I suffered enough.

Thank you fo th concern & I appreciate it thou. Now, you're working & congrats fo th job you really want & into it. All th best in working life & not to worry much, I miss you.

Forget about him. Forget about everyth about him. Sorry babe fo doing this but, y'know, if you put 100% into working life you dont dare to think about him. I was referring nancak. Th greatest guy you always claims. Move on babe, as there is always many cool guys out there. Today isnt th best day but who knows tomorrow is th best gift ever.

I am sorry fo making you worried all these while just that, I need to be myself again. I wish, this wasnt what I want in life.

Take care & best wishes.

2010-01-28T06:23:00.000-08:00

A month now, I've not yet recovered. A week now, I've not touch my cellphone. A week now, I've been crying, whining, bear th pain in myself, suffer those crush. How am I suppose to work now?

People has been contacting my cellphone but I avoid those humans. I am not cruel just that, I hate life now. A month now I have not been smiling & laughing out loud. No no, dont blame me fo hating life now. How cruel can th outside people done to me? Whats more earning from me?

I am very much disappointed w one of my closest friend. Promised she'll attend to me but hack, you just one of th outside people. I've been crying & whining yet, you dont even bother asking how am I doing & so forth instead you asked about others. Oh great, who is th one attending to you when you're not yourself? Those shattered life which you've been whining all about is me who were there. I am muchly disappointed w you, afterall.

Great, two days ago went over to grandma's house to pay a lil visit. Was nice & grandma's friend was there. Since she's a great help, I asked her a little medicine & asked whats w me. Without hesitation, she throw out everyth out like I used to, and great problem I thought of asking her but instead, I asked myself out, why?

Every night I felt very uneasy but I knew its a mind-playset-game. I pretend nothing happen & thought of heading to sleep back. Unfortunately, it went down to my little fingers & went oh my. I was horrified by th way I reacted & gave a hook about it. I say some prayers but, it cant. How can this be stopped?

This may be a joke but its a true based story I am having now. Try looking at me now, & I will give a pale face lookout. I miss life, eventually.

2010-01-22T10:08:00.000-08:00

Putting a stop in everyth wasnt that easy but putting a stop in every corner was yet so bitter. Those memories I had in mind were blissful but yet again so bitter & sweet. I wonder how but somehow its a disaster.

Calling me names & ol is a great & fascinating way to treat, yet again we have pride. Th pride I've been holding since small till young adult. Coming to 18 years I held th pride. Thank You fo making me this way.

I miss you yet I cant & dont dare to tell th truth. I know Im weak but that doesnt mean you can destroy life ol th time. Again, thank you fo making me this way.

I lost two people in life & I dare not lose another one. But still th mistreating in me is always there, I shall put a stop to it. Moving on w life wasnt east yet again I have to be brave enough to open up my dreams alive. Going to paris, having a great family on my own accord, was so great. Now, I came to realise, a monster who used to be in my life were a great guy who always there fo me but due to my stubborn, hatreds of others, calling other people names, he is th one who pampers me. Now he is gone from life, I must realise how important he is now when he is away.

I appreciate your thoughtfulness & understanding because still, you're th best in me. May happiness in you were there once again. Love you(:

Im going far far far far away from here.

2010-01-20T11:40:00.000-08:00

Now its 3.40am & I've not yet asleep. Was wondering & pondering how life could be now. I suffered 2 weeks+ & how I wish I can run all my problems, suffocating myself & retrain from meeting others. Life has been an hassle way. I am finding myself a way out from here but yet, I cried out loud. I even avoid telling my problems from friends/family as I know, I will always gives them a problem although once I am a problematic child who used to.

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Back to th story, these days goes by I've been feeling rather weird & I know somehow I am not I repeat I am not being myself. I get so uptight easily & I feel like crying. I do not know what's going on but I know fo sure, theres someth going on which I cant be describe. Y'know, if I sense someth nor predict it very well, surely is not right. I cant let my feelings goes by but, I know it certainly not right. Declare everyth to me now, please.

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I hate being this way but no, Im not an emo shit fcuk girl. I suffered more than a week just getting rid of my problems & how am I suppose to face others if Im in th world of depression?! Im being selfish & treating others unfairly. Sighs.

2010-01-19T04:31:00.000-08:00

Walooo.......

Currently EFA iz unable to update e blog due to her sickness... So her guy which iz me r gonna update it 4 her..

Firstly let me intro abit of myself.. The person whom EFA haf been mentionin fifth, lurve ones, Luf & etc iz actuali me... We haf been together 4 1yr 2mths plus n still goin on in our relationship... So yup... Mess wif ma gerl n prepare to face e worse consequences.. N i mean it...

So okie lets get it started... Diyana or aka Teddy bear i haf heard farny rumours about u la sis n i tell u its damn farny... Hw could u shave ur own best fwen eyebrow off??... Hahaha...
Next iz Feekah or aka Iban... Hw could u bought a red hair dye n end up grey hair or in malay (rambut beruban)... 4 goodness sake dats e rong brand or uve been punk'ed sis... N wats wif inside e classrm ppl pluckin ur grey hair??? Hahaha... U ppl seriously got nothin better to do...
The next victim iz Syahadah or aka Sya dwarf, Zya, BCC... although she's small n chubby, I tell u tiz gerl iz full of nonsense.... lil sis fav of mine... my gerl EFA iz not minah n wats wif u bein scared of ma gerl??? n puhlease stop sulking... doesnt mean ur sista smoke u need to get so uptight n sulk 4 a week??? But no matter wat u r still ma fav lil sis okie...
Fadhilah or aka Dilah gonzela or should i kol her Dilah becok or even better makcik... Dunt u tink i would mizz ur name out... Tiz gerl iz worse den nonsense... Her mouth juz cant stop talkin... N ya dun act as if in skool u r e great one... bullyin sec 1 student but wen the discipline master iz around??? Hahaha dun wan to elaborate mre... N dunt worie ur eyebrow wil grow soon so no need to 'paiseh'...
Ol e name mention above iz juz a joke aite... Dun get so uptight over it...

Be4 im off n look afta ma gerl juz a reminder EFA misses ol her fwens... do keep in contact wif ma gerl... afta ol she's everyone fav lil gerl...

Lots Of Lurves ,
Lufthy .

2009-12-28T03:00:00.000-08:00

Great, now its already 5.20am & I've not yet asleep. I shouldnt be like this everyday but, seriously I cant put myself in bed. Called Luf just now & his mom picked up th phone. His mom told me that Luf were asleep & asked whats th time now. Being a coward lady, I told her that I need to wake him up since he asked me to & its 5am. HAHA! Sorry Luf fo poking your name. Lols!

Just came back from slacking w my greatest brothers of all, Hyper & Rio. Me, as always being their pampered lil sist, asked them to come over my place since I am very plain lazy to travel Fernvale just to slack. Sorry geng :D Met them up @ 2.45am under my void deck & here comes th noise maker which is me. They travelled by bicycles & sorry okay fo making both legs tired. Nah, they were okay kan kan? Slack, crack some jokes & gossips about people. Oh, please, I do not know how to cycle okay, please dont kutok. Seriously, I do not know how. Laugh okay people? HAHA ! I miss them very very much okay & it was great. Got home by 4.55am, time sahur seh I mean subur. Lol.

Wash-ed up everyth & here I am surfing th net.

Did I mention that I woke up super late? Yes, 5pm. How nice to sleep long hours. Supposingly need to travel Pei Cai Sec w lil sist & mother but, I paitao. Sleeping is very important to me okay. Nah, just that I am way too tired due to yesterday's outing which is today morning. When I woke up, saw lil sist sleeping & both parents were in room sleeping. Great, both parents dint work. Got outside th room & th 1st thing to search was food. Saw Nasy Briyani which has been bought & being a greedy lady, I ate them half of it incase later Im hungry. Watched Scooby-Doo cartoon & its great! Favourite siol.

Searched th webpages & I got hungry again. Ate Briyani & some munchies. Text certain people up & got myself entertain. Again, hungry & cook-ed maggi before meeting up my brothers. By th time its already 11.30pm. Make myself occupied, watched wrestling. HAHA! When its time, meet them up.

Thought of meeting Hana since I need listening ears, but since she said she'll be home late. So, I just meet brothers up. Y'know what? I've not been bathing since just now. 1 whole day not bathing & feels uncomfortable. Gosh, what am I becoming now? Sheeesh!

At 9am will be heading to Pei Cai Sec fo some issues to hand in & by noon, I need to come over my workplace to sign some documents. Mother, I need new handphone okay! Nvm, later we can survey & go shopping! Koyak koyak..

This month is th season of people going overseas huh? Sya is away to KL fo 3 days whereas Luf is away fo 2 days to Malacca. How nice, leaving me alone in S'pore. Dilah Gonzela & Hana is working. And now, I got no one to talk to. Im sulking man!!

I miss Luf like alot but, what to do. Im th one to be blame. But still I miss him :D Sya, I want big tweety bird & please get it fo my souveneirs. Hana, I want fruit tart from you! Dilah, I want that umbrella. No, I want you to treat me! I always treat you sia!! Pfft!

Countdown is drawing near, any plans? I've alot of plan w cliques but, I dont know who to go w. Oh my, how? Please tell w th confirmation. I guess, will be out w brothers since its been ages I last hangout & spent quality time together. See you guys okay lovelies!

Speaking of which, I miss Mira sia. B, where have you been? Ryndu okay sama gua peh superstar! Alright, I better do someth to occupy myself. Guess be watching Scooby Doo or Captain Planet. Chaos!

2009-12-26T02:27:00.001-08:00

Sorry fo not upadting my blog since Tuesday till today, Saturday. Was away from home. If my post is too much of words, dont bother to read & know my life right?

So, Tuesday.
Met up w some clans of mine & it was my fault fo switching off my phone. I barely want to enjoy life @ th same time but maybe its too late fo choosing it. While otw home, I was surprised that Luf is under void deck, so I cant be bothered I just went home. Think back & I just meet him up. Pass his ATM card & ez link since its w me, but I off to somewhere. I just cant be bothered w life anym. Been asked to accompany him to Plaza since he's hungry. Bought fo himself fries & slacked under my void deck. Told him that I wanted to go home, agreed. He called me up & ask if its true. So, without any hesitation, yes. I dont mind what people is talking nor he himself want to say but, shack I need some privacy in life.

Dial triple 9 up, but called someone A & B if this is th correct choice I've made. Says its a correct choice but, @ th same time I pity him. I just dont know why I've been kind hearted to people. Thats what life is all about. Kay, one whole day I've been awake otp w Sya after putting down th phone w these 2 asz.

Wednesday & Thursday, 23 Dec & 24 Dec.
Early in th morning went out of th house since I feel like going out. Met her up & went fo breakfast. After breakfast, had some talks with each other since its been ages. So, while talking Luf texted me up. Took own sweet time to go home & saw him. Urgh, pack my stuff. Text Hyper up & confirm a meet up since I will be away fo home 4 days. So, take this opportunity to sleep his house(: Left house & bid goodbye to lil sist @ th same time I cried in silence. How could life be like this? But I've change my mind, slept @ Hougang. And yeah, I get to meet Dykyd since he stay near cousin's place so, take this opportunity to stay Hougang. Before that, met up Dykyd again, I MISS KOW ALOT! Hug hug whisper whisper :D Told him to take good care of himself since I wont be there lah kan & yeah.

11.30 reached cousin's house & talk shit. Watch tv, eat, jokes around & make fool of ourselves. After crapping this lil cousin of mine asked me this;
LC : Kak pah, mane abg luf?
Me : Oh, de kje. *nod down & cry abit*

Th next day ...
Thought of sleeping @ 6.30am but I cant. Get to put myself if bed @ 7.30. Was awaken due to cold weather & look @ my phone saw Dykyd text me up saying he cant sleep. Accompany him through phone & I know you miss me fcuker! Kay fake! Haaaappy selalu & awake cousins up. Ah kow, all of them were shocked. Sorry sorry. Was excited kay!

Noon, met up w Greatest Syster & Farah up since both of them wants to meet before heading to work. Agreed & joke w them. Sungguh shiok shiok. Then went to shop & seperate ways from both of them. Bathed & off home since I miss lil sist alot! Look @ her & off to Dykyd's place. Met Dykyd & his friends over his place. Woah, they were movie marathon. Switch to a louder volume.

Friday, 25 Dec.
Clock strikes @ 12 midnight, wished Sya up. Happy Birthday babe!
Then continue movie marathon w th rest(: So played taiti, fool around & etc. Went to Dykyd's room to sleep. Both of us dah knock out but Dykyd says I did mutter someth about Tweety Bird. Then I awake which Idk why. Look @ th time 7.15am but I was tired. So try my best to sleep & woke up @ 8.15am. 1 hour of resting is okay fo me. Off to Anchorvale CC to meet up w cousins, aunties & uncles fo swimming. Reached noon take a break, after eating without noticing, I felt asleep. 3 hours of sleeping sia. Seriously tired. Ton macam maot siol.

Slept till th next day which is today Saturday 26 Dec (:

Sorry fo not anwering 10 miss calls & 11 text messages. Too tired & I know Dykyd surely miss me :D

Deep down in my heart, I still concern about you.
No matter how hot tempered you are.
*loves!*

2009-12-21T10:43:00.000-08:00

First of all, a very big apology to Dilah Gonzela, Efa, Ardila, Juan Zumo & Sya fo not responding their chats. I was busy watching tv & whats more its my favourite show, Wrestling. I may sound like a guy now but true, I love looking @ their hot bodies & beautiful tattoos. Oh my!

I was supposingly need to meet my grandma afternoon but I was to tired plus, I overslept woke up super duper late coming to 6. So, text Hyper up since on that particular time I was hungry, thought of meeting him up & gave a bite over some fast foods, but nah. So, text Sya up & lucky she's free. Called Love up & tell him to meet up since Sya going to treat Love but, me being KPO, I told her I want too by her treat. LOL!

We ordered alot of food & but good, we still finish it up. Total of th bill above than $100. It was a great meal thou. Thanks friend! Despite of me, being choosy & fussy of th choices I want, but still I enjoy being w them. I love you guys many many many *smooches!*

Usual routine, smoke break & home sweet home. Just a mini meet up & still I appreciate it. Love came my house & we had fun. He carried me using his legs & surprisingly he called me 'Rapist' how bad. He massage me as usual, dig my eyes & disturb me despite of being his pain ass girlfriend of his. How sweet can he be?

Love went home, so since I intend to watched wrestling I focus on it. Serious, put my hp aside & watched their hot hot heat body art on their hot hot heat body. Aww ~

Right now, I missing Greatest Syster Dilah Gonzela & Hana. Wow ~ Sayang korang budo =P Jom jumpe ako. Hell yeah, both of them working like asz & left me alone. But soon, I am so gna start my working life. So, once three of us gets our pay, we will enjoy. Jooom clubbing ~ Fake ! But seriously, I want to try stepping it but I sure Love will be mad @ me. Nvm, I shall bring along Love. Hahaha :D No waaay kay? You sayang I, kne stay rumah. Fake kay boo?

I feel like doing tattoos. Its kind of cool but, ... Gosh, I shall make one once my pay is up! Okay I know its kind of random, but fcuk I dont care. I love butterfly & shall make one which I dont care. Shall ask ibu's permission :D Beest nyer.

Ibu's birthday is around th corner yet I am not sure what to buy fo her. Oh my. Disaster la seh! Shall share w love since now I am pokai. I've been waiting fo my allowance from love nih.

Dear, when can I get my allowance ni? I want to go shopping w my girlfriends. So long seh never meet them :( Deaaar faster lah. Must be goodgirl katekan.

I miss girlfriends lah.
Zariina - Ling mane you menghilang ni?
Ayinjade - B, I ryndu you sangat tao! Go your workplace, you takde! Sedehh
Neesya - Makcik, meet up soon kay ? Gna hug hug kiss kiss you :P
R.Dyla - Partner, got miss me?

Alot lah! Malas nak write down !!

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Questions.

1.How are you feeling today?
I am fine, thank you

2.Will you get far in life?
Of course, insya'allah kay

3.How do your friends see you?
A friendly yet vain chix whom always mixed w guys without fail

4.Will you get married?
In few years time

5.What is your best friend's theme song?
Nah, I dont have one now

6.What is the story of your life?
A story which full of ups & down, duh

7.What was high school like?
Very fun yet dangerous ones

8.How can you get ahead in life?
Without giving up your life

9.What is the best thing about your friends?
They always there to make me laugh w their stupidity joke

10.What is in store for this weekend?
Celebrating ibu's birthday

11.What song describes you?
Change me ? I dont know

12.To describe your grandparents?
One love from Blue whom I love muchly despite th nags

13.How is your life going?
Okay yet very troublesome

14.What song will they play at your funeral?
Mahligai AirmataKu

15.How does the world see you?
Very cheeky girl

16.Will you have a happy life?
Of course w wonderful people around me

17.What do your friends really think of you?
Understanding & bubbly one

18.Do people secretly lust over you?
Not so sure

19.How can I make myself happy?
By partying especially w lovable friends!

20.What should you do with your life?
Accept willingly & treasure th people who loves me

21.Will you ever have children?
Of course, I love babies

It's interesting don't you think so?

I want the following 5 people to
do this for me :
- Those who reads & tag my blog, must do

Favourites. :D:D
Colour(s): Black, Red & Green
Food: Junk foods
Song: Listen to any songs
Movie: Erk..
Sport: Soccer
Day of the week: Saturday, enjoy bodoh ~
Season: Winter
Ice-cream: Chocolate
Current Mood: Excited
neutralTaste: Fine ?
Clothes: Depends on occasion
Desktop: Gadget ?
laptopTime: Morning lorh
Surroundings: Quiet ones
Annoyance: Cockroaches & cats

Firsts:
Best friend: Huda & Astiana
Crush: Ficoim . ((:

Lasts:
Cigarette:Few hours ago
Drink: Few months ago
Ride: Months ago too
Movie: Princess & th frog
Phone call: just now w Dilah Gonzela
CD: nah, sorry

Have you ever?
Dated one of your best friends: No
Been arrested: No ?
Skinnydipped: Noooooo !
Tried been on TV: True
Kissed someone you don't know: Not kiss but only hug(:

Things:
4 things you did today: Updating, texting, otp, smoking & etc

The chosen five : Anyone

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I miss HER alot. Promise, I'll change just fo you & only you. Without you, I cant live & its hard fo me to walk by myself. Without you, I dont know whats love all about. Same goes of th world. I miss you badly. I pray to Allah that you will be safe & sound up there. How much more can I be like this but its time fo me to get rid of you just fo me to be independant. You teaches me alot & I appreciate it alot too. You know I will always love you no one does. I love you except you ONLY. No one not even boyfriend. I love you, mak.

2009-12-20T07:49:00.000-08:00

Lazy to post but I have too because my favourite readers loves to read my post! *winks! winks!*

Friday.

Out to City Hall w Diy & Sya includes myself too. Meet up @ 430pm, last cabin. Saw Seha & she looked great w her punk shoe!! It was kind of awkward meeting them especially w Sya as both of us had some conflict. But, I just listen to my mp3 & cant be bothered. LOL!

Stopped @ City Hall & walked to Marina Square. Take a bite @ Burger King & I just told her to forget about what happened since whats th point having some grudges. So, off to Esplanade to chill & wow, still have some minahs whom are ARROGANT.

We 3 were talking & smoking except fo Diy then suddently theres 4 girls walked & sat infront of us, they were looking @ us as if we owe them life. Okay, serious it wasnt what I've thought but fcuk, they shouldnt stare what. Then I wanted to look @ them & wah wah wah, smoke & stared then I come to realised they were talking in 'Tkmoh lah sia, nanty mak ako marah!'. Wth, still underage laaaaah =P

So, waited fo Aisha & she told us she cried since its her last day of her 1 year 1 month of working. Babe, relax & chill okay. Talked bullshit w someone & made me laaaaaugh! Surprisingly, almost everyone surrounded me look due to laughing out loud. Embarass okay!

Slack awhile & walked to Clarke Quay. Was great overall.

Morning time, was a best day. Enjoying siol.

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I came to realise of friends/family members/etc being controlled especially BGR. Its just my thought so, no harm writing down here.

Erm, yeah. What so good controlling people whereas you yourself dont even know how to control yourself? I am not saying I am perfect but, people who has been controlled need life too. They need some space fo themselves. They need some privacy too. Controlling of timing, is way can be handle its th matter of 'Know Your Limit'.

I've been in 'controlling' system when I am into relationship, but now, I cant be bothered. Reason why I said that because, 'Hello! Wake up, I need life & some privacy so you dont need to know!'. Its simple, I am not, I repeat I am not I rebellious its only I want some enjoyment. We people wants some enjoyment. I want to mix people whom are bad & good ones.

Getting control is bored. I hate people asking me, 'Where have you been?', 'With whom are you out?', 'What time going home?' & etc. Waaaah, I am big enough to think.

I know its fo our own good but, its making us driving nuts. What do you expect? Stay @ home so that people knows you're a goodgirl/goodboy? Aiyooh.

2009-12-17T08:25:00.000-08:00

Now I realize things happen so much faster than we predict.

Okay, I had lots of fun yesterday. Came home late & came back by morning. 1 whole day of being outside with a cool weather, raining heavily. Awesome huh?

Was out to Bugis to accompany greatest syster to find her long dress (tuxedo dress) whereas I being her irritating syster supposingly to find my heels but, this greatest syster of mine, wanted to meet her greatest boyfriend because she misses him so much, so me being nice I accompany her. How great can it be?

But hey, we still lookouts fo our own things okay. Bumped into Xiao Tong & Cheryl. Gosh, they change pretty good & babes, I miss you too okay. Bumped into you people soon! Oh did I tell you I had lunch with greatest syster over @ Tong Seng? We had good amount of food right syster? Yes, we even bought our drink twice. Isnt that greedy of us? How great, usual rountine smoke till we can die. Nah, kidding. We smoke & craps alot.

Headed to her boyfriend's hometown & it was again, awesome. We people crap alot. After one person talks, another people interrupt. All of us were being irritated by one another behaviour, so we smoke until th night still yound *macam paham*

Met up w Hana, & yes we finally had our breakfast over @ Macdonalds. But before that, I got home change without resting wors. So, met them & cool we went fo a cool exercise. True we did!

We had yoga, dancing sessions, karaoke sessions under void deck after our meals. Its exercise okay + yes, we jog too. We people ton okay. See, got home change & off to our morning 'assembly'.

Isnt that great. I really seriously had fun. Thank you girlfriends fo an awesome 2 days 1 night outing. HAHAHA :D

Today, stayed @ home since got home early this morning. Was exhausted day fo us. Indeed we are. I slept one whole pathetic day doing noth just sleep. See how tired I can be? Love came just to meet me & sorry was too tired & I snored (OMG!!)

Love received a call from someone whom I closed w, but you made th wrong choice babe. So, I told him to just meet whereas I still & intend to continue my sleeping session. After much meet up, he woke me up. Thank you okay am was dreaming about monster while you still can disturb me how great.

So talked things out between us but I got all tense up I feel like slapping this irritating babe. Sorry babe fo th criticising but I got no choice to hand over all issues to you. After much reading, you'll know. Think okay.

Love & lil sist were watching movie & sorry fo abandon you both, was too tired lah!! Love decided to go home & sent him off under my block.

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Enough of th thinking already, babe? Here goes.. But before that, get ready fo some popcorns & tissues.

Erm.. Lets start with part A.
Have you notice that I neglect you fo 1 week? Well theres no answer. Its my choice of being this way. Maybe Im bored w you? Nah, kidding. xD

Part B.
Whats w you controlling me? Who are you to me? Any blood interaction? No, never babe. Whomever I want to go out w, what time I want to go out/ be back, its my choice. I know you worried, thanks fo th concern. I dont need you to control. Parents do not control me doesnt mean you have to control me. Parents does not hold grudges w my friends, why should you? My life babe. Its a good thing you concern about me, but one sentence fo you 'There's a LIMIT!'.

Part C.
You dont need to come all th way to my house just to settle things w me. Yes, it may hurt this but how do you feel if I come to your place EVERYTIME we had some misunderstandings? Annoyed? Irritated? Yes, thats me. Its a good thing you want to visit me but theres always a next time. If I say do not disturb, means do not disturb. Give me time & space. I want to befriends with whoever I want, its my problems. Does it concern you? No @ all.

Part D.
Whats w th topic 'Kow lain, ako lain?'. Traslation: You're different, Im different. Everyone is th same, mind you. Except fo their discipline & atttitude. So what if I mixed & have alot of friends? All you need is make some friends w other people. Doesnt mean you only have me. We just friends. You're not my boyfriend nor one of my parents.

Part E.

You dont need to compare things/humans. Such as, you dont need to compare me & one of gibp. You know I hate people comparing & always said theres a limit. If she's irritating, so? Arent you an irritating person too? Everyone is irritating. So what if she acting like a minah? Part of list, our friend too.

Okay, if my parts hurt you, am sorry. Just that I felt irritated being your way & cant believe you're LIKE THIS. If I changed, does it concern you? Hey babe, slowly okay. But what matters me most is, I know myself fo th best & seriously I do not need anyone to ask me to change back.

If love which is your favourite brother let me do anyth & trust me, why cant you? Please, you dont need to be jealous w whoever I want to mixed. I know you too well, babe.

See you tomorrow which is later(:

2009-12-15T09:58:00.000-08:00

Thought of posting yesterday event, but I shall skip it. Later later can talk about it. Aaah, nevermind. I shall post it NOW now NOW!!

So yesterday were ...

Monday.

Without transport, under servicing):

Love finished his work early so, meet me up @ my house. He rest forawhile, so while resting, watch this scary yet legend movie 'The Exorcist'. After Mahgrib, off to Amk Hub to watch this movie. You readers may laugh your ass off because I was shocked that I pick this movie. Well.. The Princess & The Frog. Its a cartoon show. Hey, its a nice show. C'mon guys go watch it. Soon, Im going to watch Planet 51 w love! Aww.. Enough about movies.

After th movie ended, I prank love. HAHAHA! Told him this 'Faster, we need to catch th last bus'. But actually its already 1030pm. So, I pretend to be rushing lah. Took bus home & reached my house. Love said 'I cant stay here any longer. Now its 12.30am'

So, I laugh my ass off! I told that he's been prank. Okay, silly boy. Sorry okay I prank but, its kinda cute to me thou. He massage & dig my ears till Im about to sleep. After he left, this irritating sister of mine which call herself EEZANIE (okay part ni maplek jap), told me this 'Kakak I lapar!' in other words 'Sister, Im hungry!'.

Being a very good elder sister, called macdelivery but cant as th person says be back in 30 minutes. I got frustrated told love about it & ask him to call macdelivery. Ordered & thank you(: While waiting, on call w my greatest syster(: We crap huh, dont we? Delievery arrived & off to eat. Slept after subuh, okay thats pretty late!

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Today, firstly it turned out to be sucky because, love's vehicle is under servicing AGAIN. Woah, how can like that man?! Kay, met @ my house as usal since he finish his work. Then gotten ready off to Changi by taxi to send some documents which I need to deliver. Met Mira up as usual place. Sorry babe, we're late.

After sending, off to T2. Okay, we kinda lost although we're SINGAPOREANS. Headed to canteen to had our late lunch. Had my masala thosai & grassjelly while love had his tom yam toufu & his mixed soya bean w grassjelly. My masala thosai super spicy & its nice. I love spicy food!! Yuuuuuuuuuummy.

Much fillings, usual had our puff. Then Mira met her boyf where we had our puff. We plan to play pool @ Downtown. Was awesome okay. Mira & boyf went off 1st since they're going else where. Left me & love, we played as usual & hello, I won love okay. Sorry dude -___-

Home sweet home, but no. I went meet my babygirls. Okay, thanks fo th desserts okay. Love went home. Me, home by 1.30am sharp.

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Had fun texting w Bella & nice texting w you. Finally, we had no more grudges now. And babe, dont think negative okay (: Psst, love you muchly *hug tight tight*

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And yeah, I had my waffle w chocolate ice cream on top! Heaven!!!

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How do you feel if your child/children did that to you EXACTLY how you did to your parents?

2009-12-13T10:45:00.000-08:00

Okay, partially apologise fo no updating a proper post. Was using love's gadget to surf th net & it was awesome! Well.. What shall I post eh? Aaaahh, okay here goes.

Friday, headed down to town (again, that place) to ask just to verify about th result. It was kind of pathetic & I nearly not in th mood but I controlled. Reason is, love has been moody because he is tired from work. Am sorry if I irritates you. Sya kept quiet because she's our lamp post. Kidding kay. Went to Puncak fo our dinner & my stomache hurts. About to tell love but, since he's not in th mood so, I just kept quiet. My intention is to find my heels, but thanks, none catch my eyes despite its been more than a week I went to town EVERYDAY.

So, slack @ garden forawhile & decide to go home since we're effing tired. Took train & off home. At night, meet Dilah Gonzela up to help out th multi purpose hall. Okay but okay. =X

Saturday.

Nothing much, after mahgrib put up th decoration up & wash some dishes. Both girls played w th water. Jakon sekejap jek. Talked to Ady & distutb him. Liliq came aftermath. Love too, help out to wash.

Lil sist came too as Atiqah wants to meet her. Lol, dah jumpe taknak berbual. Slack till coming to 4am w Mimi, Faizah, Ady, Liliq, Dilah, Lil sist, love & me. Talked non stop & jokes has been cracked by liliq, ady, love & dilah. Me busy surfing net using love's gadget.

Went to plaza before that, saw Apiz. Was about to go out, he rode his bike fo some delivery. And booom, I saw Fyzie & Squid. Ryndu sama adek bradek! Especially Squid. Asked about Sham & th rest. And asked them to send regards.

Continue slacking session & off.

Reached home, washed up. Thought of sleeping, but to no avail. I cant sleep as th previous day I slept more than 14 hours? Shiok siol. At 730am sleep fo few hours. Getting ready fo work.

Sunday.
Had best companion w cliques. Met new people up, Elfiq, Ain & Rashid. Were great & oh no, Im not 19 - 22 years old kay. Not that old siol. Splashed here & there disturb them & etc.

Finally, get a chance to meet Hana, this bbygirl of mine. I miss you effing muchly okay! After th event, off home. And thank you, sore eyes is here.

Today, Im pretending to be single. Sorry love, but you know me! Haha, still iloveyou okay! :D

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This will be much words coming out but, Im not picking a fight okay. Just my thought.

What friends are fo? I thought, friends will always be there through th easy & difficult ways? Meaning through thicks & thins. I just cant understand why you people detest her? Because of her attitude? So, what about you people? Have you guys spare a thought? Put your ego aside & atleast show up. How do you feel if none of your friends came? Sad? Angry?

Thats how she feels? Fo goodness sake, you people dont need to show your angerness infront, be patience. I know if she doesnt create this matter, things wouldnt be this way. I know, but whatever it is, atleast show up just fo other sake.

Okay Im done!

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Love, Im sorry okay if I dont entertain you much. I nak jady single jap. Maklomlah, nak tawu rase de. Okay, kidding. Just want to make new friends actually. Heh, but I know you WILL & WOULD AGREE with it. HAHAHA, because you love me. I love you too bachenku.

Bye!

2009-12-12T05:44:00.001-08:00

Oh gREAT, BOYF IS BESIDE ME. WE'RE NW AT FADH'S JEMPUTAN SURFING NET. HOW GREAT. GOSH I HAD FUN EATING MAM. TH PELAMIN IS SUPER NICE REALLY. IM SUPPOSSE TO HE5KP BUT MY STOMACHE SAYS DONT WALK. GOSH SICKENING MAN. KAY, I BETTER GET GOING

2009-12-11T03:12:00.000-08:00

AM USING BOYF HP TO SURF TH NET. LOVE YOU

2009-12-10T09:35:00.000-08:00

Okay, first of all I would like to wish Bella or also known as Nur Syazwani a very Happy 14th Birthday. May all wishes come true & again, may you last long w Arep aite? Amin.

Headed down to Paya Lebar fo dinner. Had Spagehetti Balognise & Longan drink fo myself while Love & Sya had Chicken chip, Super Giant Combo, Teh Tarik & Rambutan w Pineapple drink. Its nice okay. And Im full. Thank you, love fo th treat. Lol, you always treat me. *tongue out!*

After dinner, usual smoke break & home sweet home.

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Yesterday, went fo a swim w Nazrie & Sya. Its been ages okay I last swam. It took around 3-5 years back I last stepped into a swimming pool. Saw Salman, my long friend. We also played w th slide & hell yeah it was shiok till one of th slide Im stuck. Haha, Nazrie knows everyth because he saw everyth. Sial kow cibai ~

After swimming, shower & off to Compass fo our dinner. I kept sneezing & my mucus is overboard. Called love & headed down fo karaoke session. Was awesome despite of my flu. Sent Sya off & went to Jalan Kayu as I want Teh Tarik. Reached home, it got worsen. Tell me how my day is. Slept throughtout th next day.

Pictures from love. Sorry.

2009-12-08T05:36:00.000-08:00

Okay, finally I've decided to stay @ home to rot & even better, to rest @ home since its been ages I last stayed @ home to rest. Its been a week of two I kept going out & came back after 1am never in my life I went back home before 7.30pm. HAHA :D So now its been good doing it everyday. I am pretty sure everyone were shocked & goes saying 'Oh my, Efa has changed to a better person now! Regret calling her spoilt brat!' Lol, kidding okay!

Well, actually thats not th only reason why I stay @ home. Th reason why is because, it was my throat. It burned & made me go crazy w th coughing. Now, I need to smoke less & drink plenty of plain water now! Oh my, my throat is abit itching now & I feel like scratching it. But goodness, its too irritating bergeroh xia!!

Finally, I had my nice beauty sleep just now as yest, Love massage me & I woke up @ coming to 4pm? It was great but still I got th feeling of sleepy. I need to rest more thats why. Love text me up just now, as he pity me due to my coughing which makes him feels bad. Sorry okay! So, he send some cookies & a sour plum drink. So thoughtful of you ~

He went off to work & I chatted w some idiots :D New pictures has been download-ed & it was superb hilarious lah sia. Okay, met up w my dearest sister, Dilah Gonzela under my void deck & I miss her superb alot, y'know. She was th one calling me saying she misses me & wanted to meet me up fo few minutes.

Met her up & we talked as if there's no tomorrow. And hell yeah, she misses my puff which is Sampoerna. Haha, boohoo to you sister! After few minutes its time fo us to go home. Seperate ways & bid goodbyes.

Here I am, blogging. I wanted to watch Jennifer's Body. Okay, its legend now. I have th DVD but, I've yet to watch it. Now, I wanted to watch case 39 or planet 51? Whatever it says.

Btw, I thought of changing my url & email add as some I dont wish to contact anymore. So, fo those who have both of them, you'll be honour & please appreciate it kay!
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Taken few months ago.

Suddenly I miss my pit. Almost reaching to 50 who attended. I miss everyone of you. Aah, see you people!

Picture above is half of Geng TS. Where have you people been? You know I miss all of you. Altho we were too busy w our own schedule, we still have th time to text right? Anw, holidays is here, lets enjoy okay babies? I love you & no matter, you people will always be remembered deep in my heart.

2009-12-07T10:13:00.000-08:00

Currently chatting w FeeSpinster & Sya.

Okay, it was a bad remark okay fee saying about her baldi. Wth, she's okay what. Oop! You know I know okay?!

Like finally, went fo th check up w Sya & we were *thank god face* w each other. And babe, thanks okay its been a week we went to town. Like we always say 'Macam budak bodoh!'. Made new friends w some minahs & indeed they were FRIENDLY I assume. I like minahs okay! Okay reserve anotha topic of Minah later :D

After much of my work check up, headed to Lucky Plaza fo X-Ray. Met Aisha up since she finish her work. Walked around & all th way had a tiff w Love. Macam toot! So, had our meals @ Far East Cahaya & I saw Apul, Chan & Ady there too. Okay, miss them muchly & I miss school by then. Thanks korang, ako ryndu skola! So, salam-ed & talk cock w them.

After our meals, search fo my heels whereas Aisha search fo her bag. Upon searching her bag, someth reminds her. She said 'Kay good, we're lost searching fo th bag!' She gave her fcuk face which made us laugh. -__________________-

Walked around, went over to Paragon. Thought of meeting Ekahchirio & Ayinjade but, both of them werent @ their workplace. Then suddenly, saw NysaFelicade. Bagooos, she looks super grumpy but still, I got smile @ her. 'Are you Fahmi's Ex?!' Wth ...

So, had our coffee bean drink since Im craving fo it. Bought myself my favourite drink Caramel whereas Sya bought her 'delicious' drink Cappucino. HAHA :D Wrong one huh, babe? Sedap sampai tekak ako macam sial bodoh! Ishk.

Met Love up since he is gonna sent us home, I mean my bbygirls. Aisha was th 1st followed by Sya. After sent Sya off, we decided to go to Eaz Coaz to chilled but Love was in hungry. Went over to Bedok. (:

While otw home, bought some muchies home since lil sist were hungry macam nk mampos. Bought fo her Roty John & Kway Teow. Okay lah tu, you owe me 1 packet of ciggies! HAHA, Kidding!

Oh, both me & Fee made this phrase up.

Awan Yang Berkaky
Langit Yang Berbadan
Bulan Yang Bermuka
Bintang Yang Terbesar Macam Baldy

Bottomline: I rela ngok awan yang berkaky dary bintang yang macam baldy sia!

Baldy Jeng Jeng Jeng
Tuala Sat Sat Sat
Sabon Sort Sort Sort

Bottomline: Kau bahan kekek siol!

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Oh, I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to someone. Thanks so much okay! You know who you are, :D

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Love, Im sorry fo calling you bastard & those names I shouldnt utter. A big apologise okay?! And, thanks fo th massage too! Sayang kow chibai kia :D Heh !

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Swimming anyone? Gym anyone? Heh !

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Since Im bored, grab this survey from my lil girl, Neesya (:

1. What do you want to be when you grow up?
► Wife of Love. Nah, a president?

2. Have you ever fallen in love?
► Yup

3. Do you like older guys/girls?
► Yes, prefer mixing w older guys than girls

4. Who are the most important to you?
► Well, family & friends includes love duuuh

5. Who/what are you thinking right now?
► Thinking of an ans of this survey

6. What is your favourite colour?
► Red, Green & Baby Blue

7. Are you seriously in love?
► Obviously

8. Would you cry for the one you love?
► Of course. Like Mak everytime!

9. Have you ever failed in life?
► Yes but from there we can be successful

10. What is your full name?
► Nur Iffah Izzah

11. Do you like your first name?
► Obviously

12. How long have you liked the person you currently like?
► About 1 year coming 2 months

13. Have you kissed someone in the last 48 hours?
► Random

14. Did you cry today?
► Yup, had a small tiff w Love just now

15. What are you doing this morning at 8am?
► Sleeping

16. What are you doing an hour ago?
► Chatting w FeeSpinster & Sya

17. What are you currently doing?
► Typing answer of this survey

18. Who last texted you a msg?
► Lufthy <3

19. Have you told anybody that you love them today?
► Only him

20. Do you miss anyone now?
► Obviously

21. Any plans for tomorrow?
► Going to th beach or just rot @ home

22. Is there anyone you want to be with now?
► W mak, can I?

23. Name someone who make you smile today.
► Lufthy love, Sya & Fee

24. Name a friend whose name stats with " Z "
► Zariina darling & babe, I miss you oke katek!

25. Which of your friend stay closest to you?
► Dilah gonzela sister gua & Sya Zya <3

26. Do you prefer to call or text?
► Text, if urgent call will do

27. Was yesterday better than today?
► Nope a very bad days fo me

28. Can you live a day without your tv and phone?
► Of course, unless I sleep throughout th day

29. Are you mad about anything now?
► I am not so sure 'bout that

30. Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
► Nah, not @ all. Learn from mak

31. Last person you visited in a hospital?
► Irham lil cousin of mine <3

32. When is your last and second last hug.
►Just now

34. How do you feel about your life right now?
► Dont wish to answer that

35. Do you hate anyone?
► Not @ all

36. Last person you called?
► Love

37. Who usually sent you the most texts in a month?
► Love & Sya Zya <3

38. Is your room messy now?
► Haha, love always clean it up fo me

39. What are you currently doing?
► Typing an answer fo th survey duh ~

40. Tag 10 person to do this quiz.
► Anyone, bitches, bastards & etc

2009-12-06T10:16:00.000-08:00

Thanks passerby fo th link to Bella's blog, but sorry. Arep isnt my dear ex now. Well, he used to but, now no longer because I know, deep inside Bella's heart, she loves Arep more than everyth. So, I dont seem why she hold some grudges on me. Babe, whatever you think of me now, I dont care because, I dont hate you @ all. I dont call you bitch, i dont call you names & i dont tell anyth about you to others. If you think again, I would want to snatch your boyfriend away from you, why should i? I've got my boyfriend too & so do you. We used to be inlove once back but, noth can put us together because Arep found better girl than me. He picked you to be his life partner & he wants you to take good care of him in future time. Im sure you'll be reading this but what matters now is, tell Arep how you feels. Im sure you're jealous but that doesnt mean you have to hate me right, Bella? Calling me bitch doesnt make you satisfy @ all.

Babe, every girl would be jealous of her boyfriend putting his ex photo in cyber. But that was in th past. Now, you're w him, so why must I bother loving him back then? Think babe. Btw, all th best in your relationship w Arep (:

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So, there's this conflict between me & her. About her boyfriend which is my ex. Lol, small matter.

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Basically I was out w Love just now since his pay has been received, headed to Vivo. I intend to buy this guess handbag which cost us $200, but I saw only black which left w 1 color. Saw some heels but none attracts me @ all. My bad okay! Off to Secret Recipe to have our meal & Love ordered alot.

Ordered Ice blended fruit punch, Ezpirit Passion Juice, Grilled chicken w black pepper sauce, Chicken idk, marble cake & chocolate cheese. Sumpah, ini smue sedap. I enjoy it okay bby! Walked around Vivo but noth interest me @ all. So headed to carpark & we're off to Sentosa. Watched CineBlast Log Ride & CarlsBerg w Love. We intend to go to th SkyRide & th Luge but fcuk, my throat hurts alot. Spoiled my mood. After much @ Sentosa, went over to Singapore Flyers. In th tablet, we th only person inside. We made some noises & we treating one another like tourists. Much of th skyview, we to Popeyes since we're thirsty & hungry. Bought some munchies & headed somewhere.

We spent so much quality time, right baby? Oh, we even had fun watching Saiful Apek's shows! *kening naek naek*

Once my fag is finish, Im off to bed. Nite lovelies!

2009-12-05T11:25:00.000-08:00

Time check: 3.27am

Currently chatting w Love & Sya. Oke, this bunch of ass is really pain in my ass obviously! But, I love them too bits & pieces.

Erm, lets talk about Friday.
Out to town (fo th 3rd/4th time in a week?) need to do some thing regarding on work. And it really pisses me off & upset me ALOT. Cried while thinking if I should take th risk or not to take th risk. It makes me sad & confused. Ask my bby bro, Hyper, if its worth it & he told me this 'If you have th confidence in working life, I think its better you take th risk who knows one day you overcome it. But if you think your confidence wasnt there, why bother? Its yourself who works, not others working fo you. Believe in yourself, sister.'

It touches me alot & really, it motivates me. So, I guess what he say is pretty true, I am th one who wanted to work, so why bother listen to others? Correct? And not to forget, Love was there to motivates me. He really got shocked that I was crying in public. Thank you, love. And Sya was wiping my tears away while I otp w them. Sorry babe fo th trouble. It was nice to have this bunch of kiddos w me, in my life.

So, after much thinking, I've decided to walk to Far East since I really cant think much as I was freaking hungry macam nak mampos. While picking which stall to eat, bumped into Fico & his friend, Loco. Chit chatted forawhile & off, since I was really hungry. Went to th next stall since both Sya & I craving fo Mee Soto. Order but th aunty told us theres no more Mee Soto. Upsets me & picked Plain rice w some dishes. Not worth it, @ ol. Far East had some Food fair going around, & Sya bought herself Muah Chee & idk what its call. Went outside of Far East, saw Fico & Loco, again. Bid them goodbyes & off to somewhere since I want to find heels.

But to avail, I gave up. Had starbucks drinks to smoothen my mood, thought of taking a puff but thank you Lil Efa fo having a butt to puff. Decided not to puff since Im left w 1 stick. Had a tiff w Love which, it makes me heartpain.

Was planned by him to catch a midnight movie so, I told him that I dont mind @ ol. After much deciding, received a called from his & asked me if theres any shows I intend to watch. But saddening, he told me which pisses me of that, I decide th shows, time & place. Now, tell me that. Fo me, if that person plans to go out w me, he/she must decide. Unless he/she doesnt have any plan but wanted to go out, Im fine w me.

Cried fo how many times just fo him. But nvm, I tahan. After much talking & shouting, told him to fetch us @ Plaza Sing @ 1045pm. Agreed & met him over there. Again, had a tiff. Because of what I wear was too overboard fo him. -_-"

Settled & decided to watch @ Vivo, 1230am show, Couple Retreat. It was awesome. I really enjoy watching th show. Furthermore, I am in between my love one, Love & Sya. Was great being w them! Sya slept my house & oh yes, reached home @ 5am in th morning.

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Boring Saturday so, Stay home Saturday. Thank you fo paitao-ing me. Ade pergi, ade balik keh? Had my meals over @ Compass. Movie marathon w Sya but ended up, I felt asleep. Send Sya off, met Love awhile.

Oke, Im done. Oh, Cinta U Turn, Pappadum & Drop Out was a nice show. :D

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I cant wait fo Sunday. Enjoooooooooy babe ngan laky gua!

2009-12-03T11:10:00.000-08:00

Will this leads to an end? Please no.

Met up w Sya up @ our usual place to smoke. While waiting fo her, took a puff & she came w Huimin & Shuling. Talked cock & Love pick me up as been told. So, give them a lift & almost reach Huimin & Shuling's destination to Vivo, someone called love up & really, it annoys me. I kept quiet till I felt better than I will talk. So, back to his workplace & sent us there. Telling us to wait & so forth till I really cant tolerate anym. Tears was about to dropped but, I held back. Took 86 & dropped nearest LRT @ Jalan Kayu. Walked all th way to th LRT w Huimin's high heels. After much crap, get seperated @ Dhoby since both of them went to Vivo whereas me & Sya off to P.S.

Headed to POSB but shack, it cant be transaction. Called th Customer Service & th nearest Bank were @ th CentrePoint depite th weather were so horid. So went there made a new card & luckily, it go on oke. Thot of going Orchard Central, but nah because of th paint's smell that makes me feel like vomitting since I've not eaten 1 whole pathetic day.

About to go home, we made a new game. Was fun & really, I had fun when I spent time w friends. Was great beside small tiff w Love.

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I just dont know whats Im gna turn into. I dont want this to happen but how long more must I suffer myself? I dont want this anym. I cant & handle my situation right now. I've waited long enough but it seems noth to work out. Will this leads to forever? I just couldnt bare, couldnt bare to see this to happen. I had enough patience & waiting fo th return. I tried my best to control my tears away but it still kept flowing thru & forth. I dont deserve this & please spare a thought ..

Whats more I want? I want noth fo gifts except love & concern. I felt like a loner now. Yes, I do have friends but, do they know how I feels? Despite those tiffs, I felt like a loser now. Indeed, Im crying like no one see. Yes, people around able to know their feelings, how about mine? Will they know? Will they understand altho some werent into relationship? I've been crying alot lately & dont wish to cry another day but sorry, Im weak. Im scared, scared people will say 'Efa, theres alot. No use crying.' Please, I dont want another challenge & no more I can handle this.

Does people know Im crying now?

I love you, bbyboy.

2009-12-02T10:02:00.000-08:00

Just came back from Kallang, Leisure Park. What I do? We played bowling. Had fun & lots of fun. And thank you Love fo buying me tweety bird. Looks like my room will be full of tweety birds. Sya bought fo me 3 tweety bird whereas love bought fo me another one. Heh! Im so gna collect tweety bird bird.

At noon, headed to Shaw House to have some medical check but someone paitao me without saying sorry. Thanks lah kan, but nvm. I got no grudges here. Heh ^^ Then all of sudded, Sya told me that her wallet were lost. Search everyone & even back to square one where we walked from. No avail, so report to nearest SMRT service & told them. Search everywhere & we even walked thru & forth th place. Legs were aching & my mood were down. Received a call & told that her wallet has been found. Lucky thing & alhamdullilah. Aftermath went to my check up. Reached th clinic, its about to close so, headed to Far East since Im starving macam nak mampos. But too crowded w Mats & Minahs. So, went to Lucky Plaza to have nasy ayam penyet, favourite siol! Craps w clans & critisice people. Okeh, bitchy us!

Slacked, smoke break as usual & off somewhere since I called Love to fetched us. Planned to play bowl @ Kallang as stated. Was fun & we even waste our money on munchies altho we have eaten. Expensive & not worth it @ all.

And here I am, posting, chatting & texting. I feel like breaking down pretty soon.

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Was browsing some of my friend's blog & I realised how much I misses them. Those laughters, bitching, cries & etc were flashing back. I really misses them. Looking @ their post were great knowing their life were blissful. Im proud of them, seriously. Thou we always fought, but still we made th best team ever..

And yes, I misses my ex too when we're in th same school. From North Spring to Pei Hwa to outsiders. Those gap makes a difference in my life. Teaches me how to be good, respect th elders, knowing some religion, history of spore & etc. My exes were great but hey, we deserves to be seperated. Because I know, we couldnt make it as far as I thought. Every anni without fail texting or calling just to wish happy anniversary & thank you fo being together. And, deep down I have to say that we couldnt make it far. Im sorry greatest exes ever. Im still proud of my babyboys oke!

Now, year 2009, I deserves a better man who can tell me th real meaning of maturity. Whats glass & pearls. I love you, dude. And thank you fo tolerating my attitude thou it sucks like fcuk.

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Oke, I guess I have to end. Th more I think, th more I wna breakdown.

2009-12-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

A very big yay to me now. These past 2 day, yesterday (Monday) & today (Tuesday) a very big competition to me. Which is exams day.

And hell yeah, it was an okeh paper fo me. Yesterday were POA & I did my best altho some of th quest popped out very strangely. I studied oke & Im not like last time *wink!*

So, lets start about today. Had BEO paper & confusing ans I answered. Really oke!
Both Mira & I went to school late, dont blame me. Waited fo Mira as usual place & she's pretty upset about her relationship. Babe, chill & smile oke? I know its been hard on you but hey(!), Im here aint I?

So, enter th class everyone were reading their own paper which already given by th teacher. Lucky thang, its not started. Did our paper & I was kind of sleepy due to yesterday went home late & before heading to sleep I did my last minute revision.

Its hard on my eyes, its really difficult to open my eyes widely. Aftermath, headed to Canteen to had my big breakfast, rice with lauk ayam lemak cili padi & 2 pieces of seaweed chicken. I was hungry ya'know! Relax forawhile & off to home. Love fetched me nearby my house & soon, Im home I fall asleep. Received more than 10 missed calls & some messages given from Sya & Nazrie. Sorry people was too tired like oik oik(:

Woke up before mahgrib & here I am puffing 2 sticks after my dinner.

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Yesterday headed to Feespinster's pit as she's invited. Unbelievable there's on less than 20 attend? But, overall it was oke lah. Sorry babe, did not laugh that much. Was hungry & yeah Im having cramp thats why! But atleast your friends & we as a clan did an effort to come just to see you happy. Iloveyou, lil sist.

So, after her pit, headed down to Macd's drive thru & bought Meals. Teriyaki chicken, McSpicy & Double Cheeseburger. Yum yum! After our supper, sent Sya home then Nazrie & last me. Reached home kinda late but its oke (:

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Im out of words now & I shall end my blog here. So, toodles!

2009-11-30T01:40:00.000-08:00

Days has been passing by, & I've not yet in my stable life now. I've been throwing tantrums w people surrounding me. I always bitch them upside down & I am so so sorry especially, one & only Love. Im sorry fo everyth I've done. I shouldnt throw tantrums & I know, you also did not mean it. Its hard nowadays fo me to apologize to someone very very sincere after much I've done to my dear ex. So, maybe now Karma has detect me. Thanks to my life, its all been jumble up. I know, I should calm myself now but how? I tried my very best to put my tantrums aside, but it failed. Disappoinment attacks me now.

Had a minor tiff w Love just now. Well .. Its regarding about him unable to fetch me. Okeh, I know its very pathetic but, thats me. Because of that, it leads us to a stop & Im th one who said that -___-"
He was upsets & vent his anger on me. Again, I told him this 'I dont care & I dont bother about you anymore, lets put a stop NOW!' My mind wasnt thinking properly & he called me up to console & I fall asleep accidentally. When Im about to doze off, I felt someone beside me & touch my face & hair. I was so touched & saw Love was there. His eyes were all wet & ask if its true. Again, I said 'Yes'. We both cried & I have to. So, after much looking @ his eyes, I said 'No, love you'.

Dude, whatever I've said, Im sorry. I know I have been very harsh to you lately. Maybe, I dont have any mood to talk. Or, maybe my PMS is here, my whole mood ruined. Again, Im sorry. You owe me a very big big Tweety Bird :D

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Oke, I need to bathe now. Will be heading to Feespinster's Pit later on @ East Coast. I feel like going to Coffee Bean to have a drink & my chocolate muffin over there! & Yay, meeting Nazrie & Sya later on!

2009-11-27T08:53:00.000-08:00

Hello earthlings! 2 days back, went to town with Nazrie, Eezanie & me. Firstly went to Orchard to walk around. Headed to Ion Shopping Centre. Caught my eyes on beautiful shoes, skate shoes. Super nice, I'll tell you! Then walked around since we had time. So, scroll around there & again, caught my eyes on heels & a dress. Amazingly, thot of buying th dress first, but nah. Looks like people around wore that, one word fo it, COMMON.

So, headed to Far East. Decided to look around my bag since I told them that, I've been eyeing bags & heels nowadays. Did try on some bags but Nazrie told me to survey first. Agreed on him & suddenly he told me that he's hungry. Went to Puncak. He ordered Wanton Noodles Dry, Ice Tea. Whereas fo myself & Eezanie, lemon bartley & ice milo. Waduh, ice milo super sweeeeeeet, soon I'll be having illness.

Decided to have some desserts after dinner. Bought Fried Mars Bars. Went to CentrePoint to fetch lil bitch, Sya. Was shocked that both Eezanie & Nazrie was there. Lol. Told love to fetch us @ Plaza Sing. Went to East Coast to played pool since I've been wanting to play pool. Pool-ed w Sya was funny. Saket haty sia main dengan dia. Wth >_<

After much pool, decided to head home since Sya wanted to go home. By then, Nazrie slept over my place. Heh! Sent her & off to home.

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Next day, Sya came over my place since she's bore & furthermore she's outside alone. Nazrie prepare himself to go home. By then, both Love & Sya kept. At th right timing :D Came & Nazrie went off since he's meeting his friends by noon.

Going to an hour, love went off since his break time is soon be over & he needs to head to work. Gave some expenses & thank you were given. Hug, kisses, handshakes were given too (:

Woke Sya up since she's fell asleep @ my very comfortable bed. Lol! Prepare myself & by then, Eezanie reached home as before she went to school to take her PSLE results. Dad, Sister & mother were pretty disappointed. By fcuk, hello (!) she did her best oke. How much pressure do you guys want sia. Human nowadays. ~

So, ask her to tag along & off to Plaza Sing since Sya wants to buy herself a headphone. Nice one! Off to Heeren to survey some clothes fo me but thanks, this Eezanie wanted this shirt so much. So, bought fo her not even her, Sya also wants it! My goodness. Bought fo them one each. Amazingly, th total were $49. And, next proceeded to Orchard again since I wanted to buy bag. Bought myself a handbag fo work. Took quite sometime to choose. There's no need to rush lerz. Decided th one I've been eyeing th previous day. Fickle minded! And look @ heels but none were not my taste.

Look @ th clock, much time. All of us were hungry, had Pizza Hut fo dinner. Super noisy us! Ordered pizza, drinks & appetisers. After much eating, we still hungry. Thot of ordering again, but pity Love, he hasnt eaten so ordered him a very large pizza which is Hawaii Supreme Signature & decided to takeaway fo it. Heh! Since love called me, I told him to fetch us. He agreed, love you bby! And, then he bring us to Explore th west side area. Noth much. So, look @ th time, Sya wants to go home.

Reached hougang, ate th pizza nearby her block. Dah macam orang tkdr rumah sia. Haha! Then Sya called her mother said she wont be going home. Oke, & we decided to go Mustafa. Bought our stuffs. Saw his friends, smile & laughed. Aftet that, went to Changi to look @ some Pros, Bapoks. Haha. Cool sia their jobs! We laughed our ass off!

After much entertainment, decided to go home. Reached home @ 5am in th morning. Cool kan?

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Since today is Hari Adha, went to 2 houses. Great foods & entertainment. Watched Jurassic Park 2 & 3. Great show too! Oh, I better get going. Tomorrow needs to go to Orchard to have some check up so I can work. Then, will be going to JB to tailor some clothes fo next month wedding ceremony!

Maybe to Orchard tomorrow @ 8am?

2009-11-24T22:59:00.000-08:00

Been bitch nowadays. I cant seems why I've been making Love frustrated. Maybe, my PMS is coming real soon? Or, I dont have any mood to talk. My feeling fo people is a mixed feelings. I tend to be nice now, & th next minutes, I tend to be nasty. Or, I can smile & laugh now, when I keep quiet (next minutes) Im very very nasty. So, now looks like Im having a very bad feelings now. I feel bad now ):

C'mon PMS, if you really want to come, come je lah. There no need fo me to be like this maaaan. >:(

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Did not attend school as Im lazy & futhermore, having a backache. How nice to sleep a very long hours. Speaking of school, I just realise that these days Im being very very very lazy to attend school altho exams is next week. This week is our very last week to study hard & yet, I've not been revising alot. Thank so this lazy bum me.

After exams, I wont be able to enjoy that much. Soon, my minds & life will be into Career life. Which means, in weeks time Im working.

Goodbye, freelance model, choreographer, babysitter, coach & student.

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Later, Im meeting Nazrie Freako. Will be heading to town to catch big fish over there. Nah, just to walk around & who knows, we might shopping? Oke, I'll better bath now or else, gna be late. AS USUAL ! :D

Before I forget, currently chatting w this Efa Kecyk or people calls her Efa Aziefah. HAHA :) Sakit haty sia bbl ngan kecyk ni. Fuuuh tapy shiok. Bbl mepek :P

2009-11-24T03:35:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes your closest friend is your greatest enemy."- Jason Fong

Double HAHA.

A friend should help you when you're in problems. A friend should settle down nicely if both are in conflicts. A friend should be there when you cry. A friend should always be there when you laugh. A friend should treasure th friendship between you & that person. A friend should understands each other. A friend should listens to your sorrowness. A friend must enjoy being with him/her. A friend should respect you. A friend should makes you smile. A friend doing this is YOUR TRUE FRIEND.

A friend shouldnt avoid him/her. A friend shouldnt talks back. A friend shouldnt let him/her fall on knees. A friend shouldnt cry alone. A friend shouldnt take things advantagesly. A friend shouldnt critisice him/her. A friend shouldnt disloyal. A friend shouldnt do things behind back. A friend doing this isnt your true friend.

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What do you people know about friend? Anyone? I couldnt believe my eyes that things happen too fast. Its a pity.

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Well, school were fine just that couple of things happen recently. Exams around th corner & Im still can jolly well having fun. Projects were oke & finally we are done.

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Im sick & tired being treated like this. I hate when you dont even trust me @ all. How much longer can I take this suffer? Is it wrong fo me to enjoy myself outside? I dont care what people might say but hey, even Imma bitch to others I still knows my limits. Trust, concern, love, understanding wasnt there @ all fo now. I want to be alone where I can shout & smile @ th side of th beach.

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Oke, I better prepare myself fo World War 3 soon. :D

2009-11-21T23:43:00.000-08:00

Oke, life is a bitch now. Weekends spoils everyth that we've planned. Supposingly, Love told me that he wants to look around & buy cargo pants, but fcuk, he DID NOT. And even told me, cargo pants werent suitable fo him as he wants to find nicer ones. Wth!! Maaaaaaaad @ him now.

Bbygirl gua out to ECP w her ehem ehem :D Sya is out to wedding ceremony. And now, Im alone. ): Whaaat shit man. Soon its gna rain & since, we DID NOT have any plans, I wna sleep till I die. *part ni ako mrepek sia*

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Oh, someone spam @ Sya's blog. Pretty amazing huh girl? Telling others that within 3 months you & her are fcuking bestfriends. Ass, & please dont be nuisance kan? You such a bloody coward to write down your real name. Babe, go on & spam her blog because you're wasting you bloody & fcuking time on her blog, seriously! Oh, calling police up to settle th issue? HAHA :D You making me laugh, like wth! You're th one who spams & you wants to call th police up? What shit you talking maaaan. HEY LIL GIRL, before you forgot or you DID NOT know anyth @ all, your IP code, I mean YOUR FCUKING IP code is in her program & please, you're living in west side area right? So, why bothers? You got th cheek to tell her she's UGLY & DIRTY HEART, what about yours, LIL GIRL? Dont tell me, you ARE TOOOO BEAUTIFUL till every guys out there look @ you & drools? Try looking @ my love & see if he drools @ you. Easy said, see if he wants your fcuking number. Doesnt mean you're BIG SIZE, IM fcuking scared. HAHA :D

Act like one, LIL MISS NANA :D Try & spam my blog because I deserves it. Oh no, I deserves because I love TRACKING DOWN YOUR IP CODE & SOON your IP CODE WILL BE TRACED TO POLICE since you LOVE calling up th police to settle huh. LALALAS ~ IM WAITING :)

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Oke Im done posting while smoking. Bye people!

Coward lil girl.

2009-11-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

If my post makes you readers felt uneasy/not satisfy, I AM SORRY - SINCERE HEART.

(RECENTLY HAPPEN)
Babe, do you know th topic of Menses? Have you been in period before? Like duuuh kan? So, why bother telling people that Mira is faking to be in this situation of PERIOD? If you dont even believe, check ah puki de. Try smacking her ass & feels her sanitary pad. Gossiping people thru handphone? Wth maaaan. C'mon be brave man.

And another issue also.

(FEW WEEKS INCIDENT)
Katek, do you have an issue w Mira (Same person)? Whats th point calling her mom about her sleeping w another guy & etc? Wooah, you got th cheek to tell her mom that she has been to a hotel eyk. Waduh, bikin gua sort aje. Ape motive kow sia, katek? Kow sunggu taq sayang mulot eyk? Waduh waduh, patot lah katek. Please lah, your fcuking 18 years old & act like one. Dah besar jdi MAKCIK KPO oke?

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Many things happen on Wednesday. School work, last mint revision, bad phone calls, morning lectures & etc.

Head to school per normal, as usual come late since I woke up superbly late & furthermore, Im having flu. Went to class & Mrs Ghaffar told us that th next day was our BEG exam. School was oke & after school meet up w Love. He fetched me @ Compass & sent me home. Speaking of Love, Love received from a call which from Fadh's boyf. Wth.

So babe? Whats th commotion about eyk? No, I dont care about all this bcox, its got noth to do w me. But hey, on th other hand, I care about th safety in all of us. Not me & love. I care about you, your guy, love & me. Bcox, if your guy got th courage to phone love, he got th courage to face th circumstances. Im not siding anyone. Im siding th safety topic. So?

Btw, I miss you :D

Decided to study @ Wlands since its been ages I last went. Last mint study was awesome. Bought alot alot of munchies fo both me & Sya. It feels great to have alot alot of munchies! Bought fo Love also. Heh! At night, Love fetched me & Sya. Both of them, talk cock :D

Sya, yoook kite pecah kan muke orang !! *kening naek naek*

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Th next day ..

Exam time. Thank goodness I get to answer th questions. When I look @ th questions, I smile to myself, thats where I think back, I learnt before. Sungguh kekek :D Like wise, last mint study was awesome!

So, again Love fetched me @ Taxi stand & sent me to H.Mall to meet up w Sya. Walk around H.Mall & off to my home. Both of us were tooooooooooooooooo tired so, took a short nap. At 6, we leave th house & off to Suntec since theres a job fair. Woah, Im so gna apply soon.

Walk around Suntec then to Marina. Macam minah biol sia p toilet. HAHAHA :D Smoked, gossips & laugh. John Little had sales. Bought munchies fo Sya & Love. Since Love has been complaining to me whenever he is working, he feels hungry altho he has eaten. So while driving, he can munch someth. Told Love to fetch us & he agreed. Thank bby! I told both of them that I want Satay. So, headed to East Coast & had our supper. 20 sticks of satay, 2 honey chickens & sugarcane. Yummy! While otw @ expressway, I crack a joke. Hhaha, I had fun. Those laughters were great! Nak laaaaagy.

Send me home & sleep after washing up (:

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Friday.

School oke. Friends oke. All oke. Reached home, bath & sleep all th way. Shiok! Oke, Im sleeping again. Byee ~

Pei Hwa is having Prom Night :D How was it ?

2009-11-16T09:14:00.000-08:00

Eventually my body system is getting from bad to worst. Whats w, I am not so sure. Everytime, I ate & after eating, I will having some break session. But now, I cant do it. I cant walk that much, cant eat that much, cant lie on th bed fo that long, cant smoke that much (after one anotha), cant be talkative. This is how I feels now. Whats w my body sia? BODY SYMPTOM is driving me nuts!!

I had fun just now. But everytime stepped in th house, I felt someth wrong. Lectures will be given.
Fcukx laaaaaaah.

So long humans, I need to go to th toilet to VOMIT !!!

2009-11-15T08:23:00.000-08:00

Beach-ed @ Sentosa w love ones. Great quality time. Enjoyable. Funny & hilarious part happened. Scary yet phobia now. Someone almost drowned due to pushing in th water. Smoked. Yelled. Camwhoring was fun, indeed!

Great one, do it again!

Beach Road next. Looking @ boxers & bought it. Settled down to had dinner. Had mutton chop & char kway & sugarcane, favourite(: Fickle minded to buy shoe or not to buy. Headache & feel like vomitting, initially. Bad dinner indeed. Forcing myself to be oke.

Body is sick.

Now, Im home & dead beat!

Goodbye.

2009-11-12T22:54:00.000-08:00

These days, I felt so so so sooooooo tired till I dont pay attention attentively in class. Everytime teacher nags/teaches us, I felt so weak. Am about to sleep but hey, I got to move on with th lesson as what I know, exams is around th corner, by hook or crook must must must study. Altho my brain cells cant make it, I force to.

Weather is much cooling nowadays & I felt lazy. I do wna continue sleeping but again, force to. Skipped school one of th days, due to shagness in life. I cant open up my eyes widely. So, continue sleeping. Hp were silent all th way till love call me up @ home & lil sist picks up. Thanks love fo spoiling my beauty sleep. HAHA :D But, still I love you muchly. Aww ~

Friends were great but excepts fo one which I shant elaborate any further as it makes me sick. Right used-to-be-bestf? HAHA :D Go & die! Curse you ~ So, so, well shall I stop? Oh yeah, it makes me happy when I sees my friends smiling & laughing. It feels great siol! Rakan-rakan, yok kite jadi gile. JOOM ~

Had a Jobs Career Fair @ Simei Ite yesterday. Met some friends which I misses them & unexpectedly they change so much much better than th previous years! I hugged tightly & shouting as if I own that school. Like you readers dint do before like that, ass! Guys or ladies, pelok jek. FRIENDS OKE! Fo those who thinks Im like a bitch. HAHA. Obviously Imma bitch if not, I dont own virginia & boobs. Duuuh ~

Talked & laughed w them, but sadly no pictures. Forgotten to bring digicam. HAHA :D And hell yeah, applied few jobs & unexpectedly, one of them is CISCO. Fcuk siol ako. Nvm then, & teacher told us to meet @ foyer @ 11am whereas, by th time we reach th foyer, bus went off. Thanks & it left before 11am. Mcm soyal kan?! Piss off & took taxi.

Here's th conversation between Radz & taxi driver.

Radz : Bishan Ite please.
TD : Which way do you prefer ? PIE or TPE ?
Radz : Erk, PIE will do.

I interrupt ..

Me : Oi Radz, so far ? TPE can lah .
TD : So, which ?
Me : TPE, please. Which you can enter YCK or AMK.
Radz : Pandai nah kow ? Haha.
Me : Duuuh, next time ask me before saying.

See lah. This asshole of mine. Nak jalan jaoh. HAHAHA! Dropped @ Bishan & took train to home since Radz said 'One fo all, all fo one' Babi kow!

Reached home, doze off. Then meet dearest cousin, Boy Ace. Haha, macam couple gituk. Berjanji color baju.

Aftermath, met love. I miss him muchly tao. Supper @ Jalan Kayu. Macam candlelight dinner sia kite. Just th two of us, altho some customer left already. Comel tao !!!

Oh, happy birthday hyper bro. I love you like a brother of mine. (:

2009-11-10T03:11:00.000-08:00

Skip school since Im not feeling good. Had my medicine twice every 15 minutes. Call me crazy bcox indeed I am about to be. Sorry Mira fo Paitao you. I'll make it up to you 2mrw alright, bby gua? Stayed home today & sleep throughout th day. I really cant be bothered my surroundings since Im aint getting any better of it. Love came & he went off since he's busy w work. Dont worry bby, I'll adapt fo th 3 months just to see you happy.

Now I know whats th meaning of understanding (previous post). Understanding is your own personality & @ th same time, you got to understand your other party or partner. I learnt th meaning slowly by myself & now I realise both were in fault. Sorry. But hey, Im slowly to change oke. Just give me time.

I miss late nights outing. I wna rounding. I wna picnic @ night. I miss smoking session @ late nights. Especially when you have cigarette in between your finger, you starts your own gossip session. HAHA :D

Speaking of which, I miss th beach too. Weekends, Im heading to one of th beach to suntanning, swim, picnic, seeing hot guys & girls w bikini & trunks, camwhoring, gossips, laughing w love & others. I simply cant waaaait. I miss th hot sun too! ><

Hey, guess who text me up? Neesya bbygirl gua aka makcik gua (: It was fun texting her. Sorry dint reply your last message. Batt flat since yest dint charge. So, she texted me up just to ask how am I doing & etc. Maklomlah, kite due menghilangkan diri since both of us are busy w own life now. Oh babe, meet up soon oke? About your ex boyf, chill & move on. This type of guy/person dont bother to care less about it. Whats now, you got friends, family & cash since you're working girl. You can hurray2 now. So now, I want to see my bbigirl aka makcik gua smile like theres no tomorrow. You know I love you, right? If theres someth crops up & you got no one to turn to, there is always me. If you dont feel like meeting, you can dial up my no. fo some advices & listening ears. I miss & love you still, like my own sister. Muuwaks!

Sneakys, I miss you muchly. Hell yeah, I watched some videos of yours by Farid's acct & I felt that I miss you bunch of monkeys terribly. Meet up soon or smoking session some where?

I shall end my post now since my MOK is already here. Heh, member sudah gaji dok ape lagy, tekan cukop cukop punyerh :D

2009-11-08T10:47:00.000-08:00

Wondering & Pondering.

How much more can I understand th meaning of UNDERSTAND? It beats me, really. Im lost without words now.

I need a break of kit kat now.

2009-11-06T22:14:00.000-08:00

I miss love effing alot. How How How ? Please dont tire yourself. ):

2009-11-05T07:20:00.000-08:00

Firstly, I wna say thanks to Mira, Sya, Nali, Love & Yani fo wishing me our happy 1st. It is a great pleasure to have you all by my side altho @ times I being so harsh to you people. Sorry if theres once I purposely wna fight w you by being sarcastic @ times. Thanks fo calling, texting, making me cry just to wish me.

Yani & Love.
Looking @ th video which you guys planned are sweet & memorable. Its a great effort you've put in. Th video is kinda sweet to me thou. Looks like now I know why everytime Im about to enter my room, you guys giving an eye to eye contact. HAHA :D Anws, thanks fo th mini present.

Sya.
Thanks fo th wish & thanks fo keeping secret from me. Ass, but its kinda surprised. HAHA :D You know what I mean. Speechless siol.

Mira & Nali.
Suke carik pasal ngan ako? HAHA :D I thot you guys really mean to pick a fight w me. Was dumb that today is my 1st. Haha. Shocked & surprised. Thank you both.

Love.
It was sweet of you to call me exactly midnight. And hell yeah, it was touching. You're th 1st guy which made me like this. I felt special & yeah, you're special too. I knew I kept quiet all th way but that doesnt mean I dont even care. I was speechless. Thanks fo making me cry due to your speech. Ass you! Again, happy 1st & i love you. Muuuwaks (:

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So thats about my anni. Lols, terharu I. You guys really wna make me cry tao !!!

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Let me share w you about this jerk. He's really on my nerves. He is been very very very sarcastic, showing attitude to other, picking a fight which he wants & lastly he is NOT SATISFY w me & others.

Idk whats into this ASS OF JERK but fo sure, one fine day he will get it from me. Whats more you want from me & others? You have proven me that you are just an ass to me. You gave me problems which one of them is, you not satisfy w love. If you have problems w me, settle w me. Doesnt mean Im a girl, Im not daring enough to speak up. Im not running away from you bcox we're just same school. Tell me directly fo once. Tkmoh jdi JANTAN KEDI ah yang kow nk complain2 pasal ako.

Kow p brambos dary hidop ako ah sia. Bwat menyemak je. Or ako luper ah, kow kan pengecot nk bbl ngn ako. Jantan kedi! Lagy satu, klo kow ade masalah ngn bdk2 kiter, kow tkyah nk tunjok prasaan kow kat diorg. Kow sape siol? Kucing per yang kite kne manje kan kow. Nabey, naseb kow ah ako tk sepak muke kow. Sial.

Klo kow terbace blog ako, tk puas, tell me straight. Kow tkyah complain oke kucing wanna be? Kow p take care sua. Haty2 kat jalan raye. Kow tawu ape mksod ako.

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Kay, Im done.

2009-11-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

Right now, Im waiting fo th rain to stop or, drizzle abit. Im going out to City Hall to meet my dearest brothers(: Yeah, they knew Im bored since both my pain in th ass love & sya is working, so why not I meet them since I always complain that I miss them like fcuking hell.

Rain rain go away, come again another day. HAHAHA :D Im sleepy but, I cant backed out, nvm one day shag is oke. Woohoo !! Had my mee soto which mother cooked, yummy ! Talking about food, early mawning had my heavy breakfast. Had fried mee kway teow, a nugget & a seaweed chicken with chrysanthemum can. Hell yeah, fcuking hungry. Im gna eat again soon.

Oh yeah, do you know that I stop smoking? Yea you may think Im mad. Its not that I wna stop forever just that, I wna feel without smoking. Its been a week I dint smoke, it looks cool! :D But, I dont think it will took me forever without smoking. Soon, will be starting back.

Im sleepy!! Th weather is making me feel that way. Fcuk shit, stop raining!! Project fo LPDX is done & Im proud of it. Wait on Friday wors !!! Wed, SBM mini sales. I've yet not have any idea fo mini sales I meant, th prize of it.. Any idea, suckers? HAHAHA :D

Oh it stop raining I better get going or else brothers will scold me. Bye people!

2009-10-30T11:43:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah.

I just recover my high fever since Friday till now. I've been rotting @ home fo days & been laying on my matress fo days too. Monday decided to pay a visit to th doct, been given 2 days MC. After fever is oke, I got rashes. Another 2 days mc given. Th next day, alhamdulillah everyth went smoothly.

So, school was great I must say. Had a great laugh w Mira bbygirl gua. 'Bebey' haha, hilarious! Went to her crib after school. Down to printing, binding etc. Off to school submit th proj & home to change to meet love. Out to town -> Bugis & home sweet home. Had fun w him!

And love finally pampers me. I wanted Nasi Ayam Penyet badly & he brought me to this restaurant where Nasi Ayam Penyet is well allocated. Nice oii! Thank You!

Sya is so damn krazy & I must say, me too :D

I bumped into ex school mate forget his name, Adelaide, Radz, Fynn & Tiradarls today! I miss this friends of mine!

Better get some sleep or love gna kill me.

2009-10-22T01:28:00.000-07:00

A week now & I absent from school fo 2 days. Both days which Im sick. Fcuk.

Today marks our 2 years. Oh no, not in relationship, but friendship. Fo both me & syahadah. Sorry babe cant celebrate w you, guess Im sick & been contaminated by you fo drinking my coconut!

So, school was fin except theres a minor problems due to my girl. Thanks oke? Altho ignored, you're still part of our friendlist. No mention oke? Sorry fo making you like this. Put a sense to yourself now. :D

Well, lets talk about love.

He's such pain in my ass nowadays. Yeah, pamper him too much :D Like beby like that. And our, our monthsary is around th corner. What shall I get fo him? Aaaah ~ Anybody?

December, I really cant wait. I wna shop till I drop together w mira. Right b? Haha. Beeest nyer!

2009-10-16T10:31:00.000-07:00

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.
- Alan Watts

I shall be sleeping by now but currently I cant. Well... Lets talk about school since its been awhile I talked about school life. So hmm...

School is fine now & I now realised that school is important. To graduate, we need cert. To need a cert, we can find jobs easily. Agreed? Yea, althought @ times I dont feel like going school but I forced myself since upcoming months we'll be graduating. Finally! Forcing myself to wake up just to go school.

Having great friends now is fantabulous. Friends were superb krazy like almost everyday & yeah, it feels great & nice to have them when @ times, they're kind of immatured? Haha, oke.

Wait, love fetched me & mira, Yes, decided to eat @ Pastamania Junction 8. Had a nice & long talk. I felt so easy by now. It was awesome day altho love is muchly sick now. We planned to have a cozy stroll along Town side but, cancelled since it was hot & mira needs to meet her mr boyf. Next time bbygirl.

I cant wait fo weekends which is now now now. Will be heading to Iluma Mall, next to Town side then to W'lands fo some occasion & it will be Johor fo supper. No no, only th both of us. Will be surveying some clothes & as fo occasion it'll be Open House. As fo Johor, supper after that & heading to some beaches that are cooling. Aaaah, cant wait!

Life been great lately after having minor situation. Nvm, we'll take it as an obstacles(: I put a stop to everyth. No more nonsense from me, thats what Im trying to do but shacks, certain people only trust me. Looks like I have to persevere. Yeah!!!!

Oh my, I better call love now. Worried fo him & asked him to eat his finest medicine after all.

Toodles!

2009-10-14T11:18:00.000-07:00

Thanks Fadhilah, I love you alot bcox your virus passed to me. Welcome back Fever, Flu & Vomit. )':

2009-10-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

Things changed so fast. I knew & I thank god that I got this power of mine, Instinct. It hurts me about th truth which has been kept long ago & it turned out to be true! Disappoints me alot. Put aside that.

I cried yesterday night & shows how I miss people. Yea, I miss emak. Like alot!
Now, I lost another one. Thank You.

I now realised that I missed & lost another golden chance. Yes yes, I thought it was a lie & just to prank but hey, turned out to be true. Im sorry bcox ol this while it shows no concern & love @ all. I lost another battle of another challenge. Another battle another challenge. Its oke, about th life Im leading to. I knew & I guess no worries fo th people who are concern about me.

I miss you freaking muchly, why hurt me?

2009-10-08T11:19:00.000-07:00

Current mood fo now : Sad, & yes Im crying.

Dont ask why I cried bcox only part of you & me knew whats going on. No, Im not being emo but think, how much more can you kept this thing by yourself? Who am I to you now? Spare part of your life? You knew I hate this karma going on any further. Straight to th point & let it out just once altho it sounds suckish but thats th only way to work it out, be honest to each other.

I got th feeling you're hiding someth from me which you want to tell but it might hurt my feelings or worst you too? Yes, these days we rare contacting each other but doesnt mean you have to be mean to me, right? I too have feelings & I wna carry on living but how? Everytime I tried to carry on moving, my heart kept saying 'Dont'. You know how painful can it be? It feels as if theres knife stabbing my heart where I cant carry on living this life.

I knew this werent work out between us & I knew im being self centered. I want everyone but hey, people always says 'Take one, not 2 nor 3' Means, in life I have to make th correct choice to live happily ever after, not th wrong choice where I pick & litter whereby I can or might destroying my life all my life.

Now... You are th strategy of my energy & yes, you are one of it. Sorry, it dint work out @ all.

How much more can I cry now? Its been days Im being remorseful. I hate this feelings & nevertheless, my instinct always right. I hate it, sighs ):

I wish ...

- to be happy again, before its too late
- mother was here w me
- be a lil girl once again where I can get loves, hugs & kisses
- everyone knew how I felt currently
- people could stop hurting my life @least
- I cant stop becoming worst where no more late nights riding, meet ups & etc

Lastly, I wish I dont wna be Nur Iffah Izzah, fcuk shit.

I knew everyth & I wna stop this nonsense once & fo all. I need somebody nor someone to be there & listen to what I wna share. I need someone to @least give th shoulder whereby I could cry on & help me wipe my tears away. I just need someone to give me my strength back. I miss my days where I used to be a happy go lucky girl. I miss those days where I truly put hopes on myself not to give up.

Thank you, ex sunshine fo doing this to me. I felt th big impact now.

Im gna change my url soon & Im AVOIDING th problems Im having.

I feel like a fool to you now.

2009-10-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

BRB ! Im vomitting pretty sooooooooon I hate this feeling ):

2009-10-05T10:39:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile I update a proper one, so here it goes.

Did I mention last week about going to Pertapis @ Toa Payoh? Hell yeah, it was an enjoyable one. Thou things as plan been rlly pissed me off but still, it was an enjoyable one. I made jellies fo everyone & hey, everyone likes it alot! Yes it kind of plain it th inside but it rlly turn out to an excellent one! *Self praising*

Everyone of us turned up except fo this lil makcik of mine, Shikin. Besarkan taik mate eyk? HAHAHA :D Its oke but you miss alot of junkies lah! Oke nvm, th place is near to our school although th driver makes us think its like far from school. After th event, we thought of heading somewhere but since we damn shagged, we skipped. And again, we thought of taking bus to Toa Payoh Interchange, but luckily Radz told us, walked abit we reached school. So yup, we walked since its a waste of ezlink to go to Toa Payoh & furthermore, Radz dint have cash in his ezlink (:

Walked & Walked, we damn tired. My instinct of my body is alil hot & Im perspiring thou its cold. Met sya up since I promised her to meet. Meet @ Compass to have late lunch cum dinner. Hell yeah, I ate abit. Took 3 bite of Zinger burger, Im all full. Wth, so I knew Im gna be sick pretty soon.

Headed somewhere since Im all worn out. Sat somewhere windy but hence, Im still perspiring. Sigh, headed home straight since my head is totally heavy & hardly hard. Reached destination w Sya, rest few minutes can say, took a nap. Heard someone outside th door & thanks my uncle & aunty came fo visitting. Im all masai.

Oh, w that, I quickly went to kitchen to have some hot toufu. It makes my day, totally. Thank you! My fever when down alil.

Thursday, noth much happen so yeah I rot @ home & mind you, I did rot. Such a goodgirl.

Friday-Sunday busy raya-ing. Hardly remember'd :D

Im yearning to have licence! I want both licence fo car & motor. Next year will be taking bike & after that, car. Or car then bike. Aaaaah ~ I want licence :D

Great, in 1 week times, Im heading to school. Need to see teachers & th same old period. Wth, boleh jdy gile lorh!

I shall end my post. Bye korgs!

2009-09-29T12:11:00.000-07:00

Wednesday Midnight.
30th Sept

Its 3.20am already & I better get some sleep now. I need to go school LATEER & I've yet to wake up call RADZ that BABI of mine. Suke eyk kow menyusahkan ako! HAHAHA :D

NITEEEEEES people. Oops, I mean MAWNING people!!

2009-09-27T02:44:00.000-07:00

Pardon me if Im way back to update my blog.

Will be posting a short short short details here since Im @ my cousin's house :D

Heading to school soon since Im having some CIP over @ Pertapis. So, noth much which means I'll be bringing some food fo th elderly & yes, Radz gna pay me by ciggies :D Kan babi ?

Life is such a troublesome one, I tell you! I thought it will turn out pretty perfect but hell no. Altho its troublesome, Im still leading a good life now rather than th previous term which some people knew what happened. So thanks people!

I got fed up w some friends of mine. Planning to have some raya outing but in th end, asking me to plan?! Im fine w it, but some people doesnt have th heart to @least text me up or call me asking if th plan still going on smoothly. No one contacted me & still without them, I still plan by myself. But, none appreciate my deeds, so I shall not bother. I know this will be a killing one but sorry, I had enough seyy. Talking about money issue, I knew it will be HARD to fork out @least $35 fo each & everyone of us, but its just 1 day outing. Including driver & petrol. I think again, its damn worth it. If you people think back. But, I knew some are having financial, so I have th cheek to think back th disadvantages. Aaah nvm, I knew it wont happen.

NEXT.

I miss my lil darling of mine. Yeah, that katek of mine Siti Nur Zarina. HAHAHA :D
Eyk ling, ako ryndu kow. Kow taq ryndu ako ker? Mama suroh poser tknk poser, chat ngn I isap rokok, mkn keropok air ice lemon tea. Kan biadap tuh name nyer. HAHAHA =D Tpy tetap I ryndu & sayang you. HEHEHEHE

NEXT.

Oke, Im having period right now & gosh, its 3rd day still Im having cramps here & there. Sungguh taq perlu ni smue. Fcuk, I cant bear this pain & am holding on strong. I've been crying to bear th pain. Ass.

Keh bye need change paaad :D

2009-09-17T05:21:00.000-07:00

A week back, went to East Coast w friends just to celebrate this lil bitch's birthday. Beforehand, we thought of going somewhere to chill but since this bitch of mind craving fo McCafe, Double Chocolate Frappe, we headed to this East Coast. So, walked around & decided to play pool w them. It was funny & we were happily joking away. And we cant believe that this bitch of mine, played pool like this:
HAHA. Now tell me, who played like this? It was embarassing but hey(!) we actually having some fun. So, after pool headed to somewhere where we can buy lotsa food + can bump into lotsa minah & mats =GEYLANG.

Since bitch intend to buy food fo her ex boyfriend, & they kept forcing me to eat since 1 whole day I dint breakfast. So, just take away some food fo family(:

Parted some ways, not to worries friends sent us girls home. Talked to this guyfriend & asked if motorcyclist loves into cuttng/design & why. So he explained frankly & hey, it doesnt make any sense @ all. Nvm then.

Remember th previous post, I tell you guys that me & this girl (Nur Syahadah) were drifting? Hey, we talked things out already & we both were super happy that we managed to have some free time to hangout. So, headed to City Hall since this ass wants to interview some jobs. Off to town area & we were like jakun since its ages we last went out, just th 2 of us. And yeah, we did not fast on that day. We ate like nobody business altho theres some makciks. HAHA :D

Was damn fun but sorry babe, its just a half day through. I was damn sleepy + tired =WORN OUT

This guy is such a pain in everyone's ass. Days, weeks I last saw him & finally, he came to school yesterday. Altho he such a pain in everyone's ass, but he is such a loving & caring guy. Eh babi, kow ni eyk, suke menyusahkan orang eyk! HAHA :D

In class, nothing better to do, shouting & running away from class just to smoke. Gosh, sickening.

Without him, our class will be such a bore. Having a great friend by our side is great. Did I told you that, he loves to gossip? HAHAHA :D Like makcik you know! But still, I love him(: Right friend?

Any difference in this shot screen? Haha, Look @ my hair. I cut & it cost me $26 buck just to cut & wash. Wth. Im so gna miss my long long hair but not worry, I still keep my long long tail w me. HAHA :D

I miss my junkies lah!

Oh yeah, exam is finally over & hurray, its time to ENJOOOOOOOOOOOY :D Woah, best nyer. Soon, Im off to Pastamania. Craving fo some pasta

Do miss me, people & finally blogger is fine w pictures putting it.

2009-09-13T04:25:00.000-07:00

These days reached home always without fail after 2am. And I guess, Im all stress out. Believe me anot, I changed fo th worst & it simply sucks to th core. How I wish, this wasnt what I intend to have in this way in life. Sorry if this attitude of mine sucks.

I've been slapped by someone who is dearly to me since I was baby, toddler, youngster & young adult. It saddens me that you showed me your true colour to others. And in order fo me to change to th better, let me be th way I want. Worst, I intend to do. I couldnt help it & I got th urge to tell frankly but too bad, both of you cant accept th fact. Sorry, Im just being truthful. Isnt that a good thing being truthful? I cant believe it happen again. Thanks fo making me this way, parents.

Few days back, I went to make new friends from my hometown who used to whistle @ pretty girls, gossip like girls & etc late @ night (Nothing better to do, I know). At first, I thought they were great friends to be. But slowly things gone far beyond my expectation. Asking me to do what they asked to such as, give what they want. Im scared so I called this dearest of mine, but saddening me, this dearest of mine dint even pick up any calls from me. So, theres nothing to do, I decided to followed them & run away. I was scared & it traumatised me enough. I cried fo godness sake & alhamdullilah, I tried running away from those incident but sorry, my mind was still over th incident. Those looks & actions kept appearing on my mind. I made th correct choice to run.

I thought saying sorry would ease people's mind & their thinking were positive but, it turned upside down. So, without fail, I kept saying sorry to this dearest of mine & although it hurts I kept saying without fail. I knew Im in fault but @least I told & realised. So alhamdullilah, theres nothing against us.

Now, life being more such a hassle. Leading a life whereby I pretend nothing happened like zombie. Follow th flow & mix th people whom I know, not whom Idk.

I had lotsa fun w junkies where I can be pampered alot of times. Speaking of pampared, I miss Aman alot & finally, I got hugged by you. I love my brother like alot altho it might thot that we're couples. HAHA :D Homed @ 4am in mawning so texted junkies that they will be a next time to hang around. But now, I've been controlled by someone. Sorry sesngt (:

Maybe, I shall learn how to accept & adapt th changes in me & th surrounding. Insya'allah, I'll be fine(:

Now, my friendship w Nur Syahadah is drifting away. So, no worries everyth is gna be fine. It hurts her badly but sorry babe, I need time to ease & befriends whom ever I want. Soon, I'll get back to you(: No worries babe, Im fine. I love you.

Oke, I need to away fo th meantime. Exam around th corner yet Im still here to jolly well enjoying. Now, I wna revise(:

Chaos!

2009-09-11T05:50:00.000-07:00

Im kind of disappointed on myself. Usually, I pushed all th blames to me, but now, Ive yet to learn that, not only me who change but everyones too. Y'know, its upset me th most when people surrounded me, has changed. For example, used to contact me without fail. Always there fo me when I need someone to hear my problems, report strength every now & then, otp w me without fail & send & fetch me from school.

After one incident happened, a friend of mine seldom contact me & I felt kind of hopeless. This friend of mine without fail, make me stand up on my own & I dare not to be rebelious. I thank him fo changing me but, now it turned upside down.

We became drifting & every night before I went to sleep, I pray to god wishing change fo th better. Every text messages I send, none were reply except a pretty friends. I called, but no response. Asking in a nicest way why avoiding & replied me that lazy to entertain. Thank you fo hurting me & making me cry one whole night.

Reached home pretty late nowadays, running away & mixing w bad company but who cares, its my life & none can control me.

Thank you fo changing & thank you fo making me useless to you.

Choose.

2009-09-09T22:12:00.000-07:00

10 Sept

Im done w you, no need to mention.

Its been a jerk to me that, I always been blamed. Whats wrong w people nowadays? I know, things always happen reasonly but why must it be me till now, Im scared, phobia, trauma, hurting & doubtly. I never knew it hurts me so much till, it always in a harsh way.

Vulgarities here & there, almost knocking down, crying, shouting & not to forget, always intend to win when th other party about to tell/talk, ass.

Wassup being flirty girl? Everyone flirts. Dont tell me, not one single soul hasnt been flirting around. Flirt if theres a LIMIT. Ass lah. Mcm naq smack smack kick kick.

Why must I jote down here? Publicity siol. Aaah, nvm who cares anws?

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Im waiting fo my property to be handed in to me without asking. If people can be harsh, so do I.

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Aaaah, Im too sleepy. Shall be taking some nap lata!

2009-09-08T22:44:00.000-07:00

Slept throughout th day since Im damn effing weak & I need some peace.

Hella no, not schooling since all teachers are having some course & yay(!), I can study fo POA which tomorrow CA. BEG tasks which I hasnt complete fo now. So, I have to complete now.

Life been miserable day by day & I want things to stop now. I wna some peace & how long I must wait so that I finally get my peace? A hassle life Im leading now.

Oh, Im down w flu & sorethroat. Fo now, my eyesight is troubling me & yes, I cant seem to see clearly. Its too blurrish. I hate it so much, & scared its getting worst. Insya'Allah Im fine(:

My post will be kind of short fo now, bcox I really & seriously doesnt have any mood.

Toodles!

2009-09-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

How much more you want me to suffer being like this? You know that I despise th way you're treating me. Not myself but, yourself too. Please have some sense & dont bcox of you're angry, you put ALL th blames to me.

Yes, I did telling you about th 'time out' bcox I need some LIFE & SPACE too.

Oh yea, what th hell are you tryna do, monster? Bought stuff fo me, yet claim it back? IF you think you cant buy stuff which is not whole heartedly, then dont buy/give. Bagi pastu, amek balik? BODOH PEH LAKY.

You told me what just now? You suffer fo 6 months? What about me? I suffered more than you. Have you ever showed th careness towards me? Have you sympathy me?! Have you ever think that you should stop doing those shits to me?! Im NOT scared of you & Im NOT what you may think of. IDC what you gain & lose about.

You GAIN while I lose right? Think again ah! You made me suffered & now, what?! Naq ako suffer lagi?! BOLEH, APE SALAH NYERH. Do what you wna do bcox I know, things always happens fo a reason. You are so NOT MY FCUKING TYPE.

APOLOGISE TO ME?! SAVE IT. BACK W ME? SAVE IT TOO.

Thanks to you, Im BECOMING worst. I wasnt like this in th 1st place. THINK BACK DURING 2008 TIMES.

I REGRET REGAINING MY MEMORY. I REGRET IN LIFE WHEN IM W YOU. I REGRET CHANGING YOU FO TH BETTER, DESPITE THOSE EFFORT I PUT IT, YOU JUST WASHED IT AWAY. I REGRET ALOT FO CRYING FO YOU & ONLY YOU.

STAY AWAY FROM ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-03T00:17:00.000-07:00

Intend to give school amiss but, nah ~ I promised this ass of mine or kambeng of mine that I wont absent from school again UNLESS Im sick. Argh ~ Thank you kambeng fo giving me this 'sickness' of not to absent. Woah cannot take it oke. But Im happy enough that, altho Im sick yet I still forced myself to go school & guess what, Im proud of myself fo attending school fo 3 days (except mon & tues) despite th sickness Im having right NOW.

Wednesday.
Its been a week plus I went to school. So, today had th initiative to go school since I already away fo some days. Friends were shocked that all of sudden I came. They were asking like makcik kpo why I didnt attend school. Aww, sorry oke & I miss you junkies too ~ HAHA :D

Thursday.
Did not fast since I ate medicine in school. Yes, I mention medicine bcox Im down w high fever, flu & sorethroat. No, its not bcox of smoke. Its bcox of shouting, thats why Im having sorethroat. I can feel my throat is heaty so, I decided to drink warm plain water. So, after eating th medicine, I fall asleep during POA lesson. I was damn weak on that point of time & I can feel th heat surrounded by me. I told myself not to create trouble since its th 2nd day of school fo me. So, yeah. Home straight & all I could think of is to rest till breakfasting & I did. Reached home, got changed & rest. I really couldnt take it th pain. And furthermore, Im having migrain. Ass ~

At night, received calls from Sya & Fadh since th both of them wanted to meet me badly. So, agreed despite th sickness & sorry babes fo worried sick fo me. Sya bought yong tou fu soup which I told her to buy. Thank You.

Fadh, dont fuh fuh too much oke? Im worried fo you. But not to worry, Im always here fo you if you are down nor happy(: Happy happy selalu oke sisterly?

Report strength & done.

Friday.
Headed down to Pasir Laba Camp which located @ Jurong. NS Army were having Open House. Was kind of long journey but fortunate enough that Kin, Ngantok & Shahril entertain me. I kept disturbing Kin & Ngantok in th bus. Was cute yet funny. Yeah, Im bored that why.

Sesungguhnya dah sampai sane, nampak minah & mat. Eww ~

Pretend nothing happen & just talk to my friends normally. So, texted this kambing of mine all th way & baek per, p school lambat. Ass kow lah ~ But nvm, as long you go school, Im happy enough. Th open house was quite okeh lah. Took alot of photos & bbygirls of mine were excited when th moment I took out my camera. HAHA :D Suker eyk korg.

Overall it was fun despite th bad weather. HAHA :D Fool around, shouting & fighting fault. It was fun, overall. Some school were there like, Simei, Bishan, Yishun, Tamp, Northlight & Etc. Speaking of Northlight, some were staring @ some of my friends & I told one of my cliques this 'Kiwak, naq step mane peh big fcuk. Benci siak. Prangai taq perlu stare2 oke' & I think one of th Northlight were paisey already. Tulah, stare lagi kan! Amek kow ~ HAHA!

After 1 of th presentation, it was raining heavily. Baek per. But its good lah. Tour around th whole area & we finally settle down this Mission World. Walked around th whole area fo like 5 times. HAHA. I want this magnet badly but somehow, Im damn paiseh lah. Bumped in Guo Wei & Subhana. Haha, miss them muchly. (:

So, walked around then took survey. Went to th pick up point since its nearly to go home. Saw Choon Hao. Still th same(: Slept in th bus while otw back to school. Tired okeh.

Now, I would like to wish this Mat Rep or known as Muhd Arif, th ex.
Happy 17th Birthday. You look young but, you're getting older every year. May Allah blessed you & hopefully you'll lead a happy journey throughout years upcoming. Take care dearest(:

2009-09-01T01:20:00.000-07:00

I adore people having lots of fun out there. I miss being a child who without fails never had a pure love, pampered, hugs, kisses, cradle & etc. How I wish I can me a child.

I never thought being a young adult will end up being like this. I know things never get what I want in life but @least, have th initiative to tell whats th world are having. I miss everyth.

I miss my smile, laugh, hug, kiss, love, understanding, jokes, pampered & th one I love most. How am I suppose to have all this when I knew I can never get what I want nor desire. This is not fair @ all.

Sorry fo shouting name that I shouldnt suppose to shout/called. I guess, I cant stop thinking about you. Im sorry fo mistreating you. Im sorry fo making you like this. Im sorry if I get you into this mess. Im sorry if I let you hear my tears. Im sorry if you were there yet I kept shouting into your ears. Im sorry if I let myself suffer when you werent w me. Im sorry if I still miss you. Im sorry if I love you once more. Im sorry.

2009-08-28T11:07:00.000-07:00

29th August - 2.20am

Im being so cheeky today which I keep on smiling. Lols! So which mean, Im now haaaaappy happy happy girl lah sangat :D

Guess what? Got this gentle pig told me that today, 29th marks Michael Jackson's birthday. Which currently Idk. Thanks eyk pig!

Oh wells, Im head over heels now! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaappy sungguh ~ *chuckles*

Finally, I made up my mind by putting it a stop or can say, a timeout & I thank god fo giving me th chance to be strong again like how I used to be. Thank You! I know people were asking 'Whats wrong w you?' Well, not to worry, Im fine & will be a happy girl from now onwards :D

Well before I ends my post, I find this so true about me.

Yes I do pent down my emotions & even my egoness just to ensure that people wont be worried about me. As fo hopes & ideas, yes, if I said I want things to be done in certain dates, means I mean it. I may be firm but @least I got th least to understand th situation. Its true, I do not like th feeling of loneliness bcox I know, th feeling of loneliness makes me feel negative about myself & from there I will start reminiscing th past which leads me to wrong path. I willingly to go my own path bcox Im old enough to think whats best fo me although it will lead to a mistake whereby I choose it. 'Everyone's not perfect'

'You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.'

'You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.'

True enough about me, yes.

2009-08-28T00:47:00.000-07:00

28 August

I dint expect everyth went too sudden. Telling lies to other people, making me cry & whine & etc. Whats more you want? I knew everyth went out unexpectedly.

Yes, right now I regret. Regret being everyone's favourite lil girl. I shouldnt let people like/love me. Im putting them high hopes upon themselves. Im sorry fo treating people like this. Im sorry if you guys changed fo th worst. Again, Im sorry.

I dont believe you no more.

2009-08-26T23:12:00.000-07:00

27 August.

Right now, my right eye is having a sore or can say, infection. Yes, due to crying perhaps? My right eye is flooding th whole eye. Too painful. Already reddish. A friend of his called to ensure that everyth went smoothly fo th both of us. But sorry, I cant do as you say. It hurts me badly & really am, I cant.

Its been days I cried muchly & its been days I avoid people despite those injuries Im facing. My backbone hurts & I cant lie on th bed too long nor standing too long. So, fo now I can sit. As fo walk, it depends how long I stand. Basically, Im doing not so good lately. Certain people knows how Im doing. Im being an ass lately. Sorry.

Tell me can I improvise this?

2nd day of NOT fasting due to period. Thank you fo not giving me to fast. Ishk ~ I wna fast. Aaaaah ~

Soon, I'll be going to school per normal. As fo now, Im getting weaker & weaker. Im trying to be th very best but everytime, I stand fo my right, it went to th drain. Guess, I cant be strong neither I cant stand fo my right.

Tell me why.

2009-08-25T21:47:00.000-07:00

It hurts me after I've been destroyed w words thats I shouldnt be heard, actions that I shouldnt see. Whats more y'want from me? I took so much time to go th distance w you but I guess Im just a doll who can be yelled, scoldings muchly & worst, those things that you shouldnt do yet you do.

I took alot of courage to stand up my position but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of time to be there when you fall but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of challenges b'cos I want to know whats others have been through but still, you couldnt see. I took alot of time to just understand one another but still, you couldnt see. Cant you just give yourself a timeout & see what I do when you couldnt see what I gave in?

I hate what you're doing to me now. My life is now full of hatreds. Yes, you had given your chance & prove to me that you're evil. You're just a monster to me fo now.

My privacy that you shouldnt look. My messages that you shouldnt read. My calls that you shouldnt talked to. I dont really get it, whats more you want from me. Im scared, I cried & I whined just like a lil baby. Im yours, not.

Promises to th person whom I used to loved, is just unbearable. He made me change fo th better & I wouldnt dare to overboard th promises. He told me to stop crying, I listen. He told me to rest, I listen. He told me to talk things out, I talked. But, how much longer can I tolerate this?

Now, th answer is revealed. Thank you so much fo doing this to me, monster. Now, I had enough.

I used to be a happy girl after receiving my gifts. 2009 was too much pain I had. I dont wna continue my journey now. Im all sick. Monster, you gave me such pain & Im having it again. Thank you.

I wna cried, whined, away from th others.

People cant been contact me. Gadgets wasnt w me now. Sim card were lost & thanks, it has been found.

I really am sucks. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ~ ):

2009-08-23T16:16:00.000-07:00

Continue w Saturday.
Breakfasting w usual family but w Beh-loh-ve & Didi; without mother. She's working & pitied her. Aftermath, talked nonsense w them. Oh yeah, Beh-loh-ve & Lil sis was being so childish, trying to pillow fight & throw whatever they sees. Pretty cute huh? Hey, everyone has th childishness Wheather they want it to show or not to show. (:

So, tidied up alil mess & finally, I get to touch up those past memories. Haha. I mean, I saw my 512mb & 1gb memory card. So, I browse thru those cards. Looking @ pictures & videos. Sheesha-ing w Abg Lam, Apiz, Ct, Sya, Luf & Eldest sist. Last year raye w Pei Hwa Clan when Im w Arep wearing orange color kebaya. Chacha's pictures. Videos of Apiz singing in Karaoke lounge, dancing under th void deck w Huhu & Farid- Arep & me. Haha.

Was superb cute laaaah kite :D Nvm, if got time I those pictures & video here. Insya'Allah.

Sunday.
Sahur w whole family together Beh-loh-ve & Didi except daddy. He's sick. So, Beh-loh-ve woke me up & luckily, I wasnt in th bad mood. W my masai + tak perlu face, I just ate. Of course I got brush teeth lah seyy.

Then, fall asleep back. Was shagged & cant bothered whats going on w th surroundings. Lols! Woke up around noon upon hearing naggings & shoutings. Thanks eyk kakak.

Idk whats got into her or her ass/brain. She must be nuts. Scoldings from her was unbearable. So, washed up & was told last minutes to go to Paya Lebar Singpost. Since we're over there, might as well headed to Geylang. Whole journey without daddy.

Seperated w Didi & Sis since both of them going to Post Office. While as fo us, ape lagy, enjoy jalan jalan ah. Many kebayas caught my eyes & swear its superb nice. Fo those who have not been Geylang these days or few days ago, make sure go w redha haty. HAHAHA :D Its nice & bet its gna make you people cair (:

Conflicts w Beh-loh-ve alil. Which I know Im gna be weak. So text him up altho he's is near me. Scolded him & talking to him 'Ako kow'. Nvm.

Decided to go home since th next day Lil sis will be having her prelims. Sadly, we went home except fo eldest sis & didi. Me & Beh-loh-ve went to Mall NTUC. While otw there, had a tiff w him. Thank You so much fo pulling my hand. Sighs.

Reached home, pretty usual noth interest me @ all. So yup(:

Monday, here I am. Was suppose to go school fo S&W. But, since I was exempted might as well I skipped. Right? Oke, I know I shouldnt skipped, will make my attendance poor. Aaah, nvm.

Oke people, gtg. Will be late fo school which I am already late! Byee ~

2009-08-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

Its time fo me to post.

Wednesday.
I got th urge of coming to school late. So, headed to school w Shahril. Altho we werent in a good term now, still we both manage to make both of us happy. First lesson were SBM, marked our attendance & off to canteen to have a BIG breakfast. I was indeed hungry okeh as th night before I dint get to eat which I think, I wasnt in th right & proper mood.

Its 2 hours of lesson but we made full used of it by running away from his lesson. Aftermath, we talked craps as usual.

Th rest of th lesson were oke, so noth to update much.

1 hour of break. We stayed in class since Radz were sleepy & tired. So, left Me Shahril & Mira. I decided to distrub Radz since he intend to sleep. So, without any hesitation I played w his hair. Kirekan main darah ah ~ HAHA. Then, I plucked out white strands of Shahril's hair. Then plucked out damaged hair which Mira had. I can be professional treatment fo hair.

Ayin came late fo school. Overall, school was oke lah. Noth happen on that day, I think? Oh yeah, bumped into Aisha (Nsps cum phss friend) @ Compass Mrt. Where she almost tapped her ezlink out w her step minah face. I tapped her shoulder & she told me what happen during 9th August. So, we both decided to stroll @ Compass since Im craving fo Famous Amos. Thanks babe fo accompanying. Bumped into Feeka & Fadh too. And saw LynnAstro over there too. Lynn, rindo kaaaamu :D

Thursday.
Early in th mawning ard 5am+, mother received a call from her brother that his father-in-law passed away. Upon hearing, I feel like breaking down. Why all of sudden? Without hesitation I call Sya up telling a sad news. Its like, its recycling. I miss my late aunty aka Emak. Sighs.

Gave school amiss since Im totally feel like visiting. It was buried & remiscing arwah emak. Sighs, on that point of time, I breakdown. Daddy were sick & pitied him. He all th way vomitting. Text certain people & they were there fo me, thank you so much. After that, homed, rest & changed.

Met up w Fadh under her void deck. While walking to go her void deck, bump into Beh-loh-ve. He said Im sombong. Soyal kow ~ HAHAHA :D He accompanied me to Fadh's void deck. Then, reached, three of us smoked break forawhile. Talked non stop. Seperate w him, off to Punggol Park. Accompanied Fadh fo her interview. Then, next stop to Hougang interchange to take th bus 161 to W'lands. Met my cousin up. Sorry wors wait fo us fo 1 hour+ HAHA :D Owe you someth oke? Hmm, no that stupid stuff. -.-

Then, after meeting him, went to Tampines since she wna interview over there. After much walking, window shopped fo awhile. Saw this Everlast Jacket superb nice. But, fo now I cant spend that much as I need to save fo th future.

Off to Compass back & took mrt to Vivo. I intend to eat @ Banquet & @ th same time, I wna eat @ Macd. Banquet have my Ovaltine drink & as fo Macd, I wna eat McSpicy. So, ape lagy manje ngan sister ako lah. But end up eat @ Macd. Fadh ate as if she dint eat burget. Berkecah siak ni pmpn makan. Done, we went to meet th rest of th cliques @ Vivo SkyPark. Met, Diy & Sya up. Siti went home since th next day she had her NPCC training. Smoked fo awhile & talked cock.

Slacked fo awhile. Took photos & off to KFC since Diy wna buy food fo her lil sis. She order alot like 2 packet of cheesefries, a box or a box of 2 w chickens, 2 colslaw, 3 drinks & 2 small packet of spicy lemon chicken. Wth. Alot kan ?! But, we took 1 drink & a packet of spicy lemon chicken. I dint eat as I wasnt feeling well. Was having gastric.

Off to home. In th MRT saw Kak Zai, Arep's eldest sis. We smiled & muchly, I miss her. Even their family. She asked 'Kow maseh sakit2?' Replying a yes. They know what Im suffering. Not to worry much aite? Im fine.

Seperate w them & took LRT. Smoked again since Fadh wna smoke. Then home.

Friday.
School were rather fun I assume. Told & were told by Kin & Seri about their friend, whom I knew. Small world. Nvm about that.

Went to canteen to have a short break. Was oke lah.

Thank you Zul & Shahril fo making me laugh non stop. Those actions were indeed funny.

Saturday.
Today is th 1st day of fasting month. I hardly woke up as I was sleepy. Beh-loh-ve called asking me to woke up but, ended up, member kene marah ngan kite. Haha, sorry yer. Was sleepy & I cant bother to talk nicely if you talked to me without a hello. Hahahaha :D

Woke up, otp w Fadh. She super lame lah yet ily oke sister? I want to eat dendeng. Anyone wna accompany me? Speaking of which, I wna watch Where Got Ghost & Final Destination. Anyone?

2009-08-18T09:33:00.000-07:00

Thank You, high school friend(:

2009-08-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

I was late & I knew Im gna reach'd school superb late. So, as usual, bath, changed & doll'd. Out of th house as usual too, but upon reaching th bus stop, I look @ th time, & its already 710am. I text Joshua up & telling him that I'll be late. So, I pretend noth happen despite of having test early in th morning. Pretending noth happen as always(:

Walked to school w Joshua, & told him we gna be dead as both of us are laaaaaaate ~ Headed to school per normal & luckily our CA wasnt there. Revised a lil & th test was oke fo me despite revising alil impt notes ones.

Almost start th test, Shahril came. Lucky fo you, ass boy(:

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Break forawhile & bought so much junkies just to fill my empty stomache without a drink. Macam sepuluh hari tak makan gtuk. Headed to class & start of th day by CA lesson. Talk2 & she told th students that this term was a terrible attendance each & everyone of us. Im one of them. Almost sending another letter. I did badly fo my attendance, & I know. After her lesson, BEG. Test again as last week I didnt attend school. Aaaaaaaaaaah ~ Last minute revise. How am I suppose to do well when its a last minute? So, I try my best & upon looking @ th paper, unfamiliar questions popped out. Thank so much eeefa fo not revising. Sighs ~

Break time fo an hour & I didnt eat as I dont feel like eating. Telling lies to others that Im full. Padahal-padahal ~ So talked crapped w th usual clan & baaaaaaaaaad conversation I had w them. So, everytime they talked to me, I looked outside of th school.

Reminiscing th past where you always send me to school & fetch me to school. I almost breakdown, but as usual I held back my tears very hard. I had a lame conversation w Afiq. Asking me if I know Lynn, Ayin & Ekah. And obviously I know them lah. So, again he asked this stupidity question 'Macam ne kow kenal diorg?' -_-" Telling him that I knew Lynn from Fahmi's. Again, he asked 'Beh Ayin & Ekah?' Hold my patience & telling him that obviously I know both of them from Lynn since its her friends. Again he asked how. Okeh, tros ako mangkok. HAHA! :D

Zul was there & telling th rest that his jealous. Wth -.-

Headed to next class late as we done our work yesterday. Ape lagy, buat sekolah ni bapak kite punyerh ah. Reached class, this sarcastic yet gerek punye kawan, Atun. Asked her why came to class late & her respond were lazy. Boleeeeeh jadi gile layan si dekni ~

Teacher told us, we can release @ 1pm whereas our class ends @ 2pm. Gerek pe cikgu ni? Walked to mrt w Nana, Iqah & Atun.

Took mrt & dropped @ Compass, bump into Fir & his friend. Smile & talked abit. Rindu kow lah cb!

Reached home, here I am blogging since Im superbly bored.

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'EX' Just th title.

Broken up issue has been making me wondering. Yes, wondering & kept thinking why & whats th reason.

Do you realised that, after breaking up, your ex wouldnt dare to contact you altho you just broke up/attached/ or feel not to contact w you anymore? So, do you know th reason behind it, afterall? I doubt so or shall I say, you were 50-50.

I wondered whats wrong contacting your ex back altho both of you were in term together back then. Basically me, myself doesnt know th answer either.

Both gender's story.
Maybe, th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend might think that th girl/boy can move on without th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend or might think that th ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend doesnt want to be th 3rd party if th girl/guy is attached or worst, doesnt care-less of th girl's/boy's condition. Who knows...

I've been through & almost, I've been through now.

Idk whats th reason behind this scenario Im facing. Doesnt mean both of us are attached we cant contact, meet, going out w others or slack around? Scared each of us boyfriend/girlfriend think wrongly of us? Before going on further issue, why doesnt want he/she knows that we just a title of 'EX'? Tell your boyfriend/girlfriend th truth about us or to play safe, bring along he/she IF we are going out w cliques? Obviously w permission.

Yes, I do want to contact back all my ex-boyfriends but, Idk if its a right time to contact now or later? Obviously I doesnt want th couple to have a misunderstanding.

Getting yourself a boyfriend/girlfriend is easy but once you broke up, its a difficult issue to handle.

Fo me, I really hope I get to bump into or contact or meet one day as a cliques gathering. Whats past is past.

Its better than nothing right? Wna lose a friend of yours?

Bottomline: Forget th past issues, start afresh now.

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Soon, gna meet my Fat Bitch, Syahadah. HAHAHA ! Pelan2 kayoh eyk balek time, Bluekx! Sorry Fadh, Feeka & Sya fo not coming down to join you people. I was damn tired & soon we meet up aite? All th best in life ~

2009-08-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

Monday ; 17 August

Finally Im home.

Yesterday was such a hectic ones. I had fun going to East Coast (: Thank you so much despite of th last minute event :D

I wna brought this matter up which I know it doesnt concern any of you readers here. So, nvm just look @ your monitor screen & read it up, aite?

Friends.

Have you ever been hurt by your friends? Have you ever trust your friend despite of their egoness nor whatever that requires feelings? You do right?

Well, I've been through all this & now, Im going through it again which its cycle from one edge of circle to another. Basically, Im close to this friend of mine but I know, sooner we wont be that close @ th previous one. Well, to be honest. Despite of being harsh, throwing tantrums, making me sad nor happy, this friend of mine is there without fail. But somehow, after knowing deeply & very deeply, I get to know that this friend of mine isnt treating me as a friend but, more than that I assume. I know but I ignore it as it isnt my concern @ all. So pretending that I dont know a thing. Weeks & months later, confessed but still I took it as a prank.

Weeks ago, my feeling fo everyone was just a trash eversince I recovered from Influenza-like illness. I showed tantrums to my friends, family & even Beh-loh-ve. I know I got to stop this 'tantrums feelings' but I just couldnt resist. I want everyth to be perfect, but to no avail. Slowly, I accidently throw tantrums @ this friend of mine due to weeks of mc & informing me anyth about outside event eg: school, friends, news.

Partially Im mad & I feel like giving up. I was so emotional by then. I dont feel like getting cure afterall. Tell this friend of mine that Im mad & without hesitation obviously he was mad @ me too. Both of us mad @ each other so by then, we almost getting seperated. Im trying to held back my tears but failed. I cried more often before & after. Till then, we less communicate, texting one another, slacking & eat like how we used to be.

One thing fo sure, this friend of mine is th best but since due to my emotional thread, I lost a friend. A friend whom I can rely on when I need th shoulder fo my pamper-ness. Thank You.

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Ah gtg. Wna have my beauty sleep :D Goodnight, people!

2009-08-14T22:28:00.000-07:00

Sighs, my camera handphone sungguh gelaaaaaaap. Kay anws, thank you so much (: I dont feel like going to JB. Sighs, too hot & it'll make me sick :/ Can I not go?

Basically, I miss my junkies!

I wna go out w them, seriously. Arrrrgh.

2009-08-13T08:20:00.000-07:00

Its been a week I last update. Here goes nothing.

Saturday.
Before that, me, Beh-loh-ve & Fadh went to Diy's (Secondary friend) jemputan.
Had many plans but, some has to cancel due to not enough time. Headed to town w th Didiyanah, Lil Sist, Sweetheart & Beh-loh-ve. Supposingly, we intend to send Diy to town to meet her friends, but, idk what happen, everyone go town. Seperated w Didiyanah.

Left sweetheart, me & lil sist & Beh-loh-ve.
We headed to some shops to shopping. Yes, we bought alot of tops! Both me & sweetheart bought 2 tops each =4 & as fo lil sist, she bought 2. Thanks to Beh-loh-ve fo treating us! And his wallet can kopak alright as th total amount is $86.70. Haha, thank you love!

So, next we walked around & decided to meet Aisha @ Pacific Plaza since its been months I last met her. So, headed down there & make a fool of ourselves. Sweetheart has been running around inside th shopping mall. So does Beh-loh-ve. Both of them were making a nuisance but overall, it was funny lah. Macam anjing ngan kucing gituk ~

After th nuisance part, back to carpark where our car were parked. Diy called us up asking where we were. So, waited fo her @ th carpark.

Met her & off we go. So, without knowing, our car was stopped in th middle of th road. Beh-loh-ve tried to accelerate but failed. So, both Beh-loh-ve & Diy pushed th car @ th side of th road. Erk, fyi, our car stopped infront of Istana (Dhoby Ghaut).

We were so pissed off by then but, idk why both sweetheart & lil sist were enjoying themselves. Maplek btol. In times, Didi came (we called), & thanks to Didi's friend, Acap fo lending his car to us. As we all were in rushed to meet my parents up @ Henderson Wave. So, Didi's turn to drove us there. Reached Henderson Wave, we were damn tired by then.

Sunday.
Around 7pm, we make a move to Hougang Mall. Visit my lil sweet darling as she is working. So, disturb her & she looks superb cute lah. Terharu de ~

So, much talking, went to Marrina Constructive Barrage to catch th fireworks. Is superb nice but, too fast to enjoy our love-session w Beh-loh-ve. HAHA! Kidding.

Then, meet up w Nazri @ Bugis. Waited & off. Seperated w his friends. Decided to had our late dinner @ KTM, but upon reaching, sweetheart wanted to go home. Wth, kinda pissed off but held back since whats th point being pissed off. So, send her home & off to KTM. All of sudden Firdaus called me up fo a meet up. Wth. So had our dinner w Beh-loh-ve, Lil Sist, Nazri & Me. It was so nice & I had th momentum of it. HAHAHAHA!

Called Firdaus up telling him that we're heading to East Coast to chill. But, much knowing he dint bring his motorcycle along. Wth. So, off without him. Chill & fool around. Was so touched & we did talked about our past memories. Told everyone & all of them were feeling-feeling nak nanges gituk ~ HAHAHAA!

So, went to OCH but Nazri was scared so, we just passed by th place. Then decided to see bapok. We laughed our hearts off by then. Superb funneh ~ After Changi, intend to see some chalets @ Pasir Ris, look around & wonder around too. Superb nice but I got th budget ~

Then, off to home sweet home. By then, it was almost to 4am. Haha ~ Overall I had fun lah.

Monday.
Send Nazri home & got pissed off after receiving new news. Better pay back lah, jerk ass!

Tuesday.
Went to school per normal & was feeling tired as th previous day I wasnt asleep. Reached home, kebabom forawhile.

Wednesday.
Gave school amiss as I wasnt feeling good by then & furthermore, I was superb lazy. Shant elaborate much here.

Thursday.
School was great & had fun w them. Thank You fo everyth ~

Friday.
Today, gave school amiss. Gastric overcome it. Thank you so much. Text Mrs Yeo & dozed off till 3 + hahaha. Im being a lazy bum fo now ~ Nvm then (:

I cant wait fo later (: Dont disappoints me, please. New news coming up, @ night or later later.

2009-08-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

I dint sleep throughtout th morning. I kept thinking what have I done to you lately.

Decided to wake up pretty early but, having a second thought would be nice. So stayed a lil bit longer on my bed. Clock strikes 620am & I off to washoroom.

While bathing, tears came down flowing which I shant elaborate more. I kept on reminscing & thinking what have I done to you/others lately. Went to school without daddy but I always tell myself, keep calm & think positively. Almost reach Bishan, I decided to text bestf up asking where is he altho theres a mess in us. Waited fo him patiently, soon both buddies came. I am shocked we are drifting & soon, we are not close.

So, I held back my tears & sorrowness but somehow, I have to move on without others noticing. Sat @ nearest coffee shop & have a joke w other clan but, there still no differences. I wanted to cry badly but I gta put a smile on my face to show others that Im fine. Walking down th pathway alone was miserable as I kept thinking how long can I suffer being like this? How much longer can th wound heal?

Sat seperatedly w th usual clan as I was no where to be where I am usually. School was madness. I kept thinking & thinking.. Till I stressed out. I cried while otw back home & I suddenly got th urge to sleep throughout th day, but those rings & calls wer too irritating. It irritates me till I cried.

Now, Im still crying .....

2009-08-06T02:15:00.000-07:00

Currently, Im rotting @ home.

Soon, I will be back in action, which means tomorrow I'll be back in school. I bet, Shahril gna miss me. HAHA!

Its been 2 weeks Im not in school except fo Monday. I was pretty weak & but, strongly I pretend Im okeh. I dont wna make people worried sick laaaaah ):

Talking about school, muchly Im about to quit. I got no interest in school cum studies. I confess to certain people but mostly were shocked to th extend of my answers. Sorry, but its fo my benefits. On th other hand, I do wna continue studies fo my own good as I rlly wna have th certificate which Im yearning fo. So, lets see whats th outcome yeah?

2009-08-05T06:12:00.000-07:00

Monday.
School was fine but during break time, was unbearable. Shahril bought his food & as fo me, I bought drinks fo myself since I dont have much appetite eversince Im sick. So, sat w Shikin, Dayah & Marlinah.

And thanks to Shahril fo sharing my drink, I got th instinct that, Im gna be sick pretty soon. After school, slack awhile w some boys & they were knd of lame but afterall, I had super fun w them. It feels good fo having joker friends surrounded by us ~ (:

Home w Shahril & met up w Zuzu @ interchange since she wanted to meet her friend @ Sengkang. So, took bus 156 to Sengkang w her & finally she met her friend which is my friend. So, he was accompanied by his friend which is also my friend, Syahmi. We were shocked till Zuzu asked me whats wrong. Told her that both of them were friends of mine. HAHAHA :D She too were shocked. Tu lah, what a small world.

So, slacked w them forawhile & while otw to th void deck, saw friends of Zuzu's friend which is also my friend. One by one came & everyone were shouting 'EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFA! Rhindu kow' Zuzu were pretty shocked again & everyone slack together. Lastly, Acit came aka HotDog. Pretty amazed that he changed alot. He put angkong on his left hand & on his face too. He change pretty alot. So, ard 3-4+ I went home since later I'll be meeting Beh-loh-ve @ Bugis. Din & Salman, accompany me home & waited fo me to dress & doll up. So, after that, went back to th same void deck & seperated w Din, this time, Acit & Salman accompany to Compass to take th MRT.

In th Mrt, I felt so sleepy but, I held back th sleepyness. So, stop @ Outram & change mrt towards Bugis. When th MRT stops @ City Hall, I was so fcuking mad. Theres this Indian guy stand behind me. His toot touches my butt & he came & stand very near to me, I decided to slap but, cant as theres alot of people. I wanted to shout, but I cant bear th pain of my sorethroat. So, I called Beh-loh-ve hp, but network busy. Called him again, still cant get through. Once reach Bugis already, I told him everyth & cant believe, my tears flow down.

Keh skipped.

Walked around Bugis & Sim Lim since theres noth much. Went to Arab Street since he wanted to go. So, theres where my mood went down. I felt very tired & sleepy. So, told him that, why not we took 80 to Vivo & took 80 again to go home. He agreed, & off to 80 bus stop. I slept throughout th journey even going home too. Im totally tired.

Reached home, slept th whole day.

Tuesday.
Give school a miss since Im totally tired & sick due to sharing th drink w Shahril. Ishk. Off to Poly again & mc were given.

Wednesday.
Rot @ home & read some comics which Beh-loh-ve gave. Ex, accompany my through msges.
Thanks so much. I cant wait fo Saturday. Hurry up please.

Happy 9th, love.

2009-08-01T10:08:00.000-07:00

2nd post.

I couldnt make it. Im lost. Im sick & tired of being like this. I tried my very best to forget evrything that has happened few months back & I realised, I cant make it through. I miss evrything that happen. Sweet moments, sweet talks, sweet memories were all inside & kept in my heart but I guess, I have to throw away & start afresh.

Is this th reality or just a minor imagination to me?

Happy 17th birthday Muhd Taufiq, ex.

2009-08-01T01:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, gave school a miss. I really thot I was fine by then, but I was not. So went back home to take a rest & I slept throughout th day. I was so exhausted & I felt a lil dizzy by th time I woke up from sleep. So, met boyf @ Sengkang & we took 43 to Geylang Serai since Hari Raya is getting nearer, we decided to stroll @ Geylang to have a look those Kebayas & Kurongs. While strolling, many of malays have already bought their baju. One of th Kebayas has caught my eyes but, it cost alooooooooooot. Soon, boyf's wallet gna koyak pretty soon. Right boyf? Nvm, I decided not to buy since my wardrobe has alot of kebayas!

Last year was orange w Arep but this year, gna be different. Goooosh, I cant wait.

I miss alot of people right now.
Ayin, Zariina, Syahadah, Ekahchirio, Lynnastro, Espl cliques, alooooot lah! Geng Ts, S2NIA, Pei hwa cliques. Alot alot alot.

Now, I realise you isnt worth my happiness.

2009-07-30T12:18:00.000-07:00

Im happy like ass.

Just had a lil conversation w Beh-loh-ve & Daniel (made a new friend). And yes, we conference & Im proud of my babyboys. Both of them were talking non stop as if, both of them knew each otha years ago. So, they came out alot of topic. I mean ALOT, such as how we knew each other, some introductions about us, jobs, salary & etc. Its damn alot till, I smile while hearing them talking. So, love put down th phone 1st as he needs to accompany Paktam to idk what shit. So, both me & Daniel talks non stop till love reminded me that Daniel needs to go to school th next day. Thanks fo th reminder, lil pig! :D

So, put down & here I am still texting love :D

I miss Nur Syahadah like fcuk ass. Ass her, dont wna meet me. I felt sad that Shahril has been contaminated. And my flu is getting annoying. Not forgetting my sorethroat. Kept coughing non smoke. ): I miss school, but I guess I have skip it due to both flu & sorethroat. Sighs ):

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH, I craving fo ice cream.

Im ready to set you free, 29th.

2009-07-28T09:58:00.000-07:00

Ah sorry fellow readers. I totally fergot to update about Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday. So, here's th update, aite?

Friday
Alot of people visited me on that day as I was sick like terribly sick. Macam orang mmpos ade ah ~ So there were Shahril, Nazri Cousin & Beh-low-ve. These 3 guys made my day macam orang gile. Shahril bestie bought 3 porridge as both sist were still sick but can see some of th symptoms are oke but as fo me, I really had to eat to make my stomach full & to release some of my illness go away. Then came Nazri. He kept pestering me to buy stupid stuff but sorry, I cant. So, he talk'd to me like its been ages we met. HAHA! Macam orang kiasu -.-"

Next were Beh-low-ve. He w his bag pack & his work uniform. Superb cute lah, like lil boy. Th guys talked macam da brape tahun taq jumpe gtuk but overall they made my day! Thanks fo visiting aite?

But Im pretty scared @ that point of time. Reason fo being scared is that, I dont want any of them been contaminated by me. Im sick & pretty much scared they been contaminated. Takot jangkit oii ~

So, Shahril left early as he's tired from school. Left cousin & Beh-loh-ve. Beh-loh-ve drived cousin home @ ard 12 midnight. Beh-loh-ve overnight @ my house since th next day we're going out w my family to celebrate ibu & ayah anniversary @ Royal Hotel.

Saturday
Beh-loh-ve went to work 1st & as fo both me & eldest sist gotten ready to ransack daddy's warbdrobe. Finds him his smart kemamat clothes & bottoms, & finally we found it. Haha. Beh-loh-ve reached home & we quickly gotten ourselves ready. Wearing dresses, make-ups & heels were so troublesome but what to do, girls do have to doll fo ourselves to make us look good & pretty, right?

So, beh-loh-ve drive me & daddy to Boon Keng 1st as Beh-loh-ve needs to take things from his mama whereas both sist & her boyf (eldest sist) @ th other car. So, after Boon Keng, fetched ibu @ her workplace. So, 30 mins later, we str8 went to Royal Plaza but before that, I told both parents to blindfold themselves. It was hilarious! Both me & Beh-loh-ve were laughing all th way. So, upon reaching there, we blindfolded them & many eyes were on us! Malu okeh. Once reaching them, told them to un-blindfolded & can see ibu were shocked. Haha.

Gotten ourselves a seat & settled down. So, since many of us hungry we carousel-ing. Took alot of food like, Kebab, Sushi, Rice, Noodles, Chocolate Foundue, Chocolate cakes & etc. Were alot & we were bloated by then.

After that, we went to JB. Did shopping fo household & finally I bought myself 2 large crackers LAYS. HAHAHA, thanks boyf! Went Pandan City aftermath & had our window shopping & ate again. This time round, I couldnt finish my Mee Kway Teow. I had 2 Watermelon Juice. Super cheap & delicious.

After our 'supper', we decided to head home since its late & we're tired.

Sunday
Both me & Beh-loh-ve rot @ home. We had our quality time together. He made my day & i love you :D

Eldest sist, ibu & her boyf went KKH to visit lil cousin. But fo myself, I decided & plan to go th next day w Beh-loh-ve & Sweetheart since I miss sweetheart biggy time.

Monday
Met sweetheart @ Little India & off to KKH together w boyf of course! So, headed down & saw my aunties & uncles. Oh thanks my slipper we spoilt due to sweetheart stepped on it. Tsk~ Bwat malu pakai sticker. Ishk.

Aaaah, its long & lazy to update more further. Goodnight, lovelies!

2009-07-27T08:30:00.000-07:00

I had fuuuuuuun w my pretty loves!

Thanks love & sweets fo th day.
Iloveyou

2009-07-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

I cried after remiscing th past. Showing th concern & love towards me was unpredictable! You were gone far far far away & I treasure you alot after you know that Im stuck w th condition 'losing my memory'. And never you shows your tantrums @ me. You were cool & steady altho we're having conflict. Thank You So Much fo everyth. Promises were just a lie, I shall say.

Life wasnt great @ all. I've been quarantine & it'll took me 1-2 weeks. How long am I gna be like this? Thanks so much, Mr Fever, Ms Flu & Madam Sorethroat.

I fcuking miss Nur Syahadah Binte Tak Perlu Tawu. She has been away fo days seconds weeks months years, bedek ah years! And finally Monday which is later on, I can finally meet her together w beh-lov-we! Right, part of sajam rhuaku whye port? HAHA!

Oh, I just dropped by someone's shared account blog & really would like to congrats new lovebirds fo offically together. Its none other than BellArep! I was shocked & my tears was flowing as really amazed. I was so elated by then. Anws, congrats fo having exchange love! Dearest ex, do tc of her & no bully of her wors! Altho she small but she knew how to handle oke! All th beeeeeeeeeest :D

Love has went home & Im pretty much bored now. Gosh, but thank goodness his away bcox I can flirt w my tweety bird which Sweets gave me :D Haha, ily lah.

I rlly mad @ certain people. Does they know th meaning of sick in their small cells of brain? I merely fainted & I wasnt that well enough. I know they need th informations from me, & why doesnt they jote down th informations together too? Arent we th same groups? Helping one another? Im mad + really am no mood.

Its been weeks I dint touch that harmful sucker. Good job, EEEFA ELLIE!

2009-07-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

School's indeed PATHETIC. Came to school fo 3 hours lesson & thats it. Walaowei ~ Early in th mawning was so sleepy but I cant sleep in th bus, as it is rather cold. So, headed to school per normal & luckily, Shahril bought fo me 2 mini box of sweets which I told him to buy. Thanks bro!

So, 1st lesson were POA. Quite oke w it, & did some catching up about cheque which I wasnt concentrating. Lawls! So, next & finally lesson were BEG. Shiok oii ~

After school went off to canteen to accompany Nana as she is hungry. So, after eating off home sweet home. Went Compass & had small conflicts w love, sorry. Bought 2 packets of porridge fo both sists. Then to lala land ~

These days was so shagged but, @ night, sugguh fresh. Taq perlu siak.

Currently revising fo BEO test which postpone 2mrw! Aaaaah, stress naq mampos.

Oke done w th post. Wna revise!

I still miss you though.

2009-07-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

Lack of updates, my apology.

Thursday, went to school per normal as daddy sent me to school. Oh yea, I know kinda pampered but hell, Imma spoilt brat even love says so! School wasnt as fun though as every lesson held, Im get too bored or worst too distracted. Im just not in school mood nowadays. Projects & lots of project coming which made me much more focus instead of studying. Projects were oke this term & I can get stick to it.

Friday, was sucha bored.
Ayin went F1, Radz is sick, Mira & me were too lazy too hear those lectures & Shahril busy w his music or texting people up. Anws, after school headed to W'lands. Aftermath, met up w Sweetheart since its been ages we last met. Then, went to cousin's crib to do some touch up projects & print, but hell, it was so frustrated including myself as his printer doesnt work @ all. Ishk, left his house & all of us planned to go my hometown since they prefer my crib. So yeah.
BUT, before heading to my crib. Both cousin & bitch bullied me to buy that pathetic thing. WTH & thanks eyk ~ But nvm, once in a lifetime. So, went to Cozway to do some matters & took 161 home. So, Shahril meet us @ my crib.

Ard 8, left th house & enjoy. HAHAHA :D Shared some problems to them & was told about th msges which all of us received. Mangkok ~ So all of us get scared & reached home, all th way text them up. Lawls.

Saturday, last mint planned w bitch. Decided to watch fireworks @ Marina. Met Beh-low-ve @ off to Esplanade to have our late dinner & supper. Thanks fo th treat & finally I get to eat Satay, Sugarcane & Roti John Cheese :D Heaveeeen siol ah siol.

Sunday, went to Bugis w Lil Sist & Beh-low-ve. Met up w his cliques, Fitri Kecik, Nana & Fee. So, walk around & seperate ways. They went to Esplanade fo their drinks while, 3 of us headed to town. Noth excitement so back to Bugis & Finally, Lil Sist bought 2 dresses fo herself. GELOJOH! As fo th 2 of us, empty handed. Fo th 1st time in my life, i bring empty handed.

Aaaah, Im gna sleep pretty soon. School 2mrw & I;ve not yet prepare fo BEO test!

2009-07-15T09:37:00.000-07:00

Sorry fo th previous post & Im sorry fo making you people worried especially AyinJade. Hahaha. Si mkck tebiat tuh. Hahaha!

Oke oke, lets start. School was sucha a hectic fo me! Menyumpah siao. Tuesday, had a hard time concentrating which idk why. But someth clash into my mind fo no reason & its about th past. Oke nvm, so stayed in school to accompany 2 jantan gebrat @ school just to play CS. Wth, then since im bored i text bby girl kite, AyinJade to meet up fo a shortwhile. Effing rhindu siao tuh jacko! Hahaha. Then, FirSponge called me up to slack w him. Then I agreed. Seperate ways w jacko ako tros zoom meet them.

So, after that, headed down to Clementi to my sweetheart gile ako. Menyumpah siak tuh tmpt, as its effing fcuking hot & my hair last warning eyk! Bad hair day soyal. Had a long talk to her & she was lame but still i love you lah gemok! HAHAHAHA :D

Inside th candy empire, luf called me up & both of us girls were laughing our ass off due to his laughing, like gorilla siak. HAHA. So, headed to Sengkang to slack so ask him to tag along. Was kecoh lah kite. But b4 that Sya accompany me to my house to change since Im all sweaty. So, while waiting fo luf, we laughed our ass off. She did her swine sneeze & add on to pig's voice. Alah, phm2 jek lah. Only Arep knows. Haha.

So, dah meet, kite lepak jap & off.

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Wednesday.

Early mawning raining heavily & I cant get out of th house. Thanks alot, ard 815 baru kuwa uma. Met sya & aisha @ Hougang Last cabin & off to school. I stopped @ S'goon to change mrt & off to school. Met w Shahril up since he's damn early as he thought class starts @ 8am instead of 9am. Pathetic but overall, school was oke fo me.

Finally had my mee tai bak @ banquet. Thank you love!

AND ...

FINALLY MY BBYGERL TURNS 16 ALREADY. ITS NONE OTHER THAN EKAHCHIRIO. iloveyou bby!

2009-07-12T00:45:00.000-07:00

Counting down th date. And I kept remiscing about it. Time flies very fast. How I wish, I could rewind back those times. I just couldnt believe it came from my mouth itself. And, wishing it could stop spouting those nonsense. Apologise doesnt make a difference because I know it never happen. Back to reality, not th past. I couldnt careless how people feels, all I think about myself. Being ego is what people said, but, I didnt manage to be myself again.

No one knows why Im into you badly, and I assume we break through it. I really have to go, go far away from people I treasure th most. But I cant. Why must I have to be like this, no one knows why even me.

Friends were there but it didnt complete completely. I felt horrible being this state. And, please give me hope once more.

'I cant stay like this' & it hurts me alot. Alot like I feel like putting an end in life. I know being strong is always I am but, this? All these is just fake, but can people accept me being a fake person? Giving good advises & putting them hope, but as fo me? Me myself cant accept those advises & hopes.

Sighs, what comes into me now? Now, I put myself a biggest problem, treatment I mean. Avoiding fo such a long tim & now, Im into this state. Thanks Efa fo putting yourself a major situation.

Can I give up, can I? Pretty please.

2009-07-11T00:08:00.000-07:00

Im bored & still have not yet bath. Both sisters is away to Batam fo their short holidays. Hope you guys bring back some souveneirs okeh! Do tc.

I wna watch fireworks but, friends sungguh buat ako binget. Ishk ~ Nvm then.

You changed to th worst & Im disappointed in you. What come over you? I believe someday you open up your heart & realised that all this while you were doing wrong deeds. Whatever obstacle you;re facing, Im here. I miss th old you & Im ashamed of th new you.
Ps: Iloveyou

2009-07-10T05:10:00.000-07:00

Everyth is fine now & no bridges among us. Thank god.

Just now, mother caught me. Know why? Its bcox of I put my lighter inside my school skirt & gosh, I was searching fo it while Im busy playing lappy. Fcuk & she questioned me like alot, I tell you. So, people. A reminder, put your personal stuff somewhere that parents dont know.

Aaaah, my only lighter. Stupid.

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Just now, headed to AMK to meet a friend of mine fo 5 years & he accompanied me to visit my used to be neighbour whom in th past, she took great care of my siblings when parents werent around. So, yeah. She's old & she's sick. I know as she having high blood pressure, diabetes & asthma. Gosh, I assume she is 60+. Nenek, thank you fo take good care of me.

And not to forget, th letter. We, family told th hdb what we shifted house & we told our new address but somehow, it kept coming back. Kept sending out letters like household bills, uob & etc. See lah, it gets irritated.

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Reached home, vomit. Blood alil & headache coming back. Tell me that. I feel so weak but am still control it. Ah, nvm. Hoping I'll be better fo th next day. And, I wna watch fireworks. Anyone? Haha.

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Ayinjade, kiter rindu awak!

2009-07-09T00:35:00.000-07:00

Oke, thanks so much fo sending me to school, dearest. Altho its a last min, but still you are th greatest! Hahaha. Iloveyou lah geng! And, thank you fo th kisses & hugs.

Oh, I felt so touched.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ~

Andriano.

2009-07-07T08:05:00.000-07:00

People can never undestand when others are having problems.

What am I doing this? Its too painful to accept th fact but, Im putting an end to it. And, I've made my mind. Explain it clearly & I will be strong enough to face th reality.

I believe I strong, but this time, it never be):

You said you didnt want to see me hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

2009-07-03T02:16:00.000-07:00

Basically, Im getting annoyed & irritated by someone. Well, its been days & texting me & cliques regarding of going out. Asking me to plan & so forth. You knew if you are bored, texted me up saying about plan, I dont mind @ all. But, if everyday, its a no way fo me.

Wadya expect? Me all th time? Me too, needs some space. Why cant you people plan yourself? Scared I hate th place? Or dislikes it? No way, we're in a group & no matter what, we're all in this together.

You getting irritating, I assume.

Sighs*